salut daniel je te félicite pour ta determination et ton sens de volonté , mais aussi d'avoir plus de 40 000 lectures sur ton topic , bonne chance mec
for english men i just gave him encouragment

Quick Update.

Here's a small update on the actions I've taken towards the Blushing Girl.

Interacting with Blushing Girl.
She's sent me a friend request on Facebook, which was a great thing since I didn't manage to number close her despite the good vibe we had when we met.
I've accepted her as a friend and sent a message to her:
I wanted to keep it short and simple, be a bit playful, but most importantly open a loop so that I can actually find a way to ask her out. Here's her answer:


In the mean time, her friend (the insolent girl) added me too. My goal is basically trying to get Blushing Girl to take a drink with me (like I did with Pondichery Girl) and I'll see what I do from there.

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Merci l'ami!

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A good tactic to avoid feeling insecure during your first interactions with a woman is to invite them out to a group event. (Hey, yeah, rio waas awesome, my friends and I are going to this brazilian bar/blah blah/ discotheque with latin music, you should come join us.) As in, with your group of friends. make sure you show up earlier than her and start socializing with your friends like normal. When she comes in, you will already have a social heirarchy (with you at the top I would hope) and you don't need to feel any pressure, in fact, she will appreciate any efforts you make to take the pressure OFF her as she is the stranger. Tell her to invite a friend and try to get a buddy laid. Daniel, I have been gone for 2 months, and I am happy to see you are still pursuing your desires, CAPATIALIZE!

You're needyness and insecurities may play against you in isolated situations, what if you just invite her out with the social group, pay a medium amount of attention to her and let her see you are just a cool guy with a cool life. Make her wonder what HER next move is, don't throw all the power in her lap by asking her out on a real date on facebook. She will think you like her, and subconciously think you are courting her for sex. Keep it in a social situation with clandestine escalation, you know, the type where she isn't sure if you are trying to hit on her or if your just always that way. Seed the idea by saying something like "Man, busy week looking for work/gym/ whatever is taking up your time, I am hoping to round up some of my friends this weekend for (fill in blank) to blow off some steam and have some fun." when she says that sounds fun, invite her nonchalantly "Oh, you like fun? cool, you'ere welcome to come, Ill let you know when the plans solidify". then make some plans, and go to work son.

Thats what I used to do before I could figure out how to own a date from beginning to end. dating actually makes it harder in my opinion, if you can make he date not about the two of you, but rather the task at hand, it makes it a lot easier to pass it off as a fun light time with friendly people. Which is like crack for sober girls sitting across from one another at dinner talking just makes the vibe scream "CHOOSE WHETHER YOU WILL HAVE SEX OR BLOW HiM OFF!". Only good if you are seasoned at making girls feel sexual attraction towards you. Otherwise you just fight with boring/mildly not boring all night long.

GOOD LUCK

@Insert.

Hey Insert, glad to see you back! Your last post was actually really inspiring to me.
That's good advice, but I just don't have this social leverage for now. My friends aren't in that kind of thing now... I don't have any "Game buddy" so to say. I'm on my own here. I don't really suck in dates I would say... I can bring a nice funny vibe... bring some nice eye-contact and BL... but yeah I don't go for it enough... I end up in this platonic hell... That's something I'd like to work on. I've already seeded the idea of going out to take a drink/coffee. It worked well with Swiss Girl and Pondichery Girl... We'll see where I go from there. She's actually pretty hot.
I'm actually pretty good at social events I guess... I've had really good results at building social momentum. As long as I know at least one or two people, I'm good. I don't care approaching other people and having fun with them... Hell, I even manage to get some numbers pretty easily. I'd like to have more opportunities like that...
I agree, dates make it harder.... Getting a coffee on an afternoon is tricky... I'm pretty good a conversation but sooner or later... the vibe fades away and I get stuck in the "chode purgatory". A date in a bar at night is a better option, you can get closer, dance a little, basically have way more fun... the place allows you to push it further... I don't know where I'm going with Blushing Girl, but I already know logistics are going to be tricky here.

I'd like more options to play around. To be honest, my priority is to get a job and move on with my life... this is just extra for me but I'm really happy since this girl is actually pretty hot and smart... I know I can't meet that kind of girls every day...

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Quick Update.

Here's a small update on my actions with Blushing Girl.

