O hai!
Let's cut the crap, shall we? I'm taking part in this No-Fap fad and I made a blog about it. We'll see if it has any effects on me or not.
Feel free to comment! I'll make an update once a week.

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Day 7 - Cravings

The first two days were - as I remembered from my last try - pretty easy. Nothing especially painful and nothing especially cool. But by the third day I began to get cravings. It was as if my dick suddenly became alive and started yearning for "the usual". Nothing too extreme though, so I easily pulled it off.

But oh boy, did it start to feel nasty after the fourth day! My dick started getting impatient. Fapfapfapfapfap, it tried to tell me. Am I really this addicted to jacking off?

But that was nothing compared to the days between the fifth and the seventh days. It was a boring weekend which I was spending at Mom's in the sticks. Mom and stepdad were spending the weekend somewhere else (can't remember where) and I was supposed to take care of my youngest sister and the cats with my older little sister. Lots of boners yearning to get satisfaction. No reason for them, really, my body just wanted to get treated by its hand, like always. But I didn't give in. I had already failed once and I won't be doing the same mistakes again. I developed a cool strategy that actually worked: every time I felt like jerking off, I did something else... that was non-sexual. Playing solitaire worked really well. And no, that wasn't a pun for fapping. Luckily I could at least sleep.

Well, except during Sunday night. My slight insomnia combined with a huge boner in bed doesn't make a good equation. Seriously, if you've ever gone to bed and suddenly got a massive hard-on, you know what I'm talking about. Except I couldn't satisfy myself, like before. I got out of bed and did some squats. It half-killed it boner. I then went to the kitchen to get a glass of water. Now it finally started to subside. Back to bed to get some sleep so I won't be a total zombie in the mor... of fuck, not again! It was a terrible night. Luckily I made it through without touching myself.

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I'm doing no fap. I don't have the craving to watch porn nearly as much as I did before. I feel so much better both mentally and physically... I just have lots of energy even when I feel tired after a rough night.

Still, I think all the porn has really fucked up my libido and made me lazy when it comes to women but it's slowly changing.

Day 14 - This is all new for me (Week 2)

Phew, about time! For some reason, I've been wanting to write here every day even though I really haven't got much to say from one day only. I might start writing here a bit more often, if I fell like it.



Gotta say, this week's been really difficult, but at the same time it's been really rewarding.

On day 8 (when I started writing this blog), I noticed something. I had a lot more energy and I felt manlier. I felt like I had to do something, anything, all the time. Since then, every morning I look at my face, I see that my gaze is differentt. Intence, sexy, alpha as fuck. It's only in the morings though. Testosterone levels are always higher just after waking up and research says not nutting for a week makes testosterone levels skyrocket. I'm pretty sure that has something to do with it lol. Another thing is noticed: sometimes when I take a piss, the piss is white and cloudy. Looks like my body is trying to get a way to get rid of excess cum haha.

On Day 8 or 9 (can't remember which) I did something I had never done before. Somethings I should've done ages ago. Something anyone my age should've done already.

For the first time in my life, I bought condoms.

I had returned some bottles to the grocery store for recycling and went to get a low-carb snack (I got myself a protein chocolate pudding mix) when I noticed something. In the part of the store where they put the last pieces of something that they're not going to restock anymore, there were packs of condoms on discount. And not just any condoms; they were fucking Durex Performa condoms, the kind that contains a special lube that makes you last longer! That'll certainly come in handy as I'll probably cum in just seconds thanks to this No-Fap when I finally get to have sex lol.

At first I was hesitant. The number one reason I'd never buy condoms before was because I was afraid of buying them ("OMG, that's so embarrasing, the cashier's gonna give me a weird look, I'll never get to use them anyway, bla fucking bla"). But this time I didn't really hesitate. I did a little at first, but then I though "Oh what the hell, I'll buy them anyway" and just walked to the counter. I didn't really give a fuck about the whole thing, whereas usually I would've been extra nervous about it. But now I wasn't. A protein snack and condoms, heh, that'll make a pimp's shopping list!

