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Congrats on your progress Daniel, I finished reading your story so far a few days ago. You're very good at pulling back and looking at yourself objectively, which a lot of guys fail to do.


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DAY 65: full closing Brazilian Brunette.
"Already?".

Context.
I agreed with Brazilian Brunette to go to a motel to spend last Wednesday night together. We would go to a park to see the lunar eclipse, eat together and them head up to the motel.

Addressed issues.
- I'm not manly enough, I need to man up and take the lead. (LACK OF EXPERIENCE, LACK OF CONFIDENCE, NEEDINESS)
- I've been a bit clumsy when it came to convince her to go to a motel last date (LACK OF EXPERIENCE, LACK OF CONFIDENCE, FEAR)
- My last ONS was not that good. (LACK OF EXPERIENCE, LACK OF CONSISTENCY, LACK OF CONFIDENCE)

Goals.
- Take the lead, be dominant!
- Full close her.
- Have better sexual performance and enjoy sex.

Strategy.
Take the lead and escalate with her during the date. Concerning the sex related part, I'm counting on my experience with British Girl.

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The day before.
I wanted to take the lead very early. I texted her on Tuesday to ask her if we needed to make a reservation for the motel. Told me she did not know if it was possible. Anyways, I called the motel but it was not possible to make a reservation less than 24 hours before. Yet, I was pretty sure we would get a room if we just show up.

The date.
We met at the usual rendez-vous point but since she could not make it earlier we missed the eclipse. I was able to took some pictures of it though. Since I was starting to feel hungry, we agreed on going directly to the restaurant. Truth is I thought about going to a mall food court, but since we spoke about what kind of cuisine we like, we decided to go to a better place but since I did not know any... she drove 15 minutes to find a place to eat. We finally went to a Brazilian restaurant.

We had a nice time there and finally left the place to go back to the car. I asked her what she wanted to do now. I told her we could go to the motel directly but she was driving around so I took the lead and told her that we should get a drink in the next bar we saw. We finally found a nice French bistro to get something to drink. We've stayed 45 minutes there and left for the motel.

At the motel.
The place was awesome: a giant bed and a huge transparent shower was waiting for us. I've escalated quickly. We made out, I was caressing her. We took our clothes off until the point she was in panties. Then came my favorite part, I took them off and started to kiss her body. I went down on her, she enjoyed it a lot. We had sex in the missionary position. The sex was okay. I really don't like the condoms but I have no choice. I did not last more than 5 minutes and was a bit ashamed of it... I told her: "I think I'm already done", she looked at me and said: "already?!"... That made me laugh actually. Later, I started to give her a massage... I escalated while doing it and went sexual. We did it doggy style. I lasted way longer than the first time. Maybe because of the position, maybe because I had already done it once. Afterwards, she turned to me and tell me "that was good". We laughed about it. We were dead tired so we slept. We did it again the day after in the morning. She took a shower while I was still in bed, watching her. We left the motel quite early since she had to go to work. She drove me back home.

Results: I full closed her, sex was okay but my performance was not good the first time.

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On the strategy.
I was not enough prepared. I should have thought about a place to eat and drink something. I let her lead and did not take responsibility when it comes to the date. Yet, I successfully took the lead in the bed.

On the Game.
- I need to prepare in order to be able to focus on the date and not on logistics.
- It was not that hard to get her to go to a motel with me.
- I can full close even though I'm not showing great game.
- I need to understand how come I lost all my aggressiveness when it comes to achieve my goals... I'm letting myself go.

Questions to move on.
- It's going to be more than one month now... one month during which I've let myself go. I've lost all the aggressiveness that allowed me to show so much determination. What's happening to me?

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Feels good to help people get laid.
If I were you thought I would have gotten some sushis and a bottle of champagne then directly to the motel. Some romance does no harm, plus it makes her feel that you're not going to the motel only for sex.
Good job, may your next target go even smoother :)


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@Mynameisfisher.

Thanks man. Good to have some news from you. I'm really glad for you too. Keep it up.

@NaturalFC.

I don't facebook close anymore actually. Yet I still like to have my target on Facebook, but I friend them (or they friend me) after I get the number.

