Sorry for the long reply, I read all the advice here and really appreciate the replies.

So we've been on this 'break thing" for nearly 3 weeks. We've hung out a few times during it.
The first time she asked me to pick her up from work because wasn't feeling well and I did, we go back to my place, fuck a few times and go to sleep, I leave for work early in the morning and we don't talk or anything.
Next week we do pretty much the same thing, go for dinner / ice cream, fuck, smoke weed, watch tv and sleep. She leaves for work the next day and we don't talk.
Third time I meet her and her friends at a party and we both have an amazing time. We have a lot of fun together and I can tell she's really happy. We go back to my place continue partying and then eventually 'talk'.

We decide that we both really love each other and want to work things out. Eventually I ask if she was faithful to me during the last few weeks, she initially says 'yes' and asks if I was and I say "no." (Because she pretty much left me hanging and didn't say anything I went on a few dates and hooked up) She then changes her answer and reveals that she was not. She explains that she was really depressed, got drunk with a friend, went to an after party and was 'dragged upstairs' and that she didn't mean for it to happen or anything. I get upset and tell her that this changes things for me, basically that I'm not willing to work on things, and that I don't want to be with someone that does those kinds of things to me.
She get's really upset, starts crying explaining things, justifying, asking me to please give her another chance. Next day I go to work, and she sends me messages about how she's not going to give up on this and that she feels awful and stuff. I basically blame her for everything, and was probably a little harsh too. I made it pretty clear that I didn't want to get back together, but said I want time and space to think on it.

I'm fairly certain everyone on this forum will tell me to walk away, and that's what I probably should do and what my gut is telling me to, but there's a part that wants to stay. I don't know if this is something that can be fixed.

Anyway, just wanted to give an update, and I more so post this just to write it down and reflect on it.

thanks again for the replies

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Wait...so you're saying it was all going well until you found out she hooked up with another guy, which you found unacceptable, even though you hooked up with another girl? These double standards don't make sense to me.

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Never heard that one before..

Let the weakness go and move on. And if you believe thats the only time she's done that you have another thing coming. She lied when you first asked for a reason. You told the truth. From considering hanging with an old ex asking her to be single to the random poor behavior similar to that of when a girl starts taking interest in someone else. Move on.

You'll be alright.

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She's a liar and been looking for dicks months back

You're a hypocrite

Both of you dont really give a fuck about the other, and I think neither should be in a rs until you both grow up.

Move on

I think sometimes it happen that one partner thinks that everything is great and doesn't notice that the other partner needs something else. In case you have any doubts it is better to talk sincerely as making guesses can lead to some wrong assumptions. You never know what is there in a woman's head going))

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I would leave her months ago. But this:
Don't you imagine what kind of nasty things they did? If you decide to stay together, you're seriously lacking any self-respect.

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Ego attachment, not love.

Funny how the OP can sleep with women but when she admits to having fucked some guy he loses his shit.

This relationship expired ages ago, somebody forgot to give either one of these clowns the memo.

As a little reinforcement, move on. Your double standards are ridiculous. Contrived obviously. Why even ask if she had been faithful if you two weren't dating? You knew what you would do if she said yes. Also, on her end, I highly doubt she was essentially raped. But I know you know that. Move on. She's not worth the energy and time.

Dude you failed so many times here. The night she left you shouldn't have even called or texted her until she camr back to your doorstep to ask for her shit. Also, the fact that you continued talking to her trying to fix things instead of ignoring her for her shitty behavior exemplifies your lack of other options. She is fucking another guy but is still 'talking' with you about the possibility of the relationship continuing because you have accepted being her emotional tampon, which is why she wont meetup or have sex with you (she's obviously getting it elsewhere). By trying to work things out and give her attention and validation of your interest in her, you have made yourself the 'backup guy' or the cuckold beta loser who gets no sex because that element of the relationship is long gone. I bet if she said a month from now (after she had her fun fucking another guy, or he pumps and dumps her) that she was sorry and wanted to get back together with you, you'd take her back with open arms. If that were to happen, she would continue to do this same thing in the future because you have demonstrated to her that you will tolerate it.

This is the kind of chick that if you had INSTEAD fucked another girl you had on standby and started dating her and this chick found out, she'd scream 'you don't care about our relationship blah blah' when she in fact was the one who wanted a break to 'find herself'

Moral of the story: Use this girl for sex ONLY and only text her to come over with a time. Any response other than a yes deserves no text back. Use her while you find one that actually wants a relationship with you.