Went out yesterday with my new voice recorder and my wing was sporting a camera to record some infield footage. Unfortunately we still need to get the hang of the camera, and Jonny forgot to delete some clips on it so it was full and turned itself off quite soon. My voice recorder worked marvelously though. I had a mic attached to the inside of my shirt and it worked perfectly. I have some recordings of some of the conversations I had yesterday - I am one funny motherfucker.

Anyway, my first approach was a 2 set sitting by the benches in the bar. I opened with "You." One of the girls immediately retaliated with "No YOU!" and I initiated a playful back and forth. I talked shit with them and asked them if they're best friends. They said they met recently or something. Then one girl talked about cross puking and I asked her if she cross puked with her friend here. She said no, and I told the friend that she and I should cross puke sometime, under the stars, like in the Lion King when they all look up at the stars. I told her it would be romantic.

Anyway the set was going no where so I peaced out and moved on. I told Jonny to follow me with the camera, hidden beneath his coat in his arms. I approached a Finnish girl who caught my eye because of her sparkly jewellery, and I opened with "I love your sparkly purse. And you have a sparkly necklace, why are you so SPARKLY!" I sounded so gay but it was fun nonetheless. I made up a story about her sparkly necklace about how she was looking for nemo but since she has ADHD the pebbles caught her attention. Anyway we chat for a little while, but she becomes more and more distant. I peace out and walk away.

Immediately after was a 2-set seated on the floor. I opened with "You guys look so bored! Why are you so bored!" I kneeled down beside them, and started to vomit my shit on them. One of them said she didn't like the music here, and I asked her whether she like dubstep. She didn't understand so I proceeded to sing some dubstep for them. One of the girls pushed me away and I asked her why she hated me. Anyway, set was going nowhere, so I left.

I moved onto the dance-floor and searched for some sets. Not much really, the place wasn't as full as usual.

I approached a girl in a 3 or 4 set, and it turns out I approached her a while ago. She was bitchy back then, and she was bitchy now. Greek and cold, she just doesn't bite ever. I end up leaving the set, dancing, not giving a fuck.

I walk back to the smoking area and approach a single-set texting. I ask her why she's texting in a bar. She's cold, but replies with "I am texting my friends." I hang onto the subject for too long and the set dies. Her friend or her boyfriend or whatever comes in and she tells me she has to make a phone call. I leave the set.

I went back closer to the bar and Jonny opened a set there. I stood there, talking to another wing of ours. A girl walked past and I opened her with a simple "hi, I wanted to meet you." It was pretty on, but nothing happened with her. Should have just gone for the makeout here.

After that I opened another cutie wearing a beanie with "I like your hat" and she came over to me. She was pretty drunk and getting close to me. We were talking into each others' ears. At one point she says "We are not going to kiss." I say "No no, I'm breaking up with you." She introduces me to her friends, and they're all awkward and boring, and I just leave the set.

I open a french girl in a 5 set or so with "Hi, I wanted to meet you." She replies, but is distant. I talk shit for a few minutes, I ask her name but she doesn't give it to me. I know, what a bitch. I say I have no name either and that we should travel the US and create our noname band and play gigs in small bars and clubs. Her friend is more receptive but I end up leaving the set after a while.

I move to the bar and open this girl in a 2-set with "Hi, I wanted to meet you" and she's quite receptive. I talk a lot of shit at her, but she stays distant. The other girl is more receptive. We chat about travel and Vienna and London, and I talk about 420 and ask them if they celebrated. They don't know what it is, so I tell them, and ask them if they smoke weed. They say they do ocassionally. Anyway, the set goes nowhere. Jonny then tells me to open this girl in a red dress. I do with a tap on the shoulder and a "Hi, I wanted to meet you." She's drunk, receptive, not that pretty, and pretty fucking annoying, but I stay in set anyway. We get close and I feel like I could have gone for the kiss, but didn't. I dance with her a little bit, using VP's dancing for 4 seconds move. I tell her I will teach her the tango, and that we should fly to London tomorrow. Anyway, she annoys the shit out of me and her attention always shifts. I end up leaving the set.