Thanks for following me!

@Soloist.

Being able to step back and being honest about myself is a key element in my journey indeed!

Thanks for the post.

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Idealism is the philosophical theory which maintains that experience is ultimately based on mental activity. In the philosophy of perception, idealism is contrasted with realism, in which the external world is said to have an apparent absolute existence. Epistemological idealists (such as Kant) claim that the only things which can be directly known for certain are just ideas (abstraction). In literature, idealism refers to the thoughts or the ideas of the writer.

In the philosophy of mind, idealism is the opposite of materialism, in which the ultimate nature of reality is based on physical substances. Materialism is a theory of monism as opposed to dualism and pluralism, while idealism might or might not be monistic. Hence, idealism can take dualistic form and often does, since the subject-object division is dualistic by definition. Idealism sometimes refers to a tradition in thought that represents things of a perfect form, as in the fields of ethics, morality, aesthetics, and value. In this way, it represents a human perfect being or circumstance.
Nothing is perfect Daniel. Should something appear to you or feel to you as perfect, consider the fact it is only a function of YOUR personal opinion that makes it perfect, not an objective reality.

Should something feel imperfect, or WRONG, remember that for the most part, you're just comparing it to a pre built concept of what YOU think is right.

In my opinion, you did a graet job here. Not only did you get the girl, had better sex and left a good impression (That first orgasm is usually a dud anyways;)) You are objectivly looking for ways to make it better. Your determination is reflected by your outcomes. You are progessing steadily.

So why is the glass half empty then? Perhaps what you are looking for cannot simply be achieved by ONS's and a notched belt for each year you live. There is something you are trying to achieve that is much greater than being a "ladies man", you want to reach your full potential. Your ideal self. ONS's and beautiful women beating down your door is just one facet of what you think will make you meet your ideals. Socrates said: "The WAY to a good reputation is to endevour to BE what you desire to APPEAR", it worked for him, but he probably doesn't know that as legends rarely see their own praise.

Ill let you in on a secret. When you don't achieve what you set out to do, you're not happy. So what are you putting off? Where else can you fulfill your inner game besides womanizing?

I found out that if you focus too hard on this thing we call womanizing. Well, you'll end up more unfulfilled than you started. You will find that something like helping others, hanging with friends, having new expierences and achieving your goals trumps having a notched belt anyday.

Point being, womanzing is an essential part of being a fulfilled man. But, it isn't everything. Go surf or workout or make a list of things to do and then do them. Your momentum is lacking because your not pushing enough weight. The more inertia you encounter the less the will to get things done, but, the harder you push through the more things start moving and thus, your momentum builds. Take the routine things in your life, the habits you have, and replace them. focus inward and learn to notice when you are pushing a lot of weight, and then push harder and use that momentum to your advantage. Everyone loses sight, lays back and gets comfy. The times I really push myself is when I feel like you are feeling right now "nothing is wrong but i''m unfulfilled"

Good work out there!


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@Insert.

In know nothing is perfect Insert, it will never be perfect. I can't deny I'm a bit disappointed by myself when it comes to this date. Yet, I had a nice time. It's just another experience, I'll get better thanks to it.

You're right, I judge the situation by comparing it with what I think would have been better. I judge myself by comparing my actions/behavior with how I think I should be. That's the way I progress I guess. I don't think it's a bad thing per se.

Yet, you're right. I've been in a negative mindset lately. I should emphasize more the positive things next time.
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So why is the glass half empty then? Perhaps what you are looking for cannot simply be achieved by ONS's and a notched belt for each year you live. There is something you are trying to achieve that is much greater than being a "ladies man", you want to reach your full potential. Your ideal self. ONS's and beautiful women beating down your door is just one facet of what you think will make you meet your ideals.
Thank you for understanding me Insert. It feels good to have somebody else putting work on what I think. That's exactly what I think. I want to reach my potential and stop wasting my time/energy with self doubt etc... Fucking girls is not enough indeed... I quickly get bored of this actually (and this is clearly related to the fact that I am in the game because of my ego).

