| Whoa, when did my journal become a sticky?!
Got a lot to catch up on.
Thursday
It was a long week, and my mind and body were both exhausted. A challenging week for state control, but a good challenge nonetheless. Completely forget what I did that night.
Friday
My ex (the hot brunette road rage one) has a birthday party. I arrive, a load of people are there. This was the day I decided by state control was going to be a lot better. I moved my body, listened to music, and used verbal practice in my car (basically pretending I'm talking to a hot girl for practice) while driving to school, all to pump my state. I was in a great state all day, so it was natural for me to be in a good state at the party. I eventually start self amusing pretty hard, busting on everyone, including Indian comic, Colombian girl (now best friends with road rage girl), etc. etc. I stand on a foam roller and dance / converse. Girls try to push me off. Bratty girl arrives with a guy, flirts with me instead. Puts her hand on my chest. Pushes my head into her armpit to make me smell her after I tell her she smelled lol. BR girl is now following me everywhere. I converse with her, Jap dude, beard Noosa dude, and others around me. I flirt with model girl. Jap dude teaches us some hilarious Japanese phrases and idioms. We talk about pokemon and re-enact the team rocket motto. BR girl is laughing at everything that comes out of my mouth. I'm loud, and I'm proud. Pot girl is playing a flute she brought. I ask her to teach me how to play the skin flute. lol. Spanish girl texts me to hang out I tell her I'm at a party. Pot girl insists I walk her to her car, then rants to me as I walk her about me being an asshole (she's crazy and bipolar). I apologize with a smirk on my face, she continues to rant. I just walk away. She yells that road rage girl is upset too, and wants me to leave. Road rage girl is incredibly drunk, and probably jealous that every other girl at the party is flirting with me. She's been upstairs for awhile and wasn't coming down. I check the watch, 12 am. Eh, watevs. I peace out and pass out.
Saturday. I wake up, get "apology" texts from both road rage girl and pot girl, I forgive road rage girl and ignore pot girl (her text wasn't really an apology it was a fake apology then keep saying how I disrespected her text. I just do what I do, girl, it's all in good fun, wasn't trying to insult anybody. Plus, I already apologized.
I go to Jiu Jitsu training. Get promoted to blue belt #thuglyfe. We head to a brewery after. I chat with mostly dudes, still make good conversation and self amuse. People around us start talking to us cuz we're hilarious and fun. Pizza girl texts, wants to hang out, I invite her. She arrives, more goofing off. My training partner beto comes over and comments on how I bring a new girl every time he sees me. I tell him it's cuz I have sick game.
Beto is hilarious and is usually in a good state too, so girls love him as well. Me, him, and Steve (another training partner) all go with pizza girl to Illegal Pete's for burritos and more goofing off. Beto's wife is out of town for the week, so I'm supposed to take him around and show him a good time. Done. We head to Julie's (another training partner, but I think a lesbian) house to watch UFC fights. Pizza girl comes, it's all dudes (obviously) and we laugh and have a good time. The main fight with Ronda Rousey (<3!!!) ends in 14 seconds by armbar lol. Pizza girl is tired and leaves. I send out a round of texts cuz I'm still down for hanging out, it's around 11. I get responses from TA girl 1 and Spanish girl. I meet TA girl 1 at barcade, there's some dudes there, and BR girl is there. BR girl and I play some arcade games (Street fighter and Mortal Kombat) and then sit on a couch and talk. She sits a little further away because she's so nervous around me... awww how cute.
See, a novice here thinks: Oh no, that must mean she's not into me! How do I get her to like me?!
A gangsta thinks: (about everything she does) Yeah, she's doing that because she's attracted to me. (even if she denies it, which most girls will, even if they don't know wtf they're talking about)
I ask her what she was like in high school. She goes blah blah blah. I relate to her by telling my own high school stories blah blah blah. Think about escalating, don't, because it's a lit area and plus I'm actually not really attracted to her.
I glance at my phone for the time. Midnight. They all get up to leave. I get a text from Spanish girl, who wants to meet up. They leave, Spanish girl arrives. We go back into the barcade, and chat. I have great body positioning. I'm seated, leaning back, and she's in front of me, standing, talking to me. I tease her about her accent. She gets close, our legs are touching and there's incidental and more purposeful touching (my hand on her leg on high points). I think about escalating again. Although physically, the escalation has been good, Because there's a slight language barrier, I hesitate with the verbal escalation. I should've gone with something like, "How good of a kisser are you?" after I slowed things down a bit. However, it was in a well lit area, there weren't many dark corners, more excuses, more excuses, maybe I was just pussying out a bit. The vibe is good, there isn't as good of an emotional connection, just lots of attraction game.
She insists she hasn't been flirting with me (untrue). A dude arrives, picks her up and twirls her, and tells her she's beautiful (they know each other). She nervously giggled, but I can tell she's not into him. I greet him, joke around with him (novices here would try to out-AMOG him), but I literally don't give a shit, he leaves after a minute or two. More joking around, I glance at my phone. She asks me what we're doing now. Looking back, I should've taken her on an adventure, but I was actually tired so I told her I was heading home. She stops at my car and chats some more, but she's too far away from me for me to make a move. I call it a night and head home. This girl is fun, beautiful, and definitely attracted. She's going snowshoe-ing with Prodigy and Tbone the next day, I sincerely wish them a fun time! If an opportunity comes up for isolation, I'll go for the kiss next time.
Pros:
state control better, therefore attraction game solid as always
practiced emotional connection with BR girl
physical connection good
Working on:
Verbal escalation
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