My last set is a single girl by the benches, I tell her she looks bored, and we have a small conversation. She tells me she's waiting for her friends by the bar, and I ask her if they're real or imaginary. She says real and I tell her I have an imaginary friend named Jeff and that she should meet him. She shakes his invisible hand and I find this amusing. Anyway, at that point the friend of Bavarian girl walks past and sees me talking to this girl I think. I decide it's better that I stop talking to this chick, and find Jonny, and leave the bar.

NOTES: Be more dominant baby. Go for those makeouts baby.

Sounds like the type of night where you go out and spit value and you start to question if women even have the capability to make conversation. I've had those nights.

I actually like your style a lot though. It is more conversational than VP's which is more of what I aim towards. It is my belief that if you are night gaming, high value girls should be slightly off put by you approaching them. You overcome this gap by offering value. Being physical is important after you establish comfort. A lot of it is the vibe and subtext you put out. I know just by reading your field reports that you probably come off as a fun dude when you are out. Julien and Tyler from RSD can get away with quick physical pulls because they exude this same vibe.

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Yep these girls were real downers! Maybe I was a little needy in my approaches, but I think not. I was providing quite a lot of value and these girls just didn't see it. My escalation has been called smooth which is a plus for me. I have some voice recordings that I might put on here just to show off some of them stupid verbal skills!

Thanks for the input man!

No gaming until next week or the week after! In Belgium right now visiting my dad, finishing 2 essays due Monday, got a film coming up next week in London, taking the train to London tomorrow afternoon.

Dunno what's wrong with me, but I'm still writing Bavarian chick. We are both completely into each other. Da fuck is wrong with me? I'm thinking of visiting her next Friday and staying at hers in Vienna over the weekend. Let's see how that goes.

Apart from that, game is still priority.

So I'm having game withdrawal, and I'm going out tonight. Fuck it, livin the life.

I am also flying back to Vienna on Friday to see Bavarian girl, staying at hers for the weekend til Monday. I've got a film shoot this Tuesday to Thursday, but I'm planning on going out every night anyway.

I flew to Vienna last Friday to meet Bavarian girl. I wasn't sure if she was gonna be at the airport to pick me up, as she was still pissed about the whole lying thing, and she gave me a lot of shit via SPAM, but she still liked me a lot.

Anyway I arrive at the airport and have to take a shit, as I'm quite nervous, so I do.

I finish up and hurry out the exits of the airport, and sure enough, she's there, on the phone. She sees me and hangs up. I'm expecting a slap in the face right then and there, but she just comes up to me, I say "Hi" and kisses me. We makeout for a long time, people passing us, looking at us, shouting that they'd like to be greeted like that someday.

We move to the trains and take the train back to her place. There is tension in the air, but we are both happy to see each other. Holding her in my arms again is an incredible experience. Every time I try to lift her up she refuses, and I wonder why.

Anyway we arrive at her place and kiss some more, then the clothes come off and lo and behold, she's wearing black and pink lingerie just for me. I unhook her panties and take them off, leaving her stockings on, and I fuck her so beautifully like that. It is amazing sex, we have both been longing for each other for a good two weeks, and finally I'm inside her again, and we fuck and make love. I fuck her with her legs to the side, she comes like 3-4 times, and I finally come inside her.

We lie there in incredible ecstasy, and are speechless. We cuddle. We realize we're hungry so we get ready and head out.

We grab lunch and then go to a park, where we have a long talk. She tells me the last two weeks have been torturous for her, as she constantly thought about me and how I lied to her face, and how she likes me so much, and I tell her my side, about how I was being a dickhead in the bar and how I genuinely regret doing that to her. I ended up shedding tears because I was so fucking sad I did that to her. She came around and kissed me. She said she wouldn't be able to go through that again, and I said I wouldn't want her to. I gave her many opportunities to call it quits, telling her I would be sad but there would be nothing I can do about it. Pickup has taught me that it is possible to move on, that you have to be willing to lose the girl. And I was.

