| Toga Party.
I arrive.Right state of mind.Everyone's happy to see me.
...girls look at me.It is go time.
I open a 3-set(All wearing the same thing)
"Wow.You guys are sooo cool wearing the same thing!"
They laugh,then mistake #1:
There were 3,and I ran the best friends opener(For 2).1st time,with left HB and middle HB,it worked.2nd time,middle HB and right HB,they didn't make the eye contact.
I said "See,these tricks dont work",but then left HB goes "But how'd it work for me and middle HB?"
Almost disoriented,I go "Anyway"...then freeze up.I do my signature "I'll be back in 5" leave. That was strike 1 of downhill.
Party goes on.Flip cup arrives.This is where I do better.Right HB says table is sticky.I go "Ya kno,MAYBE if you didn't touch it,your hands would not be sticky,now would they?".She laughs.Her friend(Middle HB)laughs.It's all good.
My team dominates Flip cup(5-1).They are not as cheery as before. I let them be for now and go to beer pong room.
Girls are dancing. One I talked to earlier. I pull up(Caveman),but only for 5 sec,then they leave,and talk. I get pissed. Next thing I know, I'm switching back and forth from room to room,wishing I could get out, while the naturals are stealing the girls one by one.
Then,one of the brothers(Who thinks I'm a cool dude),wings me in with this girl who's been sweating him.She's like "Well,there's someone else I'm talking to(A natural freshman). I do my work.It goes well. The natural ends up getting it because "She liked him first".
I left right after that. Fuck that shit. This is why I get angry all the time. There's always some other asshole better than me. Had I had a bit of success, I wouldn't be furious. No, I'm still the fucking underdog,and everyone better than I am is stealing everything I'm working for.
HOWEVER,there is one factor I think killed me:I was high.
Being high makes everything funny,but you cant seem to focus. Before piffing, I was talking,and putting in work. When high, I always forgot what to say.
And,I forgot a girls name.She got pissed. I cant say fuck it, cause women, being the evilness they are, talk, and make it harder for me.
...this was disgraceful. I must reedeem myself. It's times like this I dont deserve the title of PUA,but I know deep inside it's there.
Idk. Bad mood right now. I'm up against fucking douchebags who've been partying since HS, and now I, with a brand new rep, and no previous social skills, is struggling.
Maybe Darwin was right, there is a survival of the fittest, and those who arent naturally measured up, will be weeded out of existence.
...help?
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