You're right, PUArtistry is not enough to fulfill me. As I wrote in a previous post, I need inspiration to move forward. I need something that makes sense for me.
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It's not that hard to set a goal, or in other words, to have an aspiration. What's hard is to get the motivation to go for it... and motivation seems to come when I'm inspired by what I'm doing. More simply, I'll achieve my aspiration (a = out) by being inspired (in = in)... and the best way to be inspired is to have a plan that brings all the pieces together, a plan that makes/creates sense for me.
I am starting to better understand what motivates me, what makes me move forward, and what doesn't.
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Point being, womanizing is an essential part of being a fulfilled man. But, it isn't everything. Go surf or workout or make a list of things to do and then do them. Your momentum is lacking because your not pushing enough weight. The more inertia you encounter the less the will to get things done, but, the harder you push through the more things start moving and thus, your momentum builds. Take the routine things in your life, the habits you have, and replace them. focus inward and learn to notice when you are pushing a lot of weight, and then push harder and use that momentum to your advantage. Everyone loses sight, lays back and gets comfy. The times I really push myself is when I feel like you are feeling right now "nothing is wrong but i''m unfulfilled.
Exactly. I could not say it better. What I need now is a plan to apply/list to do to move forward.

Thank you Insert.

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Gratz on the f-close Super D! :wink: To me that looked fairly solid.
Now how many is that 2? Well lets hope there will be more to come!



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DAY 66: reflections on what motivates me (and what doesn't).
Analyze this! Meet Daniel's disturbing ego.

This post is a result of a long reflection about myself, and what motivates me in general. Shortly after my first success with British Girl, I've been through the usual AFC phase. Yet this time it's different. I'm struggling to stick to the plan... I'm back to my old habits. I am in danger. The only thing I've been doing seriously is mediation actually. I've been meditating every single day for more than one month now. But when it comes to approaching, working out, ... nothing. I've been lacking of motivation. Laziness, mental masturbation, doubt, insecurity... these symptoms started to show up little by little and affect my game and life (even though I kissed two girls and am full closing one currently). Since my goal is to become a successful man, I need to take a closer look at this issue and find what is a source of motivation to me. Here are some questions I tried to answer.

=> What is truly motivating me?
=> What kills my motivation?
=> What's the reason of these post-milestones AFC phases?


On another note, I've been asked lately why journaling was helping me so much... This post is the perfect example. Journaling allows me to take a step back and observe what I'm doing. It allows me to prevent me from letting myself go. I hope this post will be a wake-up call, I need it.

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Observing myself.
As I wrote in a previous post, the greater the success, the longer the AFC phase. I really don't like that. I hate the fact that I can show an insane motivation and determination on one day, and be a lazy fuck the day after. The only reason that I've been able to spot in the very first place was over-satisfaction... I'm so satisfied with my success, that I let myself go back on the AFC road. Yet, I think the issue is way more complex and can be related to other elements.

I've been observing myself for a few weeks now... My objective was to spot several traits of my personality that are recurrent. I came up with several things that are obviously all related to one each other and allow me to better know myself and what motivates me (for good or for bad) or freeze myself.

Needing to impress.
I feel the need to impress people I care about: my friends, my family, my ex... Impressing them is a way to get validation. It seems that I need them to admit that I (my ideas, opinions...) was right since the very beginning. I need recognition from them. I feel the need to show them what I'm capable of, especially in hard times, I want them to admire me. I need to be perceived as successful. This is obviously ego related.
On another note, that reminds me of Hobbit's post 41-vt81510.html?start=614 . I don't think my goal's purpose is to impress people around me... My goal is to improve myself. Yet, a part of me needs that recognition.

> Examples:
- Some years earlier, I used to lie to people around me to project a successful image of myself. When I got back from a summer job in Florida, I let people think I fucked some girls there. I was ashamed of the truth.
- I'm really sensible to the "type" of girl I'm dating. I need a woman that impress others. That's why I often think dating an architect, lawyer, Brazilian, Italian, classy, smart, literate... would be awesome. I pay a lot of attention to these details.
> Issues:
- Doubt: am I good enough to impress them? Am I doing right to impress them?
- Neediness: I need their validation.
> Positive outcome:
- Aggressiveness: the need to impress give me a load of motivation to keep going and be the successful man I want to be perceived as.