It definitely hasn't been easy though. I've been thinking about sex. A lot. And I can't stop! I've practically been having boners half the time I'm awake! I keep fantasizing all the time and it's really hard to stop once it gets me hard. It's endurable but feels pretty nasty.

I started reading stuff about the pick-up community again. I've been reading about pick-up, seduction and pleasing women for a year already. But now I noticed something. I wasn't really reading them for advice anymore though (I pretty much knew everything beforehand). Oh no, I made a step back in my No-Fap with this mistake.

I started reading mostly lay reports. And not for the techniques. Just for the sex in them.

Then I began to realize something. Reading lay reports just for the sex in them is pretty much like watching porn. It's like jacking off to 50 Shades of Gray or something, except without jacking off. It almost got out of hand untill Saturday. Then I really noticed what it was like so I just stopped. It might've pushed my progress back a bit but I'll let it slide for now. Not going to do it again though!

Luckily I haven't had the problem of not being able to sleep anymore. Unlike during my previous try, I wasn't getting boners in bed at all. Sometimes it was close though, but I just thought about something nasty so I just went away. Even during Sunday night when I slept naked. Yes, last night I decided to sleep naked. I did so for a while before and during I began my first No-Fap and it was an interesting experience.

By the way, I made a "date" with a female friend of mine to go to a bar next Friday. I'm not gonna poke her but if all goes well, I could meet a chick there. At least I'm really motivated to talk to girls because right now...

...I'm really fucking desperate to bust a nut!!

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i also try to not fap anymore tho i still do every now and then, when i do right after i feel like a complete loser with a addiction. i can go for months without fappong but before when i was overweight i fapped atleast 3x a day! try not to be on the computer more than 30 min or your mind begins to wonder... porn.

Yo. I've been a bit lazy, so... yeah.




Day 21 - What are these new powers!? (Week 3)

The first four days of the week were difficult, as always, but definitely not as difficult as it was before. What was the biggest factor for the week's difficulty was, however, that the week was a week off from school. Yeah, long hours of doing nothing in compelte privacy. Yep, totes not a fuckload of times when it was easy to relapce. However, I took it like boss and did not fap.

But it was hard not to, mind you.

For the week, I kinda developed a small habit that definitely wasn't going to make my journey easier; I started spending my private hours naked. Yeah, so fucking smart when I don't want any urges to fap and, well, having my dick exposed 24/7 isn't def gonna make me horny or anything. I did stop it by the weekend though.

But the pressure was there. I had a huge pressure down there to shoot my load. It wasn't as prevalent as it was last week, but it definitely there. All the time. I really felt the need to have a moist vagina or mouth around my cock anytime. I arranged a meeting to a local bar with two female friends of mine (and no, I wasn't interested in fucking them) for Friday night. I did so because I though I might find a chick there that'd be in for some pounding. Even though I was (and still am) a virgin, I felt as if I'd already had smex many many times before and I hadn't had any for a while. Yeah, fucking logical, I know. I was really desperate to get sex.

Then, something happened. I had a wet dream.

The night between Thursday and Friday I had a wet dream. The dream wasn't sexual at all at first, but by the end before I woke up in the morning I dreamt that I was lying in bed, naked, with two other random guys, all of us had a chick, and mine went to the toilet before we were going to get to the business. In the dream I got impatient and just kinda humped against the bed. Then I accidentally came. And then I woke up and saw that my boxers were in cum. I didn't shoot a lot of it, even though I probably should've since, well, I hadn't busted a nut for almost three fucking weeks.

But the psychological effects of it were really huge. I wasn't having any boners anymore during the whole weekend and I was really content with it. When I finally spent Friday night (and Saturday night as well, since a friend of mine came back to town) I was definitely checking girls out but I wasn't feeling it. I didn't feel the need to approach them and get sex. I was just content. Oh well, another reason was that I was just plain lazy lol. And there wasn't much selection.

But that's not all. I noticed (especially during the weekend) that I didn't care about pretty much anything in the world. And only in good ways! I just had a I-don't-give-a-fuck feeling all the time and it felt pretty good. I didn't have any pressure and I was feeling good and relaxed all the time.

