BITCHES MAKE ME SICK!

I'm fresh out of a terrible relationship that lasted 5 years. I'll be the first to admit, the reason it was terrible, and why it came to an end was 100% my fault. At first things were going strong. I had my happiness in mind, and she fell into place accordingly. Eventually after some time, I lost sight of who I was, what made me happy, and started giving in to the bullshit my Ex would test me with. Eventually she stopped editing, and started pushing away.

I became an AFC, worst part is, i didnt start out that way. At first, she knew i could leave and find someone else if i had too. I was in control of my kingdom. By the time she left me, she knew that wasnt the case anymore. Hence the reason she bailed... IM STUCK NOW! But worse then ever. i literally have a hatred of women. I know the game they play, and normally it would be an advantage to understand those goofy creatures, but its what i understand about them that makes me literally sick to my stomach. Im so willing to take the L with almost any women i meet now, just for the chance to be an asshole to them. Hell i could tell that doing this could even work to my advantage, but i dont let it. I dont want it too. My goal is to be as honest as possible, use logic, and make the bitch feel stupid by the end of our conversation... Ive lost the ability, and care for any kind of connection.

Im also aware that its not there fault. Women are goofy, and dishonest by nature. This isnt new news to me, but i really am lost now. I don't know how to get my MOJO back, nor even get excited at the sight of a beautiful women again. I cant continue like this, and its been about 4 months. IVE EVEN GOT PUSSY A FEW TIMES SINCE BREAKING UP! Hasnt helped... Should i stop talking to them all together? give my self some time? Please if anyones got advice, id appreciate it.