Blushing Girl.
I wrote her back talking a bit about Brazil and then reassuring her about her studies (I did the same courses a few years ago). I think that was bad calibration though... I should be seen more like a funny sexy guy, than a reassuring brother. I'll have to fix this in the next interaction. The trick here is to balance showing interest and showing a "whatever" attitude. I failed at that in the past with Swiss Girl... I was needy, desperate to see her again. I need to act like I don't really care, like I have a life aside and that she is just extra (which is actually true lol), but at the same time, keeping the door open.

At the end of the message, I wrote something like "We'll get a coffee/drink some time". It worked with Pondichery Girl and was a nice way to take the temperature... After all, I had almost no direct interaction with her and her friend (insolent girl) keeps posting picture of her with some guys (shit testing?) so I tried to go this way.

She replied three days later (she doesn't spend too much time on Facebook) saying about the idea of the drink that "yeah some time, it could be great" ("à l'occasion ça pourrait être chouette" in French). Next step: getting her number.

Reflections.
The closer I get to something that I want/desire, the less logically I think. That explains this whole self-sabotage thing. As written in my weekly plan, I want to try to explain that thanks to Spinoza's psychological theory (theory of the affects and conatus) and see what I can do to better reason myself as I get close to my objective.

I also still have this tendency to be kind and helpful... that's great when it comes to friendly social interactions, but it's not good when it comes to the Game. I should be more practical in the latter case, focus on what's my goal instead of trying to be nice and help the girls I'm seeing. I should focus on having fun and please myself above all.

Oh, and I'm pretty proud actually. Blushing Girl is hot and having her adding me on Facebook is already a great thing. Like Swiss Girl, that's the kind of girl I could only dreamed of before. Not bad Daniel... Not bad at all.

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Quick Update.

Here's quick update on Blushing Girl and the result of my job interview.

Job Interview.
I've received an email yesterday telling me that they found that my profile was really interesting but they found a candidate with a more relevant experience. I was a bit disappointed obviously but again I did my part of the job, someone had just a better experience... I can't do nothing about that for now. They told me they would contact me if a new position opens. I know that this kind of thing happens a lot with this company, so I'll see! But I need to stay rational here and start looking for a position in Paris again.

Blushing Girl.
I answered her message and asked for her number: "I'm a bit busy right now, but leave me your number, I'll contact you". We'll see her reaction from there. Getting her number is the first milestone.

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^^All good, but just one thing. Acting like the reassuring OLDER brother is actually a good thing.

At the moment I tutor students. Some happen to be school girls. Now, because of my role I behave like the older reassuring brother. 'Oh you got this wrong, no worries, you did really well here though.' The point is I notice they are attracted to me, even though I DO NOT neg or do anything explained in TheGame.

This alone has opened my eyes, as to what I define as being dominant. There's nothing wrong with caring and wanting to help. It's all partly to do with the myth that being NICE is always wrong. It isn't. The only problem is, most guys were nice AND needy. And that's the thing which is unattractive. So don't worry about being nice and reassuring. Just don't be needy.


Very interesting! I'd be interested to read what your thought patterns are as I notice I'm very much in the self-sabotaging boat as well... to the EXTREME. I'm not sure you'll find an answer though. Because if you had an answer surely you'd avoid doing it. It might be useful to note the right corrective action to prevent such things in the first place.

The more we desire the more emotive we become. And it is emotions which derail us from the path to victory. Managing our emotions may be key to limiting self sabotage. I'm sure this makes sense.


Oh... and sorry to hear about your job. But I had something similar, when I got my first job they told me all places were filled but kept my resume.

A few months later I got a surprise call and a junior position. But anyway, kept up the good work. Inspirational, as always to read.

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Week #7: report and new weekly plan.
Going all in to find a job.

As usual, here's a small report on this week and a new plan.

Last week's report.
Last week's plan was pretty simple, it was all about getting back on tracks after my job interviews. So... basically this week was pretty lame... lol.