She didn't leave.

We spent the weekend together, I stayed at her place. Saturday night I met some of her friends. At her place she mentions girlfriend/boyfriend quickly, and I play along. In the train she apologizes if the girlfriend/boyfriend thing shocked me, and I tell her it didn't, and that I would like it. We sort of made it official there that we're together. Anyway we get to her friend's place, get drunk, have late night munch, go back to hers and pass out.

Sunday we spent at her place almost entirely. We talk more seriously about the girlfriend boyfriend thing, and decide we would like to be together. We tell each other our rules/guidelines for a relationship, what we find important, and have a serious talk about it all. We have similar values, if not exactly the same. We were both quite promiscuous, so we understand each other quite well on that level.

Late at night we watched a movie and had sex again, then stayed up all night fucking and talking and cuddling. We talk about how many people we've slept with, and it turns out the same number of people, only that she had one extra lesbian experience, haha.

Monday comes along and we're both feeling this whole weekend coming to an end. We have breakfast and stay in her bed all day. Closer to leaving time I give her the best fuck of her life, quite literally, and it was probably the best, most fulfilling sex I've ever had. I fuck her softly, then hard, and she moans loudly, cumming 5 times, and I fuck her on the floor, and then standing up against the bed and unload inside of her, condom on, and we scream each other's names.

After we just lie in her bed and laugh for like 5 minutes straight, cuddling.

She takes me to the airport, and we make plans for the next time either I or she visits. We get to the airport, go to the security entrance, and kiss for a good 10 minutes. She tears up, and I tell her we are together now and that we'll be seeing each other soon, and that we have each other in our heart (Cheesy shitttt!) She had put on red lipstick and kissed a piece of paper which I took with me, and I left my shirt at her place, all sweaty and shit.

We kiss one last time, and I scan my ticket and enter the security area. She turns and leaves.

We had a talk again yesterday over SPAM about our relationship, and she said she was scared she might be limiting me. We both know we can be promiscuous, but we both want in on this, and again said that we want to be exclusive.

It's weird because for some reason it still doesn't feel like she's my girlfriend, and I have a feeling she feels the same way, even though we both agreed to it. I know her potential for sleeping around, and I guess she knows mine, so I think we're both extra cautious. I am planning to visit her again, and she said she will chip in on the flight, so we'll see how that goes.

Game on fellas.

So I haven't been out this weekas I've been on SPAM with the girlfriend every night. I need to go out again, for shits and giggles. I've also been active on Tinder, getting better a that shit day by day, getting more matches, more numbers now, should be having a date today which I'm not going to, almost had a date on Monday but she lives FAR.

Tonight I'm skyping the gf again, but then will have to go out for a good night out.

I went out to Central London yesterday. Went to this thing called Saturday Sarge where people from the community meet up every Saturday and game the streets and make wings. I get there at 5PM and they're all standing in Pret, grabbing a coffee. I enter and start chatting and we talk about game and progress, etc.

I meet a guy I saw last time at the RSD Freetours and Hotseats. We decide to head out and game. We do a few approaches.

We approach this chinese 2 set, and I begin to just self amuse and bullshit a little bit playfully. I notice my wing (Let's call him Jenner) is having a hard time keeping a conversation going with his girl, and maybe he's intimidated by my skills (awww yeah). That set goes on for a few minutes, I call my girl the Sun since she's wearing an all yellow sweater, and she's laughing, etc. Anyway I ask where they're headed and they say down the road, I say that's where we're going as well, and I tell them to come with. But they seem a little weirded out, so I tell them we're going to run off. We do.