Falling for over satisfaction.
If you remember well, I've spotted this one quiet early in my journal. Every small success I have brings a state of laziness. I lose my aggressiveness and have hard time sticking up to the plan. I am so satisfied about myself that I freeze. I end up in a comfort zone which kills my eagerness to achieve my goals. My ego is so satisfied that I stop all efforts and become lazy.

> Examples:
- After my first number-closes, I was not proactive at all. I've wasted a lot of opportunities with excuses such as "she did not answer to my text" to avoid calling them and take responsibility.
- After my recent full closes, I've spent a lot of time home, avoiding social interactions.
> Issue:
- Lost of aggressiveness: I'm so satisfied about myself that I lose the aggressiveness I need to achieve my goals. I become lazy.
> Positive outcome:
- Positivity: I'm satisfied by myself, that brings a positive state (yet very succinct).

Being Ambitious.
I have a lot of ambition. I want to succeed in my personal life and in my professional career. I love to learn and generally want to be good at what I'm doing. I want to be a successful man and be perceived this way. This last element is also ego related.

> Examples:
- This journal is a perfect example of the determination I can have to get good at something.
> Issue:
- Scattered state: It's really hard to focus when you want everything. I'm having hard times setting up priorities.
> Positive outcome:
- Aggressiveness: my ambition brings me motivation and aggressiveness to achieve my goals.

Being scared of disillusion.
I'm afraid of realizing that I am not being able to realize my dreams and aspiration. Simply doubting about myself being able to do something is enough to scare me and kill my state. Realizing that my dreams are unreachable is a nightmare to me. A reason to explain that is that my ego realizes it won't be satisfied.

> Examples:
- Sometimes I doubt being able to find a job that I would actually like, or to have a rude awakening about my dreams of entrepreneurship. It scares the shit out of me.
- I also doubt being able to find "the one"
- My worst nightmare is to be trapped in a job/life that I don't want at 35yo.
> Issue:
- Doubt: it creates a lot of doubt when it comes to what I'm capable of achieving... Am I wasting my time? I won't ever be able to do this or that...
- Fear: this fear really scares me and urge me to find a "better than nothing" comfort zone.
- Neediness: doubting of myself makes me needy. I'm needy to this girl since I won't be able to find better.
> Positive outcome.
- None.

Hating being a loser.
I really don't like to be the loser, even though nobody's competing with me. I like to be the winner, the one that impress, the one that succeeds. I'm not speaking about losing in basic games, but about life in general. Sometimes I just don't like to see others succeed because it reminds me that I'm not succeeding. My pride gets hurt in the process (which can be good sometimes). Again, it's ego related.

> Examples:
- I've been at a huge party Saturday night. I was in a really good mood until two of my friends manage to approach two HB9 and made out with them. Thoughts started to invade my mind and kill my positive state. "The others must be wondering why I'm not trying to make out with some girls too, they gotta think I'm a loser".
- Seeing that my girlfriend had a boyfriend a few weeks after leaving me hurt my pride, I was the one who lost. This event brought me to the game. I could not stand being a loser anymore.
> Issue:
- Doubt: it creates a lot of doubt in myself, and in some rare cases, it makes me freeze.
- Neediness: I'm dependent on the others.
> Positive outcome.
- Aggressiveness: my pride (sometimes) give me the motivation to react.

Needing inspiration.
If something doesn't make sense, I won't be motivated to do it. It's pretty obvious. Yet, when I'm inspired by something I can have an insane motivation to achieve my goals. The inspiration (in) moves me forward to achieve my aspiration (out). When all the pieces come together, I don't doubt anymore.

> Example:
- This journal helps me making sense and inspires actions. Thanks to my journal, I can align my goals, my actions and my purpose.
> Issue:
- Freeze: when I'm not inspired anymore, I tend to freeze and stay in a comfort zone. I let myself go.
> Positive outcome.
- Aggressiveness: being inspired give me an insane motivation.
- Clarity: inspiration allows me to create sense out of what I'm doing. It aligns my goals, plans and purpose.

