| Mkay well i took this model i shot with out to dinner and then brought her up to my roof, we were talking for a while and i touched her shoulder and she moved away, so i knew it was kiss close or bust. I told her to kiss me, and she was like "no, i'm wearing lipstick!" and i was like "so? i dont care. kiss me." and she gave me a short peck. i was like "oh come on, is that the best you can do", and then wrapped my arms around her and started kissing her neck. she didnt really pull away and i could tell she liked it but something was holding her back. i let her go and asked her what was wrong and she gave me all the excuses, what if someone would see, she was wearing lipstick, she was a virgin, etc. I told her we make our own perfect moments and then pointed out the sunset and said "how is this not right?" and then i held her for like 30 minutes just staring at the sunset. she told me i was just like the american boys she saw on TV and asked me what i was thinking. and then i told her to kiss me again and she couldnt really look me in the eye. i asked her if she was nervous and she was like no, so she kissed me again. finally i figured out what was wrong because she asked me what an american boy (she was from kazakhstan, in her country they pretty much marry after a kiss) would expect to happen after, and i was like, screw expectations, this is about having fun now. by the end of the night we were pretty comfortable with each other and i had a bit of lipstick on my face, but fuck it, right?
anyway i thought we ended pretty great but the next morning she texted me saying she was still waiting for the bus. and i was like "you're joking" and she was like "kind of", but i knew it couldn't be true because even if she was there all night the buses start at 6am and she was texting me at noon. its a couple days later and i asked her what shes doing on the 4th of july, no answer. i was pretty happy with how the night ended and i know i got past a lot of her barriers but shes usually a girl who texts back immediately, so i wonder what may have changed after she left to make her act like this
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