| The first time I got naked with a girl was the first night that I ever really was in a "feel good" state. Where no matter what I did, I had that halo effect, people wanted to be around me and party with me.
It was a Cheerleading Pub Crawl. We had those white pub-crawl shirts where everyone was writing shit on them with markers. I was signing each shirt with something stupid, getting them to sign mine, got a few drinks flowing and hopped to the next bar.
I spotted one of the hotter girls in the pub crawl. Wrote on her shirt, she wrote on me. I told her that we were going to dance later. She agreed. I went to the bathroom with a few of the boys and came out to see a cute girl on the dancefloor. I went to her, started dancing, told her I liked her dress, mumbled about bullshit, asked where she was going, she mentioned a bar later, got her number, told her I would text her when I arrived (never did).
I was feeling amped up as it was my first number close at a bar. When we got into the next bar as soon as I got in the door, some girl grabbed my hand, "You're doing shots with the bride to be!".. Ok, I just went with it. 6 porn star shots. We all took one. I ended up paying, I was duped, I guess. Whatever, this night was perfect. We were allowed in the VIP room with the bridal party so that paid for itself. Went in, boring as hell, came back out they were dancing with a giant inflatable penis they called "Rick the Dick". Must have been building social proof in the club.
Went to get a drink, liked a girl in the bridal party, went to find her.. Walking through the dance floor, saw a girl look at me, didn't even think, just started dancing. Dancing led to kissing. She wanted to get a drink. She did. I took her in a dark corner. We started kissing. She spilled her drink, my phone in my pocket vibrated, thought she pissed on me for a second. Ignored it. Kept kissing. Back on the dance floor. More kissing. Bar is closing, she's leaving and she allows me to come back to her place. She informs me nothing is going to happen tonight. Fine with me. Sleep in her bed, somewhat physically escalate but we go to sleep. I wake up, escalate, escalate.. "I'm on my period but do you wanna fuck anyways?" Uh, no, don't want my first time to be on her period. Declined, said I would rather it happen when we both can truly enjoy it. I left in the morning. Made plans with her a few nights later.
Went in, sat on her bed, her parents called, she finished some assignment. She asks me when the last time I had sex.. "Couple months ago", I lied. We talk about sex, she says she likes the 'money shot'. I was thinking, cool, I can try that tonight. We make out and I try to get her clothes off, succeed to a point, I can't work a fucking bra, left it til she took it off. I try to get hard. I'm nervous. I can't. I excuse myself to the bathroom.. try to pep-talk my soft dick. Come back out, can't stay hard. She starts giving me a blowjob, which was awful, at the end I'm just doing all the work myself with her mouth, pull out and I blow it on her face. She comments on how it was "goopy".. I don't fucking know lady, I haven't been around another guys Jizz before, could've been something I ate or drank, or the nerves messing my balls up. I came back in with a towel for her to clean her face off and wanted to give her an orgasm but she didn't want me to finger her. I left, feeling utterly disappointed. I could never bring myself to call her again and I never did.
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