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Resolution.
As you can see, a lot of these elements are strongly related to my ego. Nevertheless, I won't fall for the usual "I need to dissolve my ego" thing. Let's be honest, being in the game for the ego is not a positive thing. The ego is needy, it needs approval and makes me scared of going for it sometimes. Yet, my ego is also what drives me sometimes, it urges me to take action. I don't think getting rid of all these "traits" I've discovered about myself will take me somewhere... My pride got me into the game. It gives me the aggressiveness to achieve my goals. This reflection allowed me to better understand myself and what motivates me. But I still need to answer a new question:

=> How can I channel my ego to give me the aggressiveness I need to achieve my goal and cut the negative things coming from it?

It's a hard question and I would be glad to hear some insights about it. Yet, I might already have the answer to that question. Inspiration. That's the only element that is not related to my ego. It allows me to do something by passion and align my "ego" spikes towards the right direction. Having a plan also definitely helps channeling since it gives me a direction and inspiration. That's the only thing that I see for now.

Coming next.
- A practical plan to achieve a practical goal.

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Thinking about all that allowed me to better understand some negative parts of myself.

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Eternal questions my friend. You and I and most of the other people out there with a macro self preception and a pre requisite tendancy to over think struggle with this...I think.

The best I can offer you is this. You are already there. You are objectivly observing your behaviour and seeing yourself in both light and dark. Are you ever going to stop wanting people to be impressed by you? No. But, you can change the REASON you are trying to impress.

"The WAY to a good reputation is to endevour to BE what you desire APPEAR"

You don't want to be the guy who lies about fucking chicks or feels shameful for despising others success. you want to be the guy who fucks chicks and has enough self satisfaction that you don't need to draw comparisons with others. So, start small. you have in fact, made much progress. Pick a task that you think will be difficult and go achieve your goal. The answers won't come from inward questioning, but outward explorations. You will fail at some things you try, and you will find passion in the things you succeed at.

Example. I recently picked up Downhill Mountain biking. I fucking love it, I love it even tho the people I ride with are much better than me. I am progressing and after pumping adrenaline through my body or bouncing off the ground and breaking my hand, I feel a sense of accomplishment unlike any other before it. Why? I didn't actually accomplish anything, in fact, I failed. But I failed while attempting something, and almost made it. The next time, when I make it, the feeling is multiplied. My ego is both humbled and strengthened at the same time.

This is where I think the answer lies. Being humbled. Modesty. In the little things and the big things. Use your need to impress on yourself rather than others. the good thing about this is that you can only impress YOURSELF with truths and never lies, because you should know when your trying to bullshit yourself at the very least ;)

Another thing I find humbling; is other peoples interests. Things I would have never thought interesting are other peoples entire reason for living. Involve yourself with other peoples interests as a "newbie" and allow yourself to be taught a new skill or to make a fool of yourself because of how bad you are at this new thing. Then attempt to get better. you may progress, become inspired and roll with it, or you may not find it is for you. But you are always richer for the expeirence.


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@Insert.

Hard question indeed. Yet, it was good to think about all this since it allows me to know myself better. At least I've put on the paper some traits that I'm unable to link together usually.

The answer you're offering, that is to say becoming somebody that would not need to fall for this traits anymore, is actually pretty interesting. If I'm successful, I wouldn't be so afraid of being a loser or disillusion. What is great about this "plan" is that is also fulfills my ambition and need for inspiration.

I like your example because that's exactly what I would like to feel, a sense of accomplishment. I should try to put myself in front of more challenges to feel that.
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My ego is both humbled and strengthened at the same time.
That part would definitely help me with the whole over satisfaction thing.

Here are the ideas I'm keeping from your post:
1) Embody what I want to be: since not being what I want to be is the reason for some of these traits=
2) Stay humble: by facing new challenges and failing, I will stay humble but will feel a sense of accomplishment that will push me forward.
3) Get to know other people's purpose/interest: that will inspire me and keep me humble.

