My boyfriend wrote to me: "A liveless relationship lasting is much worse than a relationship comming to an end". Then he said that we can contact after 1 year. I asked not to set the date. But this is a chance to end it. Finally. Because I agree with what he wrote.
Look, I can meet this guy in breathing courses anyway, even if I don't write him. I will participate there and he will as well. If he wants - he could come and talk to me. If not -I think I would at least write him after the course, that those 20 hours with him were the most wonderful thing happening to me in a long time and that I accept it as my birthday present (my birthday is on Thursday, when the courses begin). Oh, and I would maybe ask more of his advice for my future trials with guys (or maybe better not? He would feel like a trial himself. You see, it happens like that -I say something to a guy and only later I think it could get hurt him).

Now it's like too much for me - I didn't sleep well this whole week, I daydream about him all the time and it's already tiring.

Yes, I would like to be with him for this month, but then it's not even a month left. And he has a really important exam in 2.5 week, so he will study non stop for 2 weeks. Even less time.
I'd like to kiss him anyway, but I won't write tomorrow.

Is it me or has this thread has gone really high school?

You're thinking way too much about this guy. You've got oneitise. Advice is to just move on and get someone else.

Still though, given that he's definitely leaving just go out with him and fuck him. May aswell get something from it, right? Plus you're free to do whatever you want given the fact that your boyfriend ended your relationship -- exactly what I said would happen. The only person who got hurt out of all this was, as i've been telling you throughout this thread, you. You should have had the balls to break up with your "boyfriend" and gone for the person you actually wanted if only for the training wheels it would present you with in finding more suitable companions and knowing how to hold your emotions in situations and learn from this entire scenario.

Go up to the guy, don't be a sap and messaging him about how amazing your time has been if he doesn't talk to you on your courses. Just go up to him, say "hi" and see if he wants to hang out again. Then just go all the way if you feel comfortable with it. Don't let your shambles of a "relationship" get in the way with that because it's been over for a long time and I can tell you your boyfriend was simply waiting to get with someone else before dumping you. You'll know in roughly two weeks before he starts getting dodgy messages on his FB from chicks or if he actually posts that he's in a relationship. This whole "open relationship on my terms" bullshit was so he could get an easy way out and still have access to your ass.

)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) HAPPY!!!!!!!!

I kissed him!!!!!! All night long And I like him even more now. I like his body and I like his mind so so so much. But I'm afraid at the same - I don't understand him. He is so confident, not like me. And he asked to move to live with him :DDDD I have no idea if it was serious or not. Oh, and asked if he is my bf (I didn't answer, because I still don't know if he is only teasing or not).

The bad things that he said today's morning, at 4 am - that he sometimes called his previous girls with a name of another girl and that I shouldn't mind it if he calls me. Then he talked about boobs in a not nice way!!!! I mean - I am naked with him and I would definitely prefer him talking nicely as I still don't feel absolutely comfortable. Then he also said something like that he is bad and he may hurt me. Ok, this was like a huge turn off. I stopped kissing him and the thing is - I don't get when he is joking and when he is serious. But at 5.30 we started kissing again. Oh, and he has really important day today and he didn't sleep the whole night with me!!!! I think this is a good sign (I need to understand if he is involved emotionally).
And I told him that I love him!!!! But I said that I'm not sure which love kind I feel. He said that he also loves me and also doesn't know which love kind. And I love the idea that he knows about kamasutra and lot's of things from East, which I find attractive.

I am absolutely emotional with this guy. I have no idea if he is. I mean - I am in love, even more. It's scary, but nice.

I didn't write to bf, he has no FB. I feel guilty, that I am now with this guy, but - I love kissing him, I feel in love and I love his mind so far, even if I don't get him completely.

And he said that he likes my body, my face and my soul. I mean - my bf never would have said that... He would concentrate to the body only.
And this guy said that I look more beautiful without make up, which is also absolutely contrary to my boyfriend's opinion, but sounds so good.

Ok, I know this has no future, but if it may have a beautiful end - I think I would like to make love with him.