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Honestly what's really bugging me is that I feel like I have no control. I feel like I don't even have the choice between the two options you mentioned because she broke up with me and is not contacting me at all within the last two weeks. That's what's driving me crazy me not being able to decide which option. Although obviously I need to not call her it just feels almost impossible to resist at times.
Can still take some control back. How? By not giving into the temptation and contacting her.
Your attachment is trying to pull you back in. You can take control now by blocking her number, email etc and moving on in spite of what she may or may not be doing. What u r doing is taking control of your life again, for YOU. Whenever you shift your focus to her, that's when your ego convinces you you've 'lost'. Not having her in your life is a gain, that's the reality.
You'll see this more clearly once the attachment is broken.