-> LOOKING FOR A JOB:
So the company told me I did a good interview and that my profile was really interesting but they met with someone with a more relevant experience... I work hard for this amazing opportunity for this amazing company. I was a bit disappointed but I'm already looking for other opportunities... but now things are different... I'm gonna go all in on that matter and settle for the first opportunity I get. Waiting for that company was worth it, but I can't wait for it anymore. It's been 6 months of total unemployment. Not great for a MBA student.
-> DO ONE DAY WITHOUT TV.
Done it, felt great about it actually. It made me realize something I already knew, I don't need TV at all. It's basically wasting my time.
-> ORGANIZE SOMETHING WITH FRIENDS.
I've seen some friends this week for a drink. I was confident, sure of myself, really calm... I actually enjoyed having some social interactions with friends.
-> APPROACH AT LEAST 3 GIRLS.
I focused on getting Blushing Girl's number but didn't approach anyone aside. That actually sucks, I need to better think this part of my plans.
-> DO A PHOTO SESSION
Did it, took some nice pictures... It's been a while actually.

GENERAL FEELING: I felt good during this week but my plan was to weak, I need to do more productive, do more things. I don't prepare my weekly plans good enough. I have to be more serious about this!

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Plan for Week #6.

I need to put more effort into this, I though I was close to get a dream job and all but the fact of the matter is, I won't get it... so I'm back to hustle mode. To be honest, I could really use a success right now. I'd like to work hard and get something for once.

WEEKLY ACTIONS: (permanent actions)
-> NO MASTURBATION.
Confidence builder, allow me to think clearly...
-> TRY TO UNDERSTAND AND EXPLAIN MY EMOTIONS AND DESIRES.
Allows me to better understand the causes of my emotions.
-> DO NEW THINGS EVERY WEEK.
The more you know...
-> WORK OUT.
Obvious.
-> ACTIVELY LOOK FOR A JOB.
Already gathered several position I'd like to apply to, I'll get started on Monday and apply like crazy. I'm all in now, I need a job to move on. This is my top priority.
-> PREVENT ANYTHING THAT DISTRACT ME FROM THE PRESENT WHILE OUTSIDE
While outside, I won't listen to music anymore or anything like that. I want to focus in the moment to allow myself to be more spontaneous.

THIS WEEK:
-> GET A NEW NUMBER/TARGET
This whole approaching in Day Game is not paying out for me... I can do pretty good at social events... but Day Game is just not productive enough for me. I'm replacing my old "approach 3 girls" goal to a more direct objective: get a new number. Let's forget about the way to do it, and focus on the result I'm looking for.
-> GO SOMEWHERE I'VE NEVER BEEN.
Let's do this, let's change a bit the everyday routine.
-> ORGANIZE SOMETHING WITH FRIENDS
I'll try to organize an event with some friends, I want to have some fun.

LONG TERM ACTIONS:
-> GET A JOB.
Obviously the best way to go to emancipate myself. I still think I somehow attached an negative affect to work.
-> MOVE OUT.
I need to get more independent and move on with my life.


I need to move on. Let's get some interviews and land at a job.

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Quick Update.

Here's a quick update on what I've done today.

Looking for a job.
I've worked "hard" today. I've sent three CVs and contacted companies I've applied before to get some feedbacks to improve my chances. The CEO of a communication agency has contacted me saying my profile was really interested but he didn't have any open position. As usual. Yet, he wants to meet me... don't really know why but I'l surely see him next week. In the meantime, I've been contacted by another agency. I have an interview tomorrow for a senior position (I'm not senior but I guess my profile matched the job), I had almost no time to prepare but having an interview so quick is a great news for me.

I'll keep applying this week and get interviews. I took my rejection from the last company pretty well... but I confess that being back in front of my computer to apply kind of brought me down this morning. Being back at "hustling" after going this far with such an amazing company is hard. I was so close to realize one of my dreams... But no time for regrets, sorrow makes me dumb and irrational. I'll apply again next year I think...

Blushing Girl.
I've just realize she's 5 years younger than me... (19/20 yo) but I don't really care for now... She's really cute and smart. I finally got her number. I almost forgot to text her today:
Short and simple, I'm opening a loop without being obvious about it, my goal was to get her going on the whole nickname thing. Unfortunately she didn't take the bait. She replied:
No big deal though... next milestone: asking her out. That's when we'll see what she's really up to.

Keeping up!

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Quick Update.

Here's a small update on my actions.

Job Opportunity.
The agency I had an interview with on Tuesday is giving me the position... but there's a condition though... I get the job if the agency wins the proposal! Being offered a position after only one day of application is great. Even if I don't have anything on paper yet, this position actually match what I was looking for.