We do a few more random approaches during the day, and then I begin to coach Jenner. He's got problems with his throat, anxiety problems that come manifest themselves physically. I give him the 30 second exercise, in which you have to do 10 approaches and in between approaches you have 30 seconds to get into a new set, and that set can be whoever, man woman, dog... He ends up approaching a girl who hooks, and they talk for 10 minutes or so. I mime to him to get the number, but he doesn't. He then tells me she has a boyfriend.

We enter a shop for him to finish off his approaches, and he approaches a muslim group, who end up complaining to the staff, and the staff comes up to us asking if there's a problem, and we just say that we're doing a social experiment.

Anyway we leave, and he does a final 2 approaches, one of which goes quite well, he ends up walking with her, but they say goodbye. Boy needs to be a little more persistent in getting what he wants.

I say I have to go back home to SPAM the GF but will be back out later, and we make plans for the night.

I go home and SPAM with the girlfriend, she's drunk, I'm getting there, almost ended up having SPAM sex with her, but she wasn't quite compliant enough, I showed her my penis, and I told her to show me how wet she is, but she didn't take off them pants...oh well. I'll get her there, since she's done it before she told me.

12.30am comes along and I'm in Piccadilly Circus.

We head to Piccadilly Institute, pay the tenner, hang up our coats in the cloakroom, and go to game.

The night was pretty good. Too many sets to count, I wasn't keeping track. I almost k-closed twice, but didn't go for the makeout, since, well...I'm exclusive now. I ended up kissing a girl on the neck in front of her friends, she was a little taken aback, and I hit her with RSD Alex's statement of empathy saying "I'm really forward, sorry, if I'm too forward for you tell me to back off, that's just how we are in Austria". The friends end up dragging her away, I try to get her number, but she says no.

Second possible makeout was with a 2 set on the upper floor, I approached with a simple "Hi" I pulled her in and she was compliant. We talk the shit, she's tall so I ask her how tall she is. I dance with her and lift her up into the air and spin her around. After that I could've made out with her, but didn't. I've noticed if you don't go for the makeout soon the sets go sour. This might turn out to be a problem in my game now, since I can get makeouts quickly and if I don't go for them, the girls think either I'm not interested or I'm a pussy, both of which I'm not. I try to pull her outside to the smoking area, but it's already too late. She says no. I eject the set as she walks to her friends.

I'm walking around with a broken rose that some dude tried to use on a girl previously, but I stole and he ended giving it to me. He was talking to this chick by the railings and I went up to her and said "Is this guy harrassing you? Pretend I'm your boyfriend..." after that I was in and the dude just went back to his friends and they saw me gaming the chick. I told her I don't have a rose for her, I left it at home...she laughs. Then the guy just gives me the rose. I ignore him completely, almost unaware that he just passed me a rose into my hand. He was trying to somehow blow me out by telling me to give her the rose, but I didn't haha, I just ignored that shit and continued talking. Chodes.

Anyway, I end up coaching Jenner throughout the night, trying to get him to unstifle, but he's having a hard time. He knows logically how to get there, but this isn't about logic. He approaches a few sets, and gets blown out of some, no worries. But he seems socially uncalibrated, not noticing when he's coming across as rude, or when he is too intense. I point these things out to him, and it takes him some time to let them sink in.

I approach more sets, one french girl on the dance floor where I have a really broken conversation with her, asking her if she can take me to paris tomorrow, and spouting french nonsense like chateau and gateau and chapeau and voulez voucoucher avec moi. She laughs and shit, but she hardly speaks English. I eject the set.

I should have remained in these sets for longer, I guess it's hard to gauge how well you're doing if you're limiting yourself to only number closes or pulls without full intimacy.

