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Bart, what was your childhood like? Were you abused or something?
And this isn't rhetoric question.
The only abuse I can remember is at school
I have written about this before
I was born a jew in a country where the official religion is islam. as you may know, muslims hate jews. so starting in the first grade, i was bullied and ridiculed by my classmates and teachers. the kids would go home and tell their parents about me and the parents would teach the kids "this guy is bad, avoid him" etc.
i was always made to believe I am "that weird guy" people avoided me and the only friends that i made stabbed me in the back.
to this day, i still feel like i am weird, walking on the street, I feel like i stand out. when someone took a video of me in public and showed it to me, i was shocked at how normal i look. I also feel like everybody is judging me and (maybe) i also feel like everybody hates me.
when talking to a girl, i expect her to believe i am weird and worthless and walk away. when a girl doesn't do that, I am shocked. but despite all the contrary evidence, i still hold on to my old beliefs and find a way to make the evidence fit my old beliefs ("she doesn't like me, she is pretending because she doesn't want to make me feel bad")
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Bart, what was your childhood like? Were you abused or something?
And this isn't rhetoric question.
The only abuse I can remember is at school
I have written about this before
I was born a jew in a country where the official religion is islam. as you may know, muslims hate jews. so starting in the first grade, i was bullied and ridiculed by my classmates and teachers. the kids would go home and tell their parents about me and the parents would teach the kids "this guy is bad, avoid him" etc.
i was always made to believe I am "that weird guy" people avoided me and the only friends that i made stabbed me in the back. i could write pages and pages about this but that's it in a nutshell.
to this day, i still feel like i am weird, walking on the street, I feel like i stand out and i am weird. when someone took a video of me in public and showed it to me, i was shocked at how normal i look.
when talking to a girl, i expect her to believe i am weird and worthless and walk away. when a girl doesn't do that, I am shocked. but despite all the contrary evidence, i still hold on to my old beliefs and find a way to make the evidence fit my old beliefs ("she doesn't like me, she is pretending because she doesn't want to make me feel bad")
You look normal on pictures. So you're gonna let kids from your childhood determine how you live your life now?
Don't you have any desire in life? What do you want to be? And why didn't you delete all those videos and pictures Dragula told you?
Everyone has a creepy side, why don't you store those things just on your PC? Rather than showing it to public fully aware that kind of behaviour is considered weird?
You seem to be
intelligent but stupid at the same time, it's like you are getting shitted on by yourself, being aware of that and complaining that you smell funny but still you'll shit yourself again. Why? Why? Why?
Why can't you understand that you're seriously wasting the time of guys here who try (tried) to help you, you waste my time and most important you waste your time, your life. Do you want to die alone?
And don't give me the crap talk how "I'm just so fucking lazy, I can't". How did you find about this forum? Evidently, you SEEK help, you want to change but you enjoy the attention of a
chronic complainer who's purposely sabotaging himself. I suggest trying to delete facebook, ig, all other social media, turn off your phone. And live in isolation one week and try to answer what is really important in your life? And how are you gonna make that happen.
Man, you'll get old fast. You'll regret wasting your life.
CHAT
