As it turns out, she is moving to Alabama due to inability to support herself living alone, she'll be living with her family up there, as opposed to currently living with them down here. Well, here's the convo:
her: Hey... so I sat down and took a reaaaally hard look at my budget, and there is absolutely no way in hell I'm going to be able to afford to live here in Fl...So it looks like I'll be moving to Alabama after all
Do you still want me to come to your graduation? If not I completely understand..I'm awfully tight on money now anyway.
me: If you can make it. After all I'd rather say goodbye in person, and there is something I wanted you to have....
her: Okay. I will be there
me: are you at home?
her: I'm at work SPAM. Work til 8ish
her: I'm really sad that it had to happen this way.. When I looked at my budget last night, and realized that I am about $600 short of being able to live here, I felt like someone punched me in the stomach. I just sat there and cried.
I've decided that once I get there, I'm going to just be a spiritual hermit. Meaning I'm going to hide away and work on my spirituality for a long time. Especially since I won't know anyone there. I think this is what I might need
me: I'm still moving to Tampa, with or without you here.
me: It does suck, can't imagine living there... I'd rather be homeless here than live there, but you didn't have to live alone.
me: I understand though, you gotta do what you gotta do, I'll see you Monday
her: Thanks for being understanding, see you
me: ttyl
I take it as she no longer loves me, and this is just her excuse to get out of the relationship. Not much I can do to build enough attraction to keep her despite her financial concerns. I had her from the start that hooked on me enough to stay living here, blew it somewhere along the line, wonder where or if I can get that back.
But then again, she did warn me from the start she may be moving to Alabama in a few months. Oh well, time to move on.