We go further upstairs and Jenner opens a 2 set, continually asking where the blonde girl is from. She's wearing a black and white striped top, so I interrupt and ask her if she's a zebra. She says yes, and I say so you're from south Africa. She plays along and replies "Yes!" Ice broken, no awkwardness, I continue the set and chat bullshit with her. We talk about where we're from, she's Danish and I tell her one of my Danish friends keeps saying the phrase "Trocken Lutschen" to me, which in german means to "Suck dry". She laughs and I ask her if all Danish people are crazy. She says no. Meanwhile Jenner's girl is going sour, and begins to talk to my girl, and ends up dragging her away.

Another set was on the dancefloor, Jenner opens a girl, and I go in to wing him, taking on the other girl, opening with my rose saying "Avada Kedavra". She laughs. I ask her what she thinks of my rose, now almost completely broken, and she gives me a playful thumbs down. I say she's Indian and she is, and I tell her I'm half Indian half Austrian, so I have a medium sized penis. She laughs. I ask her what she studies, and guess that she studies Indian penis sizes. She laughs and says no. Anyway the set goes on, we talk the shit, her friend has a birthday, I hug her friend. We guess ages, she guesses mine right and I guess that she is 16. She's 26. Lol. Anyway I end up leaving the set.

My last set was a girl standing as a third wheel. I use my rose and open with my opener of the night "Avada Kedavra", and then ask her what she thinks of my rose. I end up talking to her for the next 10 minutes or so, she tells me her friend is making out with some guy in front of us, and that she wants to go home. Should've stayed in set and pulled here, but I end up going for the number, but she says no. No worries, I keep on plowing, her friends get up and she says it's time for her to go, but they continue to make out. I pull her in by the hand and claw her, telling her we should pretend to makeout as well. She pretend and I go for a kiss, but she pulls away and I get the cheek. I keep her in and then the set begins to leave and we say nice to meet you and she leaves.

Jenner and I end up leaving the club after that.

NOTES: Next time the aim will be to pull. No matter where. I will be more assertive, more persistent in what I want, stay in set until I pull.

SPAM the gf yesterday again. Our texting ratio has been a little bit off, with me investing a little bit more than her, but it's ok. I know she's very invested in me, she's put up with ma shit n shit. She knows about my potential to move on so she's sticking around. My mindset about texts has changed a little bit as well. Firstly since we are long distance right now texts cost a shit load, more for her than for me though, so I understand her not wanting to text too much. I'm pretty sure she has already invested a lot of money into me due to texts, probably over 30 euros or so in less than a month.

My mindset about texts now is to provide value, without expecting anything in return. My mindset is shifting in this direction anyway, to just give without expecting to receive. Not completely altruistic, because I can get what I want if I play my cards right, using takeaways, etc, and I know how to make her invest a little more. I sext a lot with her, especially over SPAM. We talk every night on SPAM anywhere from 2-6 hours. Last night was around 2. When we are not calling we write, and that's where shit gets hot. Using language to turn a girl on is one of the best things you can do, and keeps a spice up that pretty much no other guy can do.

I'll give you an example of what it looks like when I sext her, as it gets her turned on like crazy, but more importantly, it gets ME turned on like crazy. I think a lot like a girl when it comes to sex, I am visual, sure, but fuck I love anticipation, I love teasing and being teased, I could fuck for hours, something not many guys can do, because I know that the experience is heightened like crazy when you build anticipation, tension, and keep it there, and then you can literally go on forever. Here is an example of a sext I sent her on the phone in the middle of the day (how I got to that place will also be explained):

"I want to grab you by your back and run my hands up and down you slowly, caressing every pore of your naked body, and bathe you with my saliva whilst you lick off my sweat. I will slowly pull your legs apart and stroke your inner thighs, feeling your wetness drip all over my hands and face. You make my whole body shiver and it's all yours. As our bodies tough we look into each other's eyes and I slide inside of you, and we moan and you make me cum inside of you, all of it for you."