That would help me for my next post: my plan to achieve my new goal.

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I think the problem with a lot of PUAs or PUAs-in-developement is the focus they put in one aspect and completely ignore the other important aspects of their lives.

I feel like I can relate to you in so many ways, it's actually crazy. In fact, I feel that what you're going through might be just a normal phase that a lot of people just go through for a period of time.

I would say if you lazy out because you feel so self-satisified to practice game, just do something else you actually enjoy! It could be working out at the gym, or building your social circle (guys & girls), or doing a hobby that you enjoy. If you live in a cube where all walls are blue, you are not going to see any other colours till you actually paint them. If you don't try other things out there in life and don't give it a chance for any reason in your head, how do you exactly know if you're going to like it or hate it? BEST way to find out: go ahead and try it.

I read the first page and the last two pages of your journal to be honest so O apologize if I've said stuff that doesn't directly apply to you.

One last thing, I want to tell you: you create yourself and your reality and no-one else. I think we all have complete control over our thoughts and behaviours even if it takes some practice and thoughtful thinking.

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DAY 67: reflections on my journey.
Finally revising my goals and plan.

Context.
For almost one month now, I've been really lazy. I've not been sticking to any plan. Bad habits came back and I quickly found myself quitting on approaching, working out... and even giving up on some targets... My ego was so satisfied about the last successes that I lost all the aggressiveness that allowed me to be so determined. It was time to think about my goals and plan.

My dreams: what I want.
I've realized my dreams/goals were not enough accurate. Yet, the more accurate my goals are, the better my plan is. My general goal is still the same: I want to be a man. But what is being a man? For me, being a man is being:
- Confident: taking responsibility, not afraid, dominant.
- Self Assured: not needy, independent.
- Successful: achieving my personal and professional goals/dreams.
- Attractive: attractive to women, dating them.
- Social: good in social interactions.
- Consistent: doubting less, less frustration.


My blocking points: what I'm missing.
Each of these characteristics are related to blocking points that I will need to tackle in order to achieve my goals. What's preventing me from being confident, self-assured, successful, attractive, social and consistent? Here are the answers I came up with.
- Confident: INSECURITY, LACK OF EXPERIENCE, NEEDINESS, FEAR.
- Self Assured: NEEDINESS, INSECURITY, LACK OF EXPERIENCE, LACK OF DISCIPLINE.
- Successful: LAZINESS, INSECURITY, FEAR, LACK OF EXPERIENCE, LACK OF DISCIPLINE.
- Attractive: INSECURITY, NEEDINESS, LACK OF HOTNESS.
- Social: INSECURITY, LAZINESS, FEAR, LACK OF EXPERIENCE.
- Consistent: INSECURITY, FEAR, LACK OF EXPERIENCE.

Here are my blocking points (ordered by importance).
- INSECURITY (6x)
- LACK OF EXPERIENCE (4x)
- FEAR (4x)
- NEEDINESS (3x)
- LACK OF DISCIPLINE (2x)
- LAZINESS (2x)
- LACK OF HOTNESS (1x)

The solutions: how to tackle these issues.

INSECURITY
- Objective: becoming more confident, self-assured, successful, attractive, social and consistent.
- Mindset: I have no logical reason to feel insecure. I should believe more in myself. I have every thing I need to achieve my goals and be successful in general. Killing my insecurity will prevent me from missing opportunities.
- Actions:
> Meeting people: using PU knowledge to meet/approach new people everyday will allow me to feel more secure in my everyday life.
(confident, social, self-assured)
> Stopping beating my self up: positive thinking will make me more secure about myself.
(successful, confident, attractive, self-assured, consistent)
> Working-out: working out will make me more secure and attractive.
(confident, attractive, consistency)
> Stopping masturbation: masturbation makes me a lazy wussy, stopping it will allow me to be less insecure.
(confident, consistency)
> Meditating: meditating will allow me to quiet the negative thoughts that trigger doubt.
(confident, consistent, self-assured)