Looks like things are gonna turn out just fine. I'm sure of it.



Day 35 - Laziness and horniness (Weeks 4 & 5)

Yo. Last time I apolgized for posting late. Ahahah, well...

Yeah. I felt really lazy and unenergetic so I didn't bother to actually do anything. Meaning I didn't write anything. I'm not especially proud of it lol.



For some reason I felt really unenergetic on the 4th week. I just couldn't bother to do anything. I didn't bother doing anything for school, I didn't bother writing here, I didn't bother doing anything for a few personal projects of mine... I think you got the picture.

During the fourth week I also did something that I really shouldn't have done. I accidentally came. Oh well, half-accidentally.

I felt like flexing so I took my jeans and hoodie off and started flexing on my bed. Then I noticed something. I started to get hard. And flexing felt good. Down there, that is. During my last No-Fap I noticed that staying in a stationary position that's difficult to maintain caused me to have an orgasm. It could take anywhere from half a minute to ten seconds. This time it took me longer than that. But I kept flexing untill I accidentally came. Or well, I... kinda.... kept on going because it kinda felt good... Anyway, I shot a huge load on my belly. Like, huge! I don't think I've ever produced that much cum during an orgasm in my entire life.

It was hard to decide whether I just relapced or not. I didn't really intend to do it but at the same time I kinda kept on it the hopes of cumming. Finally I came to the conclution that it was just an accident but a second time would already be intentional. So I just went along the challenge as if nothing happened.

During these two weeks I've actually been getting quite a lot of boners. Usually they've gone away pretty quickly but sometimes I really felt the urge to jack off. I brushed it off but it was really hard to do. My dick was getting really desperate to get something moist around him. Or a hand. It didn't really matter to him which.

During the fifth week I also started fantasizing about sex. And recalling previously seen porn. In fact, I'm fantasizing right now as I'm writing this post. It just kinda comes without having to think about. I can't help it, I'm thinking about sex a lot. It's really hard not to. Also, whenever I accidentally notice a sexy picture or a picture of porn... I kinda stay there and watch. Not in the sense that I'm looking at porn, more like in the sense that I don't turn it off immideately. It's definitely not making this any easier.

But I'm hanging in there. And I'm not going to stop.

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I found that No Fap in moderation was good... but going past two weeks just made me needy and hung up on a single woman with all my focus on her... ultimately screwing it up and ignoring other women. For me it's a lot better to just fap once a week or if I find i'm talking to or thinking about a girl too much. After letting one out i'm back to not giving a fuck.

I also noticed that my libido wasn't as healthy as it was with a bit of masturbation every now and then. Sex drive was flaky at times but after polishing the rocket once in a while it was much more healthier.

So yeah, slap that bass every now and then in my opinion.

Day 63 - Easy and HARD (Weeks 6-9)


O hai! It's been a while. I haven't felt like writing because pretty much nothing's happened during the time... and I was also lazy lol. I think I'll start writing every two or three weeks instead of every week since, well, things have actually started to settle down a bit.


This No-Fap thing isn't so difficult anymore. I'm more or less used to not fapping and watching porn. I do get cravings every now and then but not too often. Of course, my boners have naturally been huge and rock-hard. I feel more confident and at ease; I kinda started developing an IDGAF mentality and I'm proud of it. Now since a lot of my schoolwork has past I'm not as stressed anymore, so the desire to jerk off has subsided a little.

But it's still there.

I've had more wet dreams during these four weeks than I've ever had. I think I get one every four or five days. This time they don't make me feel as satisfied as the made me before; I get easily horny, just like before. Oh well, at least they give me some sort of release since I'm not really getting laid.

Oh how my dick longs for something thick and moist around himself!

It's really annoying that I live in a small town, there's simply no way to get pussy here. Luckily I'm more confident and I'm not a scared of women as I used to. So, next time when I'm having a night out in a bigger town (when it's possible, that is...) I will get laid.

I promise that to myself.



TTFN! Don't worry, I haven't forgotten this blog lol

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