It really hit me hard, I have tried so so hard not to be socially awkward over the past year and this just made things worse.

1) When walking past a hot girl, I wont give her too much attention, just a quick glance and eye contact

2) I usually eat breakfast alone. Is that bad? I mean I dont mind because I dont have time to meet up with a friend to "goto breakfast" I do however eat with a girl every night for dinner and lunch but you can say me and her are "just freinds"

3) I noticed when I eat alone, I start to become really really awkward and shy and paranoid that everyone is watching my every move

4) I have this rage inside me like I want to be myself and not give a f*** what anyone cares, but I just CANT do it unless I have prepared myself before showing up to a place

5) I have trouble being "desensitized" if you may have read in many PUA guides

6) I try not to look desperate or like a loser by staring straight to where I m walking even if I see a bro and Im like whats good bro and just keep going forward to not look beta and seek approval from other males (no homo)

You can't let some girl affect your reality.

IMO the best solution for your situation is to force yourself to be more social in general: hit the streets or venues and approach women, learn to get good at meeting, dating & sexing women and it will improve the rest of your life a million-fold.

Yes, start socializing. The more people you get to know, the more you will understand them. You will realise that noone is watching you, noone cares, they are too preoccupied with what others are thinking about them.

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It sounds like you need to change your lifestyle and inner game altogether. You don't attract what you want, but you attract what you are - if you know what I mean.

Couple of questions for you:

1. Where do you eat breakfast? Is it always the same place?
2. Who is the girl that called you socially akward? A colleague, a random stranger, a waitress?
3. What's your typical day like?

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I eat breakfast at the university cafeteria. So yeah its always the same place.
The girl that called me awkard is an ex-gf that also goes to my university, and we have known eachother for 6 years now.
Typical day for me:

Wake, bfast, dress nice, class, lunch, unpack, plan for hw that night, workout, shower, nap, dinner, study, sleep.

Saturday nights are supposed to be my free nights, where I plan to party/socialize.

Thanks for the motivation man. A book I am reading, "The Natural" by Richard La Ruina, has helped me a little bit after the first three chapters and applying his concepts to become a more social person, but the thing is, I have stopped and been out the game for a while (2 months) now. All I can say is, this PUA stuff works! It definitely shed some light on me on how to be social and not awkward, I just haven't gotten to the point where I feel natural doing it. Overall, it has helped me become a better man. I'll take all of you guys advice.

yeah i can understand how it can hit you hard - i was called creepy by a female coworker because i was just leaning up against a rail at work people watching when i was upset. i mean COME ON! she KNOWS i run a meetup group full of puas and i am a coach and all that shit, so why would she call me creepy? i started thinking i was creepy... i let it get to me and i just left work then i realized she just didnt understand i was being lazy and upset.

its other peoples prospective that you cant let them get to you. you have to learn to be self-reliance or else you give other people the ability to control your emotions and your life.

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its been a while but just a quick update.

Idk if anyone here is into horoscopes, but mine read that I am an emotional person and have a hard time controlling my emotions.

I feel strong about this, and my new year resolution is to stay controlled with my emotions.

Horoscope is bullshit. Horoscope uses the very same cold reading techniques that we use on women and the effect is the exact same thing. You take what is true and ignore all the parts that are not, and most of it is so vaguely phrased that it applies to 99 out of 100 people.

That doesn't mean you don't have a hard time controlling emotions and it is a good resolution to work on it, but it hasn't got shit to do with your zodiac.

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Ahh I see. Well, so I stopped hanging out with that girl I would always eat lunch and dinner with, because I was tired of spending time with ONE female and getting nowhere, when I could be talking to other women and improving my game. It is clear she was not interested in me, because I asked her out after months of talking and she said she wasnt ready for a relationship but honesty i took it as a sugarcoated way of saying im not interested. Aka freindzone. I felt like she used me the whole time we hung out since I drive her to town and back to campus everytime i goto visit my family like 200mi away. And like i was so frustrated i felt like my man card was taken, and she had tied my di*k in a knot and took my balls away, so I just stopped communicating and put her behind me. So the past few days, I have focused on just approaching without closing with a number to cop a feel of where I am and what needs improvements. There was a moment today when a woman said "You look nice" And I felt taken back and uncomfortable, but i said thanks haha. So i feel as if when we men compliment women physically it could make them feel creeped out at the first meeting. So i ask myself, what other compliment would make me feel appreciative but not creeped out, and it turns out the whole complimenting on non-physical feautures is a much better idea.

take the process seriously, not the girls

Some girls don't realize how sensitive guys can be to that word. i had a gf that would use that word as a synonym
for anything and everything. Like if someone was being grumpy, she'd say, "Don't be creepy." So there's that.

And secondly, you know the fact that she knows you run a PUA group might be why she did it. Not that she thinks
pua is a creepy but that it's a different kind of shit test. She sort of assumes/expects that you are well versed in handling that kind of thing and might just want to see for herself...

Sounds like your life pretty much revolved around women.

That's why you're coming off as creepy

Make some friends. Develop a social circle that you can be proud of. Do some things outside of "game"

I think you hit the nail on the head with that one. Lol, I'm in a very pathetic stage of life right now. In college, I dont even want to be here (fell into the "college is good" BS), Id rather have not went and just kept working until I figured out what I want to do. Im going through a crisis in life. If I am not happy I can never make freinds.

I know how it feels, it feels like you are handcuffed. I wouldn't worry about meeting women now, just improve on yourself. You'll always probably be shy and quiet, that's part of your personality. But you can definitely become less afraid, and lose those paranoid thoughts.