He makes a very simple but powerful point there: the body follows the mind and vice versa if you allow it.

I remember actually trying this before I began sarging properly, and I felt sooooo good and instate that I was just over the moon. Like seriously, why didn't I think of that? Thanks dude

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Was out again last night. Not feeling as willing to push myself again, although I did push myself to be more direct, which is definitely something. It's like I'm relearning how to do this stuff.

So I feel good at the start of nights, but don't actually push it to keep going despite knowing I can and having done it many times before.

One good set really nailed home the simplicity of just taking one action once again. Went up to a girl and opened her indirectly (i.e. how much does this drink cost?), easily transitioned it for there. She's quite receptive despite being with her sister. Got on pretty. I like how I can escalate, date girls and 'bedroom game' girls well but still have reluctance to approach girls, silly that!

Met her again later on, could have easily gone for the kiss but left it too long. If you can rationalise the worst thing that could happen (her walking away), it's really no big deal. Gotta just remember that I'm in no real danger at all, and that everyone's brain/ego is wayyyy out of sync with modern times.

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So last night was pretty awesome! Here's the rundown of it...

Before I went out, I thought I'd watch the new RSD video that Tyler put up. He explained to concept of 'buyin' - basically focusing on all the good things in pick-up and screening out any negativity. I feel that I needed to generate more buyin with pick-up; overtime my issues seem to have blurred the truth about pick-up being awesome! Liked that shit.

So I got to the Warehouse (again!). Had to run there because I have literally 2 pounds to last until Tuesday! Got in, met friends there and such. Me and WelshGod again mostly - I'm starting to get tired of being with a wingman who can't really get past the point of talking to girls. I feel like it's holding me back.

So I thought I'd get the ball rolling with a little set at the bar. Just simple shit really, it doesn't have to be like direct, she doesn't have to be fit. You just do it to get in tha zonez. Good stuff really I notice how I can turn conversations sexual in a short space of time.

So I'm just building up momentum and such. I like that I'm not focusing on my emotions and negative thoughts at the moment. I'm jumping into sets that I would usually pass up due to reluctance or whatever it is. It's all about your perspective and how you choose to be that influences what people think of you (although admittedly you have to portray it genuinely). Clearly tonight I chose to be awesome

We chillin' on the dancefloor. I'm bored and I spot a black-haired cutie just playing with her phone next to the dancefloor. I open dat shit up and she seems to eat it all up! I seem to be really good at getting physical, like it's just something I do. Then she wants to dance and we do that, building it up a bit. Then we sit down somewhere and whatnot. Leading people is pretty simple; you just make confident suggestions - i.e. let's go get a drink, let's chill over there for a bit, etc... Then we end up outside but there's some bullshit going on with her mates so I get a quick kiss and leave.

There's like so much more that goes on. I'm just being direct and awesome, girls love a man like that. People seem to open me more, I get the 'Bruno Mars' comment a lot more (apparently I look a lot like him, I sort of use it to my advantage lol). There were points in the night where I would be chatting to a girl and other groups of women would try to call me back over. Noice! There was a point where I met the ex of my drummer's friend, a cute blonde who into rock/metal. I'm just there like kneeling on the floor with my arms resting on her knees just talking to her like that. Was cool. Need more aggression and powa though.

There was a point in the night where my powa just took control of me. I was talking to WelshGod about something and a girl is literally just stood there behind me for some reason, probably waiting for a friend. I just pointed at her, did the Hand of God, physical stuff and whatnot. Tried to make out with her there and then. I love being unstifled like that.

I just seem to catch eyes much more when I'm instate. Like loads more. I ended up like opening two more girl with boyfriends (one of them was there infront of me), being totally oblivious that and just being physical like a dick. I think I used her scarf to pull her in or something.

Near the end of the night I'm just happy in my own skin. Like I don't want to do anything but be. When it gets near the end of the night, I would love that urge to strike like cobra. Driven by instinct and such like an animal. Anyone help me on developing this?

That's it folks!

Ninja

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a little more pua related details can be helpful. what openers, if any, where used? what is powa? what is Hand of God?

My openers are just really simple. Its' either situational (especially if I'm not feeling to confident) or 'Hey, I thought I'd come over and be social. How's your night going?' Something like that.

Powa is 'power'; it's just me being silly lol. I like to entertain my readers

The Hand of God is like a physical 'manuever' that came fro RSD, you just extend your hand to a woman and pull her in. All that rapid escalation bizznizz.

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So last night was a cool adventure. I've gotten the hang of watching RSD videos before I go out - I'm often busy during the day so doing it before I go out is convenient for a little empowerment. It was the video about 'buyin' again, I handed watched it fully.

