I started this year at 18 never having kissed a girl and a complete recluse. About Febuary I was overcome with depression and anxiety and thus had to take several weeks off college where I started taking sertaline (prescribed) and let that take it's effects.

At the end of the turbulent two weeks of side effects, I went on my first date with a girl and she invited me to a party the next week and we kissed and met up a few times. I broke it off in the end as I found her annoying and boring.

About 2 months later, I asked a girl out at college and we went out that night and she kissed me after about 30 mins having never spoken before. We then went out once more, and kissed a lot, however she got cold feet and flaked on me a week later, then got with loads of boys on a night out I went to.

Despite this, another girl who was even hotter began to fancy me, probably due to my increasing social network and new-found confidence. With this, another girl also began to fancy me. As this happened whilst I was still dating the first girl I didn't pursue these others as I was in college with all of them.


Cool brother! I'll be checking it out

A few weeks later, the second girl goes off me, probably from me not escalating quickly enough, however I went to London with the third girl recently and we are supposedly going out for a drink soon, and we were very physical at a festival the other day, although we didn't kiss.

Last week at a gig, I nearly a girls number who although she told me she had a boyfriend - only as I negged her by asking if she was here on her own. She was a solid HB10 and usually I would have been a nervous wreck at this chance, but I was alright.

Today I went out with a very shy girl from college, who has a lot in common with me (same music and subjects) and although we didn't kiss, she did become much more comfortable with me over the day. Any tips for escalating with a shy girl who probably isn't used to being touched and is thus probably a virgin? I am too, admittedly.

I'm just trying to date as many girls as possible at the moment to get used to the feelings of rejection and depression that follow, and hopefully build up some tolerance to it. I will aim to write in this blog every few days and everyday something significant happens.