To be totally honest, I've caught myself freaking out about that again. I was so sure about the other company, it was what I really wanted, it was clear in my mind. Now that I'm getting the kind of position I wanted before I'm doubting. I think I'm basically afraid. Again knowing what I want is the issue... It's never clear and that has been my problem since the very beginning. I'd like to have a clear goal/desire/purpose and go for it but I don't have any of that most of the time. I need to get less emotional about all this and think more clearly. I need maturity. It will come with experience.

Appearance.
Some months ago I wrote about getting some weight... Well I'm 2 kilos away from my goal! I've gained some muscle since I came back from Brazil and I'm really glad about it. I'm still struggling eating more than my appetite allows me but I think I'll get a weight gainer once I got a salary to afford it to help me a bit. My goal is now to reach between 76/80 (167/176lbs) kilos for next year (I'm 1,80m, 5.9 ft).

I'd like to improve my hair style too... My hair is extremely thick and as soon as I try to let it grow, I just look like something between a playmobile and the Jackson Five basically... I usually keep it short on the sides but my hair grows extremely quickly... I cut it myself since I basically need to cut it twice per month as a minimum... Jesus... I could use a tan too now that I think about it... Earning some money will help me improve those areas!

Daniel..

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Quick Update.

Here's small update about these few past days.

@Hobbit.
I'm actually starting to think long term here, I've been tagged as "good for the company" by the amazing company I basically dream of... so I'm considering trying again in one year, with a bit more experience... I've understood a lot about myself while applying for this company. I didn't think I would even be contacted by them, but I was and they even paid me the trip for the interview. That made me feel extremely good/proud. Even though I didn't get the position, working this hard for the interview helped me better see what I want in a job. Seeing what made me proud about being selected by this company allowed me to better understand what I'm looking for. Most of my friends have settled for consultancy jobs they don't like, I would have done that in the worst case only. I don't want to spend my day in a suit, alienated in front of a computer working for something that don't make sense. I don't see jobs as a way to earn money (probably part of my issue with that though) but as a way to empower myself. At the same time, I can't take everything for granted, I need to show what I'm capable of to get the kind of job that would empower myself.

Blushing Girl.
The situation is tricky here... If you see the report on how we met, you'll see I was a bit blocked by her friends and the environment (meeting full of former teachers of mine) so I couldn't really connect with her but had a good vibe/body language going on though. She added me on Facebook and I took advantage of the momentum to get her number. It was time to ask her out. Considering that she was younger than me and did not live in Paris, I though the best way to do this was to get a coffee on a Sunday afternoon. It's not the best place to escalate (that's basically where I've failed with Swiss Girl) but I had no other option here.
I've sent this Thursday. It' not particularly funny but I wanted to bring the fun in situation. She only replied Friday, with a looooooong message.
I know this whole exam thing seems like a really bad excuse, but it's not actually. I did the same hard studies... and yes I used to spend weekend at home to work for exams. I also know she has indeed exams coming up. So she's not inventing anything. But now that I have said this, it's still a flake nonetheless... a flake that can be explained by the lack of connection when we first met. I'll wait a few days/weeks and see how I can re-open a loop and get her to meet me again.
I think I've shown a lot of value when I met her, that's good... but I still have some issues when it comes to build attraction. She might be interested in me but attraction is missing to really close the deal here.

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Week #7: report and new weekly plan.
Solving the social circle issue.

As usual, here's a small report on this week and a new plan.

Last week's report.
This was a good week, especially since I've never been this close to finally get a job but some random stuff came in my way.

-> LOOKING FOR A JOB:
I got a position I originally wanted but no contract for now. The agency has to be selected by the company I will indirectly work for but there is high chances. I worked really hard early this week, got a job interview on Tuesday and got offered the position the very same day.
-> GET A NEW NUMBER/TARGET
I went out in Paris several times during the week but without any success. I've spent hours walking in Paris in touristic places without having any real opportunity. Yes I have nice interactions with people and all so I don't consider it as wasting my time but this is not productive at all. I could do way more with 30 minutes in a social gathering. I'm wasting time and energy in day game while I've proven to do way better in parties or social events... Problem is I don't have the good social circle for this... I'm just not invited to that kind of event anymore and when I try to organize such a thing, my friends won't go. My problem is my social circle, I need to go out at night more.
-> GO SOMEWHERE I'VE NEVER BEEN.
I went back to the city I spent my childhood, found a park and enjoyed the sun with a book. Nothing really happened... The place was actually pretty quiet since it was during the week. The goal was really to discover a new place... Well I did but i realized that what I actually like is the trip. I need to think through.
-> ORGANIZE SOMETHING WITH FRIENDS
I tried to organize a drink on Friday afternoon but most of my friends were unavailable.