Over SPAM she told me that the text was amazing, that she was in the middle of lectures and it was a thrill. How did I get to that point, where I can just sext her whatever the hell I want? Our written SPAM conversations are at least 50-60% talking about fucking each other. It's something we do regularly now. She has now also taken a role in sexting me during the day or night, aiming to turn me on.

This all happens right after you fuck her the first time. When I have sex with a girl, I try to give both her and me the experience of a lifetime. I take my time, as I said I love anticipation. It's natural for me. I want to do everything with the girl, anything and everything. I am so comfortable with her nakedness that she becomes really comfortable with mine. I have been told by one of my previous girls that she has never been so comfortable naked with someone like me. And my current girlfriend has told me I am the best fuck of her life, and she's had a few guys. I was also the first guy to make a previous girl orgasm, after she had told me that no guy can make her cum I took on the challenge and did it.

If you are good in bed girls stick around, because it is so RARE. I cannot believe how bad some guys must be in bed. I am into everything, from hard fucking to spiritual sex. I will make my gf squirt the next time I see her, because she says she never has and really wants to. So with this sexual comfort then comes an overall comfort. Love happens in the bedroom. After I have sex I lie there naked with her, maybe give her a massage, both naked. I make sex fun, playful, joke about it from time to time, but know when to switch back to aggressiveness and sexual tension. I am quite dominant in the bedroom as well, telling her to switch positions, holding her dominantly, changing pace etc. But then I also allow her to be dominant form time to time, sometimes she takes the lead, sometimes I tell her to, like when I tell her to get on top and do anything she wants to me. I literally want to fulfil all of my fantasies.

Now another thing that led to me knowing I can sext her whatever I want is that I encouraged complete openness when we talk to each other. The post sex cuddle is where you can literally say anything, you can spill your guts, spill your feelings about sexuality. All that shit PUA teaches about being non-judgmental about sex, non-judgmental about women's sexuality, this can all happen here. Tell her your beliefs here. I told my gf that I love women, I love them so much. I love the female body, I love every inch of it. Of hers. If you then switch it to be about her you are making her feel extremely special. She and I had a talk about how many people we've slept with, and it's been pretty much the same amount, only that she had one extra lesbian experience, fucking another girl 4 times or so. So we both know we're sexually active, and if she knows that you've had quite a few girls, and that she is the special chosen one, she feels incredibly special as well. Also when she told me how many guys she's slept with, I did not judge her for it. I said "cool," and that's it.

I also know that she loves sex. Why? Because I know that women love sex. She had also told me she loves sex, but only after I encouraged openness, after I was completely open with her, allowing her to be open with me. The conversations we have are fueled by an immense trust in one another, we allow ourselves to say almost anything we want, not supplicating to each other.

Giving a girl the best sexual experience of her life is truly priceless. It has to be fueled by your innate love for women, for sex, for the experience. Don't give it to her because you want her to stick around. Do it because you love it yourself. I do it because, fuck, I fucking love it so much it could be the only thing I ever do. Every part of sex turns me on like crazy, and she can feel it. She told me she had never seen anyone with such passion.

There is a book called the Sex God Method, which I have partly read, and I feel the principles in there are natural for me at this point. DEVI, Dominance, Emotion, Variety, Immersion. Dominance means being dominant in the bedroom, Emotion means adding feeling to the experience so it isn't just a cold fuck, but a fuck filled with love, enjoyment, passion, fantasy, Variety means switching it up, spicing it up, I have fucked her in so many positions already, Immersion means to be fully in the experience, something that happens naturally over time as you begin to trust each other more and more.

This base then allows you to sext a girl and she will completely be blown away by it, happy that you're sending a dirty text to her. I can call my gf a dirty bitch, whore, whatever, because it is playful and the sexual base, the frame, is set. I told her she's my dirty bitch yesterday, and her reply was "I'm all yours".

So this is a little lead in on how to sext I guess, but really more on how to have an incredibly open and comfortable sexual relationship with a girl. Set it up in the bedroom the very first time you fuck her, and keep an openness around sexuality, allow yourself to be fully in the experience, live your fantasies unapologetically, and then so will she.