LACK OF EXPERIENCE
- Objective: becoming more confident, self-assured, successful, social and consistent.
- Mindset: The more experience I get, the better I am at achieving my goals. Avoiding new experiences and staying in my comfort zone won't get me nowhere. I need to challenge myself with new experiences and develop the skills I need to achieve my goals.
- Actions:
> Meeting people: using PU knowledge to meet/approach new people everyday will allow me to get better in social situation.
(confident, social, self-assured)
> Journaling: journaling allows me to learn from my experiences.
(successful, consistent)
> Facing new challenges: facing new experiences regularly will allow me to step out of my comfort zone, learn from it and be proud of myself.
(confident, successful, consistent)
> Reading material: reading PU and (non-PU) material will allow me to get knowledge on how to improve myself.
(social, confident, consistent)


FEAR
- Objective: becoming more confident, successful, social and consistent.
- Mindset: I have absolutely no logical reason to be scared. My life is not in danger. Being scared makes me miss lots of windows of opportunities.
- Actions:
> Meeting people: approaching and meeting people everyday will allow me to understand there's nothing to be afraid of in social interactions.
(confident, social)
> Meditating: meditating will allow me to quiet the negative thoughts that trigger fear.
(confident, consistent, self-assured)
> Working-out: getting in shape will help me fighting fear.
(confident, attractive, consistency)


NEEDINESS
- Objective: becoming more confident, self-assured and attractive.
- Mindset: I'm capable of being independent and self-assured. The more independent I am, the less I need other's approval.
- Mindset:
> Meeting people: approaching and meeting people everyday will allow me to get an abundance mindset.
(confident, social, self-assured)
> Getting a life: finding a job and leaving my parents home will allow me to be more independent.
(self-assured, confident, attractive)
> Stopping masturbation: masturbation makes me needy.
(confident, consistency)
> Meditating: meditating will allow me to quiet the negative thoughts that trigger neediness.
(confident, consistent, self-assured)


LACK OF DISCIPLINE
- Objective: becoming more self-assured and successful.
- Mindset: Discipline is what will allow me to stick to the plan, be efficient and achieve my goals.
- Actions:
> Waking-up early: waking up early will allow me not to waste the time of the day.
(successful, self-assured)
> Focusing on one task at a time: focusing on one task at a time will allow me to be more effective in what I'm doing and waste less time.
(successful, consistent)
> Making to-do lists: creating daily to-do lists with tasks I need to do will allow me to have a daily plan of things to do.
(successful)
> Prioritizing tasks: knowing my priorities will allow me avoid wasting my time.
(successful)
> Journaling: journaling allows me to stick to the plan.
(successful, consistent)


LAZINESS
- Objective: becoming more successful and social.
- Mindset: Laziness is a curse when it comes to achieving my goals. Staying home, avoiding interactions, ... are getting me nowhere.
- Actions:
> Making to-do lists: creating daily to-do lists will prevent me to be lazy when it comes to do what I have to.
(successful)
> Pushing myself: pushing myself to do things that I don't feel like doing will help me getting things done.
(successful)
> Stopping masturbation: masturbation makes me a lazy wussy.
(confident, consistency)
> Meeting people: approaching and meeting people everyday will allow me to prevent myself from avoiding social interaction because of laziness.
(confident, social, self-assured)


LACK OF HOTNESS
- Objective: becoming more attractive.
- Mindset: Improving my look and life will allow me to be way more attractive to women.
- Actions:
> Working-out: working out will make me more secure and attractive.
(confident, attractive, consistent)
> Improving my look: getting a tan, a haircut... will make me look better.
(attractive, confident)
> Improving style: buying some new clothes, accessories will make me feel more confident.
(attractive, confident)


That's what I came up with for now!

Coming next:
Planning each actions.

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Humility does not mean thinking less of yourself than of other people, nor does it mean having a low opinion of your own gifts. It means freedom from thinking about yourself at all. ~William Temple
Nice quote.

@pherojack.

I'm glad you can relate. Guess we're not so different from one each other. Getting good at my hobbies, finding new ones and facing new challenges are in the program! :)

@Hobbit.
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We lose motivation when we are pursuing goals which we really don't want to achieve or care very little about. . .
Indeed.

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