GENERAL FEELING: Well the week has been good when it comes to my main goal: getting a job. I'm also really happy since I figured out "how I work" and am way more consistent. I still have ups & down but I now precisely know how to get back on tracks quickly. I have a real issue with my social circle though.

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Plan for Week #8.

My main focus for this week will depend on if the agency win the offer. If it does, I'll have a job and will be able to focus on something else. If they don't, I'll focus on getting a job.

WEEKLY ACTIONS: (permanent actions)
-> NO MASTURBATION.
Confidence builder, allow me to think clearly...
-> TRY TO UNDERSTAND AND EXPLAIN MY EMOTIONS AND DESIRES.
Allows me to better understand the causes of my emotions.
-> DO NEW THINGS EVERY WEEK.
The more you know...
-> WORK OUT.
Obvious.
-> ACTIVELY LOOK FOR A JOB.
Already gathered several position I'd like to apply to, I'll get started on Monday and apply like crazy. I'm all in now, I need a job to move on. This is my top priority.
-> PREVENT ANYTHING THAT DISTRACT ME FROM THE PRESENT WHILE OUTSIDE
While outside, I won't listen to music anymore or anything like that. I want to focus in the moment to allow myself to be more spontaneous.

THIS WEEK:
-> ORGANIZE SOMETHING WITH FRIENDS
Have a drink with them or organize something. I'm gonna be focusing on fixing this whole social circle situation for the next few weeks.
-> DO A DAY WITHOUT FACEBOOK/YOUTUBE/TWITTER/REDDIT
I realize I spent way too much time on those websites, I'll do this again. I might increase this to two days in the next weeks.
-> GET IN TOUCH WITH FRIENDS (NEW)
I am obviously in part responsible for this social circle situation, let's contact some of my friends and get things flowing. I am too discreet when it comes to keep in touch.
-> GET A CORRECT AMOUNT OF SLEEP (NEW)
Not sleeping enough is a major cause of "downs" for me. It's the best way to kill momentum for the next day. I'll be serious about this this week. The more momentum I can accumulate, the better I'll feel. It's all about insuring momentum (power of acting in Spinoza's philosophy).

LONG TERM ACTIONS:
-> GET A JOB.
Obviously the best way to go to emancipate myself. I still think I somehow attached an negative affect to work.
-> MOVE OUT.
I need to get more independent and move on with my life.


Let's keep that fire burning.

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Quick Update.

Here's a small (but important) update on what happened tonight, as I was seeing some friends.

My social circle.
I think it's time to actually admit it. I don't have any real friend around. Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying this in a "damn them" way, not at all... I actually have a lot to do with this situation. After my 2-year relationship breakup, I focused on myself and my ego. I didn't want to be the loser around, I got into the game for that reason. I guess I wanted to get back at my ex and show to my friend that I'm not the loser. That was bad thinking and I quickly realized it. I then focused on being a man with everything that comes with it.

I have worked A LOT on myself. I did. I wanted to improve myself and be stronger, more consistent... basically a man and not the wuss I was in my relationship. That wuss behavior lead me to the situation I'm now. I don't want to go through this again and I won't.

The thing is, most of my friends are related to my ex... I naturally took a step back from most of them. I went to Brazil, met a lot of new AMAZING friends but there are just not in Paris... I do see my friends here to get some drinks from time to time... but it's basically always pretty lame, just getting a drink, I'm not sharing anything because that "ex" situation always hold me back. That's silly. I know and that's something I want to work on. I became withdrawn little by little.

Since I'm back in Paris, I have spent 90% of the time by myself.... but don't get me wrong I'm not living that badly at all. I actually enjoy being by myself, but I also want to have fun... which I'm not having at all. I am totally disconnected from my friends.

