Hi all. Im seriously fucked up, kinda like extra mask, im overly honest, cant pee in front of others, and im always a little on edge.

Im 35, I live in Pueblo, CO.

I got into the game in prison (sort of). I was a fucked up teen and got busted for armed robbery. I made friends with my celly that was an older black man missing his front tooth. He had tons of photos of beautiful women he had dated and was friends with. He told me if i would fetch coffee for him he would tell me how to pick up women. So i did and he gave me my introduction to the game. Basically said the basics, look confident, dress neat, make eyey contact, and most importantly play the numbers. He told me if i get rejected nothing happens other than i used a chance at a potential number. He said if i ask 10 women out and 1 says yes then thats 1 more than i had before. I got out of prison and sure enough the method worked and my success rate was about 1 in 10. But i increased those odds by going on yahoo chat years ago and would play the lets be friends game and patience. I acted as tho i didnt want the pussy and got it almost every time. Problem was i was banging more milfs and bbws than i really wanted to but i was making up for lost time in prison. A female friend of mine gave me a copy of The Game by Neill Strauss 10 years ago and I knew I was on to something bigger. I definitely increased the quality of my game by not asking girls names for one, learned better approach methods and ways of displaying alpha status. Problem was and is i still freeze up. I dont have enough tools yet. My last two wives were obtained with Neills methods but i kinda fucked things up like Mystery twice. Cheating early on and being a worthless bum inspite of being intelligent and skilled at more than 1 trade. I get depressed easily and lose motivation.

My hobbies right now are keeping my kids happy and healthy, working out and going 4x4 riding by the house. My passions are spreading truth, smoking eating and legalizing marijuana.

My 2nd wife just left me but says were still friends. She left me with 3 cars a place to live and we still talk. Its weird cause im jealous as fuck but grateful she didnt leave me high and dry. She says she wants to stay business partners. I know I cant let my jealousy fuck this up. She is gorgeous, a straight up trophy wife. But thats why im here. Its been years, but I can do this again and right this time.

Welcome to the forum! One thing I do that helps me out with this, is I play a little game when I have spare time or when I'm driving. All you have to do is think of one any random thing in your head to start, for instance a car. Then think about a trait that car has in your mind. For example you could be thinking of a red mustang. So a trait could be red. Red is your next word. What is something that is red? Apples. What are apples related to? Fruit. Fruit is your next word. What can relate to fruit? grocery stores. And so on and so forth. This basically helps your brain continue with the flow of your conversation because you have trained yourself to bounce off topics quickly. Make sense?
What I am doing right now that is helping me stay motivated and happy, is I have a list every night I make before I go to sleep of things I need to do the next day. As well as monthly goals, weekly goals. After you keep making lists and keep doing the things on that list, you will start to see things as well as your life going in an upward spiral of improvement because you are completing goals. However if you really want to motivate yourself, tell someone close to you about what you are doing, and tell them you will pay them 5$ that day if you did not do something on the list you've made. I think this might really help you.

Awesome hobbies to have! I'm glad that your first one is keeping my kids happy and healthy.

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---Red's Journal
Motivation Mindset="If I can do it, it can be done"
No Fap Mindset="If I fap, I will turn into a god damn retard"