Got 2 da club. I'm there with WelshGod and another wing, J. WelshGod is starting to annoy me now; it's like he's just not cut out for game as he is right now. When I banter and whatnot, he reacts in a way that is almost like trying to put me down. He's like making all these excuses not to approach or anything. I don't think he's tried to even get past the whole 'social' stage of pickup at all. Need a better wingman. And that's where J comes in.

I meet J and we decide to chill with him. I've noticed that despite the two of them drinking, they still have confidence and ego issues. I noticed this when I was dancing: I am a good, extroverted sort of dancer and just go with how I feel, it seems to draw in girls like bees to a flower when I do it properly. So I was dancing like a whiteboy and this girl is facing me dancing. I'm surprised - this girl is REALLY hot. I mean she's like a 9/10, slim but shapely with the most awesome jugs - nice and firm, a rare occurance. And she had black clothes and dreads, she be a heavy metal fan!

I'm like, omg if I could fuck this girl I will die happy and fulfilled! So I just mimicked her dancing and grabbed her hand and span her around. I like doing crazy stuff too, like licking badges placed on her left boob. Her friends are right behind her just letting this happen. I just love how it feels when you have a busty girl up against you and her boobs are squished against you. Squeeeee!

Then shit happens and I don't end up closing there and then. Would have liked to though. It's clear this girl likes me though. I just bumped into her in the smoking area later with the 3 of us there; it literally went from the 3 of us there being chodes to all of us being in set with a different girl. Instead, the friend of the dreads girl (also pretty hot) starts zipping down my jacket and hugs me because she's cold. So it's gone from mere acquaintances to a little more intimate. I'm there like yeah! Could have kissed this girl too, but again I'm pretty hesitant. Can't understand why... but I can relearn the skill easily. It's especially annoying considering that both girls were really into me; from what J told me, the two were apparently checking me out from a distance later on and then started dancing next to the two of us. TAKE ACTION YOU TOOL!

The rest of the night wasn't so great, I was relatively instate but it dived down after that. So the moral of the story is really to persist constantly, even if you feel happy already and whatnot. Happiness is in no way a priority over progress on a night out!

Cheers,

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Another enlightening adventure last night. I learnt all about how all the bullshit is in your mind, but the truth is always shining through.

Went to Warehouse again (need to stop going there!). It was Crazy Dave's birthday, so I thought I'd done the pink button-up shirt and waistcoat because it's Valentine's Day in a few days; I'm smart for the birthday AND I'm hinting at the 14th of Feb. That's clever, now give me my cookie.

Ran into another friend and fellow wingman of mine in there, Droogle. He's actually from this forum lolololol. He's a little more experienced than me as well. I'm not really a fan of sitting around and letting my state drop, but Droogle seems to trust himself with not letting that happens, so they're being kind of boring. I'm there trying to get a roll going and get pumped, but they're all like being sloths and stuff.

Thought I'd let the cat out of the bag and do some sheet. Did this one set, was like a warm-up I guess. I like how the simple action of talking to a girl/flirting with a girl turns your state around and makes you feel better. You'd think I'd do it more then haha.

Times rolls own. I do like a few more sets and they sort of just go. One set was funny when I was talking to a girl all flirty and stuff and then her SPAM (male) comes out and like hugs her/picks her up as a way of cockblocking me. I don't get that, you'd think he would just tell me or do it in a less reactive way. I remember getting cockblocked by this guy once in Manchester, he calmly let me know that I was flirting with his gf and had an awesome conversation with me. Why can't other dudes be that dude? That sucks

Me and Dave are chillin'. We like to dance all crazy cos that's our thing, by which I mean good dancing but very extroverted. So there's one of those chode circles on the dance floor filled with girls and we're like "We're going into the middle of that circle and shaking our butts." So we do, it's pretty sick! Soon later this pretty girl starts grinding up against me. Like she splits away from her crowd of onlooking friends just to rub her arse on my dick. Noice. I find her again at the bar five minutes later, like a minute of random conversation and then the makeout. I like how I can pull makeouts out of nothing if I have lots of intent and just focus. Would like to have diddled her doo-dah with my ding-ding. Need to keep them around!

So I'm muffining around. At this point I'm feeling sort of unstifled now, but not feeling great. And that's the main thing, right? I got this drink downstairs and a pretty cute emo girl comes to the bar next to me. Blue haired cutie, a dead Pikachu on her shirt and overtly drunk, you're mine! I lock eyes with her and it's ownnnn. Again I'm just in there like boom! Rapid physical escalation made out of peanuts again! It's probably just because I'm quite experienced now, the kinaesthetic knowhow is there so you can just recall on your wealth of experiences and knowledge. Not to sound snobby. So yeah, I made out with her. Literally my next question was 'Who are you here with?' to which she answers, 'I'm here with Rob, my boyfriend'. LOL. Bitches can't resist me. Cus I'm a ninja stealing fanny in tha night mo'phucka. My rule is that if their boyfriend is in the club with them, I don't game them. Bailed on little miss Pikachu for now.

