Its been a while since my last visit here... Update!
Three weeks ago I found out that my ex was lying to me about some stuff, and I told her that it was definetly over (and I truly meant it too!), and to never contact me again... That same day I asked my neighbor over for coffee. We talked for maybe 5 mins before the conversation went REALLY sexual... After maybe 5 more mins (I dont really remember), I was fucking her like crazy all over my living room! Things got a little wierd after the sex for some reason, and she left... Two days later, she asks if she can come over again... I am thinking akward, but hell yes! This time, she is here the whole night... Long story short: We talked a lot, and both just wanted sex (unbelievable!). And we had sex three more times! (She was amazing in bed btw!)...
The day after that, only hours after she leaves, my ex is on my doorstep out of nowhere, crying, saying she have made a huge mistake, and she wants me back! (Nice call Miami) We talked for some while, and I told her
that I truly was over her, and that she had to leave... But, the next day after a lot of texts, I gave in to the begging, and told her that we could give it one more try. Things escalated way faster than I was planning on, and suddenly she had more or less moved in again... And things were actually better than ever! Sex atleast 3 times a day, and lots of happyness! But then... She found out about all the girls I had been talking to (Also the neighbor, but not that we have had sex) , and she went MENTAL! She left in rage, and I did not hear from her in three days... She calls me, saying sorry, and that past is past... And again she is back ofcourse! Hehe :p
Anyway... This time, things is not so great... It think she truely believes that I have done something wrong, by having contact with other girls while we were apart! (Its INSANE to disquss it with her, and listen to all her bullshit arguments!) And I feel that the "power balance" is WAY OFF... Any way I can turn it back around again?. Something just feels WRONG now! I will give it some more time anyway though, and try to figure this out!
Playboi: To be honest, Yes and no! A part of me wants that life, and another part doesnt... I guess that will always be a constant battle for me... In a relationship: Looking at all the beautiful girls I could be fucking, is torture! Single: Looking at all the "happy" couples sharing everything, supporting eachother, and never lonely, is a crappy feeling also (All the drama is forgotten though, hehe)! But yeah, you could be right about me needing to be single now...