A Bitter Night.
A great example of that is the drink I've just had with two friends. I usually focus on vibing, joke around and enjoy my time but I basically sucked tonight. It's been a while but that was definitely a down. At some point my friend started to speak about my ex telling me that he had some news from her. I reacted well I think, told him I didn't have any news at all but I think she's good. It was pretty clumsy to do such a thing but he is really socially clumsy. I took it well I think, I wasn't stressed at all by the conversation but it really reinforce the idea that I was less eager to see them since I wanted to protect my ego. As I went to the bathroom later, I understood they were speaking about her and how happy she was. I guess she's already planning her wedding and invited him... He told me he was invited to a marriage just before telling me he had some news about her.

The thing is, I don't like having this tag on me. I have the feeling that I'm the guy who's been dumped by the girl who's following the perfect love now. I've been tagged as the guy who can't get over it, not even able to get a life (a job)... the frustrated guy to whom we can't speak about her. I hate that. In addition, it's simple, I'm not invited to any event if I don't organize it.

I've been pretty good at "vibing" recently. I can work a room, be cool, be consistent... but I hate this etiquette. I am obviously making this up to a certain point. I know my imagination is tricking me a bit here. The thing is... most of my friends are in couple, and those who aren't, aren't doing anything about it. We speak about marriage, we speak about their relationship... and when they turned to me... well I have nothing to tell really. "Yeah I've been working on myself and I'm extremely knowledgeable on Spinoza's philosophy" lol. My life hasn't been progressing since I came back from Brazil, or at least not in a way that they could tell... but I don't owe them anything, I don't have to be validated by them... but still.

I have the feeling that I am looked upon as the guy who can't make it, the poor guy who's still frustrated from the break up, the poor guy who pretend to have an exciting life not to show his weaknesses to protect his ego. There's a lot of truth in that though. I've been doing my best to deal with the breakup, deal with my family situation, deal with my AFCness. I did my best and it's a bit frustrating to be judged by people who don't know all the story. But again, I'm responsible for that too.

In those moment, I wish I could show up with an amazing gorgeous girl and show them what I'm capable off... why not banging her right her on the restaurant table... I wish I had actually tell my ex to go fuck herself, at least I would have some closure to that story. I wish I had this amazing job in this amazing company to project this successful image of happiness.... But I've learned to realize this is just bullshit our mind creates to protect ourselves.

Where I'm at.
- I'm about to get a job soon which means money and new social circle.
- I still live with my parents.
- I'm still stuck in Day Game.
- I have no social circle currently in Paris.
- I have been gaining some muscle.
- I have improved my social ability to a great extend.
- I have understood how I work (how to be consistent)
- I am still a "nice guy".
- I am still here.

This night confused me a bit, I'm gonna re-build myself quickly and get back on tracks. Getting a job is definitively a huge step that will allow me to accelerate my journey afterwards.

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Hi Daniel, just to underline some of Hobbit's points.
No one wants to be the loser but you seem more concerned about projecting this to your friends.

"I'm happy, I'm this I'm that... I'm doing amazing." One thing I've learnt from life is the idiots to stand up all day projecting their soap opera life to the world and how amazing they are doing tend to be the ones deeply unsatisfied.

Also you use the word 'guess.' You guess you want to get back at your ex. Guess sounds to me like you're unsure of what you're doing. Either you want to get back at your ex or you don't... If I was a betting man I know which one I think it is you really want. Do you?
Again, this is all in your head. There is no tag. Look at all you've achieved. Bring up Brazil, you can do this over and over again. Where's the shame in it. You seem to completely discount Brazil now you're in Paris.

This tends to be habits of people with low self confidence. Even when they achieve a great milestone they tend to always focus on the negatives. There is a lot of positives you have going. Try to focus on this.
Really, I wouldn't say so. OK... So you admit you're not naturally extroverted. It's OK to admit this. But you're 'not making it up.' At the moment I would say you're a work in progress. You're exploring your personality.
^A lot of the above is about projecting to others how you expect them to react to you. You may not realise this, but I reckon it is exactly this type of 'needing to fit in' behaviour which is keeping you from you expressing yourself truly, and keeping potential relationships at bay.

You talk a lot about being THE MAN. Being THE MAN has little to do with worrying about what others think about you? Think about this one...
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