Tr@veler, this is a really good post, my dude. I couldn't agree more with your opinions on sexing a girl. That DEVI concept is also spot-on, particularly the Immersion portion. Glad to see you possess the knowledge of how to keep a girl around after fucking her as well.

Thanks bro!

Monster post about my game coming up soon!

Had insane sex talk over SPAM with the gf yesterday. I think we spent over an hour talking to each other face to face and then around 2 hours writing erotic sex stories to each other. It was so hot I got her masturbating. I might do a post on how to write erotically to turn a woman on soon.

Went out to O'neill's last night with J. My roommates were with me as well haha.

We arrive and I find J already in set with a cutie. My roommates and I head upstairs. I do approach a 2 set and say hi, I wanted to meet you. She sticks out her hand and we shake'em. Her friend laughs and I ask her why she finds this funny. I can't remember her reply. We talk a little bit, then she asks whether I am Brazilian. I say no, but I can speak Spanish, so I can understand a little Portuguese. I stumble a little and say that I'm not drunk, just imblanaced, and that I'm unstifling for the night. I ask her whether she knows what unstifling is, she says yes, which I highly doubt she does, and I say that I'm basically just unstifling right now with her, here. She laughs, and I say goodbye.

We get drinks at the bar and I lead the way upstairs.

We watch the band for a bit, J comes up and I introduce my friends. J approaches some more and I stick with my friends for a little longer. I open a girl next to me, waving at her. She waves back and turns away. J approaches her friend, so I open her fully with "Hi, we have a small conversation, I ask her name. She says something like Lana, so I say like Lana del Rey? She says no, Lala, and I say oh, like lalalalalalalalalalalalala, annoying the shit out of her haha. Anyway the set dies.

I tell my friends I'll be right back. I find J and see he's in set. I told him I'd wing him so I go up, say hi, and take the girl he's talking to, a tall American blonde, taller than me, so around 1.86 meters or so. J takes on another girl in the set. Game on.

I start rambling to her about stupid shit, get to know her a little bit. I say she's American, and she says yes. I ask her if she's from Michigan, she laughs and says no, then asks why I thought that. I just shrug and say wild guess. She asks me where I'm from, and I tell her to guess. She guesses Michigan, and I say no, but points for creativity. I say I'm from Austria. She then says that means I can sing. I say yeah, go to her ear and sing "Hot in Herre" by Nelly. She laughs, and say I'm funny. I say I know, I should be a standup comedian. Playful talk. I do 90% of the talking for a good 4-5 minutes or so, plowing through, and suddenly her eyes light up and she's investing back. Our talking ratio is now 50:50. Good shit. I constantly touch her, pushing and pulling her physically to establish physical touch and dominance. It takes me a good 15-20 minutes to get her to fully invest in me. I'm talking to her about stupid shit like baseball, the pronunciation of McDonald's, and getting married. At one point I move my body so she's facing away from her friends, and lean back against the bar. She's now gaming me.

She playfully says OK I'm going back to my friends, and I say OK bye, then she turns back and says, "I was only kidding". Oh beautiful. We talk more, then I hug her and tell her she's awesome, I can have good banter with her, unlike with most girls. Her eyes light up, and places her arm around my waist. Boom.

She says we are soulmates, playfully, and I play on saying yes, and we should just be friends. I ask her how it feels like to be friendzoned, she plays along and says great, no pressure. I tell her it's great, too, and I move in front of her and look into her eyes and tell her that I can look into her eyes without the sexual tension between us. She looks back and there is a lot of sexual tension between us. I play on with the traveling the world and getting married roleplay, telling her we should go places.

I then tell her to come outside with me for fresh air. She complies, and tells her friends. She comes with and I lead her upstairs, but there is a queue, so I say let's go back down. We do and I just lead all the way down and out of the bar, she follows, questioning where we're going. I say just out here for 2 minutes, we can get fresh air there as well. She comes with.