Met this other girl at the bar upstairs, a bit drunk but she'll do. I like how just closing the proximity and looking a girl straight in her face and eyes seems to have so much more influence than anything. Could've done it there, gonna have to really focus on that hesitation! It's bullshit mostly. I have a thing where I don't just lunge for the kiss at the first opportunity though, having made out with a lot of women I'd say that I value having a woman around and being close to her and flirty is better than 100% tonsil boxing. So we move onto the dancefloor, unfortunately her friends are there so when I make a move infront of her she withdraws. Added to how much bullshit gave me at the bar. She ain't worth the chase.

Thought I'd do one more set before I left. Approached a girl who was sort of just standing there, she was a little big but I thought I would get it out of the way just because she was standing there looking like an opportunity. So yeah, words are exchanged, then saliva. She's good with her mouth. She tells she also has a boyfriend who is also in the club. She's surprisingly not remorseful at all! And also she's still decent and she has work tomorrow. Wow her boyfriend's a chode So I'm literally taking advantage of my charm over her, until her friend sees her. This brought about a realisation - how many girls have I made out with/number closed or dated who haven't told me about their boyfriends/partners? K.

It's like the end of the night and I'm talking to Droogle about how I seem to pull results out of my ass. He replies with the honest 'You have it already'. I think he's absolutely right; I can do more or less everything already without nervousness, I have great confidence (can game sober, become a great presence in social situations and keep up with my wingmen amongst other things). The resistance is happening because I'm deciding to be stuck in my head.

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Ninja just refer to me as Monty if you like.


Cool reading though.

J.

Will keep this in mind dude!


So I haven't been posting on here for a while. At all. I gave my laptop to my mother visiting me about 10 or so days ago. Can't be dealing with the distractions yo.

You're not missing much, mainly just me choding around, having only made out with one girl (that I already had a thing with, but that ship has sailed already). No effort yo.

I re-downloaded Tinder for my phone. That shit is addictive! I got matched with a robot and a woman who was 95 miles away. Schweet (Y) I have been forced to limit my searches to girls within a 10 mile radius. Open ages, as long as they're worthy of my seed.

Any Tinder doctors on here who can help me with my profile? My description is basically stupid and funny:

"I am THE K****. 21, Preston. My left nipple is constantly erect. Once I stood on a Lego brick and it cried out in pain. I wear a chastity belt for everyone's safety. "This man is legendary, 10/10" - Daily Telegraph. "So fly yo" - Dizzee Rascal. I also shoot thunder out of my arse.

It won't let me seperate lines for some reason.

I will not providing pictures, at least not on here.

Ninja

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Got another little story. This one isn't really orientated round my pulling shenanigans, it's something quite different.

I have been reading a very famous book called 'Practicing the Power of Now'. Yep, that one by Eckhart Tolle which explains all about only being able to find true happiness in the present. I have been applying some of his exercises to my meditation, it has given me a lot of empowerment in this particular area.

I decided to use it on the Saturday night out. So I rolled into Warehouse, not really opening again. Did meet one of my wings and got off with a girl who was on MDMA though. Right before she threw up, luckily.

Anyway, so I was feeling the usual feeling of reluctance - it feels like comfort intermingled with anxiety, i.e. you are unwilling to risk the strange comfort you feel, and in doing so you limit yourself. I decided to start meditating in the little intervals when I was waiting for WelshGod to come out of the loo or just generally not doing anything at that moment in time.

I started to become more alert, like wayyyyyyyy more alert. Like I was the brightest spark in the room at that moment in time. I noticed that I was not thinking much or linking pain with my lack of approaching, etc... That was cool! Although it didn't help my approaching. I felt like I was very content to just be like that... I would rather have both.

So yeah, it's cool and everything but I would still rather get into the swing of taking action and just keep nailing it.

Ninja

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Got a new report here. It's a funny one kiddies! It's also from Friday because I've been busy/cba with putting it up.

So I went to Warehouse again. Beforehand I was looking into enthusiasm and action-taking in the library, which empowered me slightly. I was wearing this red and black checkered long sleeve shirt which made me look like a lumberjack. Awesome shirt

Got in da clubz and met WelshGod. Decided to use the spare change I had left from that week to buy 2 Carlsbergs - a shock on behalf of the staff who are used to me asking for water. I hadn't had a proper drink since Halloween up until then.

