| with someone I screwed up with.
Posted a little while back about a girl I was really into, but I fucked it up by being too needy.
She is very young (21), I am (35), so big age difference. Long story short, she was in exams, we never discussed that we weren't gonna be talking during her studying... I fucked up, I asked what the hell was goin on and why we went from talking and fucking non stop to not talking at all. Scared her off. I played everything completely wrong.
Anyways, we never really knew each other that well, but I really fell for this girl. Which is crazy, cause I haven't fell for a girl like this in years. I am a good looking, very successful guy and get a ton of good looking girls, but this girl for some reason drove me nuts. I guess you guys call it a case of "one-itis". This girl really got to me. So much so, that I've been slightly out of control lately with fucking a ton of girls to get my mind off her... almost to a point where I think it's too much. In fact, even taking a break this weekend...unless I decided to stay up late and a girl will come by after she goes out, lol.
Anyways, we haven't spoken or seen each other in many weeks. I ran into her today at the gym. Honestly, when I saw her from across the gym, I got super nervous. Had to tell myself to relax and play this extremely cool.
I pretended to be on my phone, and walked by. She saw me, looked excited and gave me a big smile and hello. I saw her and pretended to still be on the phone, but gave her a nice smile and a hello and a "give me a minute, just on the phone" motion, and kept walking.
I "hung up", and kept things very brief with her. Just a "hey, how've you been". She was going on about what she's been up to lately, blah blah blah. I just acted semi-interested, while warming up to train, and really tried to play it cool.
She started her workout right next to me, which is actually a workout I gave her a few months ago. So I look at her with a confused look and said to her, "why are you still doing the same workout, I sent you 4 parts, you should be on the second part by now." I never actually sent her the second part, and she doesn't really have to be doing the second part yet if she's still progressing with part 1, but I kinda made it like it she should be on part 2.
She said that I never sent her the other parts. I just played it off, like "my bad". Then she was hinting she wants the second part. Didn't really acknowledge her.
A while back when we were still on, she mentioned that she was nervous that one of her glutes was slightly bigger than the other. She never told me which one (It's not, she has a perfect ass!). So I made a little joke today about if she's still having the butt issue. She laughed and said ya, but maybe she was imagining it. Then I decided to take a chance and said, "it's your left glute that you find smaller, right?" She freaked out and said YES!.
I lied, and said ya I can notice it. Definitely didn't say this in a mean way. Just to play a bit on her insecurites. She asked what she can do. I said there's a few things she can do to fix it, and it's a relatively easy fix, but didn't go into it any further.
So not in an obvious way, I decided I should end the converstaion here while I had her wanting something from me. Told her I'm in a rush, take care, and left. I honestly think I handled the whole situation really well. Wasn't overly enthusiastic to see her, we caught up a bit, joked a bit, and the playful insult about her butt.
I REALLY wanna bang her again. I know she would want to fuck again, as we were having amazing sex. Made her squirt for the first time ever (so she says), but I think I believe her, she is very young after all. Who knows. She would beg for it every time after that we fucked.
Now, here's my question. In a few days, should I email her part 2 of the workout program, with no message, just the workout. Just to show that everyting's cool. Won't text her to see if she got it, will really just leave the ball in her court and see if I get a response. If she messages me after with a thank you, I will simply write back "no problem".
Also thinking about purposely leaving the training program a bit vague, where she will have to ask questions about it.
Maybe this will open up lines of communication again, and if it works I will definitely play this much better.
What do you guys think? (Or am I just completely fucking nuts! lol)
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