i think your problem is you
want to fall in love. your sopposed to just.......fall if your looking for it you'll rush, getting yourself hurt in the process.
with your problem with seeing social cues it's gonna be hard, not impossible but near, why? because to a random girl you are a random guy very expendable so they'll toss you whenever they see fit. which is why seeing ioi's & such help you can motify to keep her interested and whatnot.
+ dude your 23 these are (i dont even really believe the hype but w/e for the sake of the argument) best years of your life you can look for the "one" when your 35 or something i think that's why america's rate is so damn high fukking idiot getting married and/or pregnant at like 18. live your live then think about cobining 2
hint: stop caring . stupid hint i no yes but it seems like you take life too seriously, nothing NOTHING is worth taking your life.
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Thanks Ashley, BlackBull.
If you want to know what really went on, I went out with a girl a few months ago, we fell in love and wanted to be married. Anyway, she ended up cheating on me, and though I forgave her, eventually she ran away with another man, after breaking every promise and trust I ever had about women.
I've had plenty of other experiences like this, so this wasn't the only one.
It was just the most devastating.
The final nail in the coffin.
Anyway, to make things short, I ended up making a suicide attempt and ended up in both the psych unit and the trauma unit of the hospital for a couple months of my life. I'm doing better now, but I see reason to learn the game. Mainly because I'm tired of being such a failure with women, and tired of not understanding where I go wrong.
I've mentioned it on another thread, but I was eventually diagnosed with Asperger's Syndrome, which means I can't read social cues very well, have trouble with my own and reading others body language, et cetera, et cetera. So I do my best to try to understand and relate to other people, but I have a high IQ and a relatively low EQ, and it makes it hard for me to relate to others when most people are the opposite.
I spent most of my life thinking I would find that "one girl" and everything would be all right, but after years of abuse at the hands of females, and after this final one, I'm not so sure I have faith anymore to take things where they need to go. And frankly, I feel overwhelmed by all this information.
To really get to the core of the matter, I'm not new to the seduction community--I discovered it when I was 15 on the Internet, and used it to try to meet college chicks. Needless to say, it didn't work completely as planned, mostly because I was young, and going through an abusive child situation. I never completely "grokked" how to act around women and how to relate well.
Anyway, years later, hearing about Mystery reminded me of this community, and now I'm trying to relearn all the stuff I should have learned when I first discovered this community at age 15. I'm 23, and I've got a life ahead of me. It hasn't been easy to make it even this far, but I want you people to understand I'm trying very hard to make things work for myself now, and to understand where I went wrong in the first place, and I'm feeling a little overwhelmed, and hurt by all that has gone wrong and happened in my life in the first place.
So if I come across angry and bitter, that's why. I don't mean to make this into a sob-fest. I just think my end of the story needs to be told. I've always been the one to get the short end of the stick, even if I look handsome, have a great smile, et cetera. And this, this community, this seduction, is me just trying to pick up the pieces of my life and get things to how they should have been in the first place.
And hopefully, when all is said and done, I'll still believe in love.