Outside I put on my jacket, and the vibe has changed, for the more serious. She's got her arms crossed. I ask her how long she's staying, she says until June 8th, and I ask her if she's been to the zoo. The vibe turns more playful again, and then I tell her we should go to the zoo together. She says yes, smiling, and I ask her if she has an english number. She says no, I tell her to give it to me anyway. She does, but it doesn't work, so she says snapchat. I give her mine, and she texts me. Her friends text her, asking where she is, and she says she has to go back upstairs. I say yes, we go back upstairs and she can't find her friends. I tell her to meet mine. I introduce her to one of my friends, who looks taken aback, and she finds her friends and rejoins them.

I stick with mine. After a while she comes up to me and says they're leaving. I say OK, and she leaned in, but I gave her a kiss on the cheek and a hug, I have a girlfriend boys. I tell her I'll call her or text her, and she says OK, and leaves.

We continue watching the band.

On the dancefloor there's a little girl, with some guy harrassing her. I grab her and ask her playfully if he's harrassing her. She laughs and says she's Italian. I let her go.

Time passes, I watch her, and she looks at me. I reach out for a high five, she gives it to me, and I just pull her away from her friends. My housemates are like wtf, pimp. I begin to just grind with her then and there. She gives me a look begging for the kiss. I talk into her ear and say I would totally kiss her right now but I don't kiss girls in clubs. LOL. Flipping the script bitches. She continues to subtly lean in for the kiss but I turn my head away. We talk a little bit, dance some more, then I just grab her by the hand and take her outside, no words said. I take her outside, and sit down by a bench like area, her between my legs. I ask her where she's from in Italy. She says Sicily. I tell her I've never been, and start talking in an Italian accent haha. She constantly leans in to kiss me, but I tell her, again, I don't kiss girls in clubs. I feel her up by her legs, turn her around and have her ass on my groin, my hand moves down to her pussy, and she moves so I stop - token resistance guys!

Anyway, after a while she says she should go back to her friends, I say yeah I should go back to mine, and we reenter the dance-floor area and part ways.

After that my friends and I go upstairs to the smoking area. They're tired and wanna go home. I'm alive, ready to game some more, but am empathetic and we all leave the club at around 2am or so.

That's it for the night.

I texted the American girl on SPAM, she replied, and am working to setting up a Day 2, which I will probably cancel last minute.

NOTES: Good night! Could have done more approaches, should have done more approaches, should have practiced pulling with J, but my housemates were there. Note to self - going out with housemates is not the best idea when gaming, as they don't fully understand this pimp reality.

So last night we had a houseparty. I got pretty drunk and a girl I had a little something with showed up. We had a little something all throughout a film shoot, and we both got quite drunk.

Basically she confessed to me how much she liked me and I confessed to her how much I liked her, and she was really quite pissed when she found out I got a girlfriend. We had a long, sensual talk about us, and I told her I just want to cuddle with her tonight. I told her she can crash in my room, not expecting anything to happen. This was a wrong move, I guess, in one way.

We got into my bed and cuddled, hugged and talked. We got closer and closer and we ended up making out. Nothing more than that happened.

We stayed up for the next few hours until it was light outside again, then we fell asleep for a couple of hours.

When we woke up we just hugged, no more kisses, it was over. I laid there, thinking, feeling so fucking bad about this entire situation. I guess this needed closure. I told her she's gonna do well finding another guy, and I meant it. After that we got up and I walked her out, hugging her goodbye.

I don't know what to think or do right now. There is no rationalization here for my actions, no justified rationalization I guess. Last night I felt an overwhelming emotional need for affection, but I guess that's no excuse.

Maybe this really did just need closure in the end, and maybe it showed me what not to do ever again. I will do my best to learn from this mistake and move on, using it as a learning experience.