Only read if you don't mind long messy posts. I just want it to be aniylyzed by some one.

I'm failing in school right now. When my mentors parents uncle tell me they did it i just need to suck it up and only worry about school. I say ok i tell my self it will work. Then i get there and its like none of this stuffs helped me. I go back to my old bad ways. I have ADD but can't take the meds due to the side effects. My point is that if you have a sticking point look at why its there. I know what your thinking how do i find it. Well you think about all the social interactions you have had. All the things you watch on tv. All the things you have been told seen or have done. I looked at all the crap people have told me that never works. All the bullshit on tv that has made me think i'm not worth anything to any one. What made me think that no one wants to talk to me. That i have nothing that any one wants. Last night i looked at the way everything has effected me. I still watch tv. I still listen. But i have to do and get results to let it effect me. What i mean is. If some one told me to go up to a girl and over my shoulder ask who lies more men or women. I would think whats the risk in doing it. I'll get turned down or maybe have a conversation. Just because you believe doesn't mean it will work. I know there is a way for almost any male to attract a women that before knowing this he would not have been able to. Most peoples sticking points start off as the problem of believing and not trying. Now when they tell me to do things i know that they may not work. I know there can be flaws. I show them the flaws. I give them proof. I tell them why. And if they still give me shit i show them hands on. Its easy to say things. expl. just take an hour and do all the home work you can. I would take an hour and sit there waiting for the answers. My main problem is in math I have had a phobia of it since my 4th grade math teacher bullied me about math. Now that I have found the problem that caused my bad feelings for math I have a reason. Now I could pitty my self. I could dwel on the trouble it will and has caused me. Or i could demand from others to help me. I told some one at my school this and they said well you just have to do it. I told them that its there job to teach me. If i'm failing there not doing there job. I go to class every day and pay attetion. When i get to the math book i freeze and forget and can't think. My low self esteem in math has also hurt my other classes. One of my sticking points in sarging is worrying about the outcome. (Y)you+puaskills=(HB) of you wanted number. Y=HB x 9 get HB by itself how subtract 9 from her side. If you subtract from one side you must add to the other.

Just some thoughts i had

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