So I'm chilling at the bar, and all of a sudden E, a girl I slept with before, starts hovering around me. I'd give about an 8/9, if only her face weren't so long! No seriously. This is the same girl from the report posted on January 12th 2014; I had opened a pair of girls to find that I had shagged their mate, who was E. Seriosuly NEED to stop going Warehouse. Cannot wait to move to Manchester!

So anyway, E is there like non-chalantly pretending to mind her own business, only very badly. Decided to open her again. She's being a little weird with me, like she isn't saying much when I'm trying to have a conversation with her at all. It comes across as awkward, so I left her for later.

I've noticed that wehn I take action (or some action happens to come my way), I feel better and more calibrated/instate later on. Need to take note of this!

I feel confident now. There's some awesome metal/heavy music on the middle floor so I thought I'd go dance with WelshGod. Started headbanging and whatnot, I don't care what people think I just wanna have fun! That gets my state wayyyyyyyyyy up. Then I started doing this funny dance I like to call 'nubbing'. I took my long sleeved shirt off and tucked my hands into my sleeves so I look like an amputee or something, then go crazy. I think there's a video of me doing this of Welsh's phone, so I will ask him for it. That was amazing!

We decided to go outside and get shit done. I thought I would use of my lumberjack shirt as an opinion opener for me and Welsh. Basically he went in saying 'Hey, doesn't my friend look like a lumberjack in this shirt?' to this four-set. So they're like stating whatever, and one of them is like 'OMG you're Bruno!'. She's turns out to be a girl I made out with. We talk about it, she was interested in a guy (let's call him M) when I met her that night - they were going to get with each other but then I happened; he got a little miffed and decided to chase another girl (not sure if he did this on purpose, but it sounds like he did). They're now together! No wonder she flaked on me! Worse still, she says I apparently almost got with her mate. FML. STOP GOING WAREHOUSE!!!!!!!!!!

So yeah, I was a bit hesitant, need to just go in for the kill. I've never been rejected harshly because of it, only when I'm uncalibrated so I need to remember this. Ah well. We open another set in the same way, but that is just a social vibe. Gayyyyyyyy. They noticed me nubbing, I am soooo nubbing to metal every Friday! If I got a quid the times I feel empowered outside of a club and able to just go for it and express myself truly, I would be richer. But sadly not the other way round... (more on this later!)

I've only had 2 drinks so I'm still alright, just feeling good. At some point I meet K and get off with her. It's just two mates having fun really.

I'ma bout to walk in the club, then some random girl starts staring at me, and says 'I got off with you once'. Seriously... I get the whole concept of preselection, but this is just stupid now...

What happens next is even sillier as I met up with A in the space of a few seconds. We had a little thing before that didn't really blossom into anything; she isn't that socially calibrated and I'm not going to invest in that (unless it's purely oppurtunity like). She knows what kind of man I am. I'm like Hand-of-God'ing her away from her friends and stuff later on in the night, they're not really doing anything about it.. When they show interest I absolutely wreak havoc, I find. A possessive being takes control and slaps it's penis in everyone's face pretty much. So yeah, quick kiss off her but I can't convince her to stay with me. BRUNING SETS TO THE GROUND AND THE BITTER END. THAT is what will get me laid (and does when I happen to get some ass)! The qualities are all there, I NEED TO USE THEM TO THEIR FULL POTENTIAL!

Dayummmmm. So it's later on and I'm literally just nubbing (lol!) to metal pretty much. I notice that E is hovering around me again, like she keeps alternating between hanging with her two male friends (who look like they're friendzoned to me). I'm there like ok. Later on, at about 2, sees hoverign again, this time on her own. YOU ARE GETTING THE D GURL! I'm there like 'Hey'. A few words are exchanged, she isn't really into talking right now like earlier. I find out why - she is staring straight at my lips. Dat kiss. She's a really good kisser. Like before when I first met her, she is very handsy, although not as bad as last time as she was ond rugs trying to take my shirt off and feeling my solid, masculine abs.

So yeah, that happens. Then I decide to wordlessly try and ttake her home. This works to an extent, then I'm like 'Let's get out of here'. We're walking towards the door, then in that fatal moment HER FRIENDS SWEEP HER OFF AGAIN. FUCK YOU. I've thought of a simple way to counter this and make the extraction more solid: hold her hand. It implies possession and makes you more authorative and leader-like, plus a guy/girl is a lot less likely to intervene.
So I go outside to where she is with her friends. I talk to a girl I know; she's actually Z's SPAM. I talk about how she is now in a relationship with her hosuemate and friend, which I personally think is silly - go out and find peeps yo! I tell her of my situation with E - meanwhile E shoots back inside, but not before shooting me a look. The girl I'm tlaking to is like lolwtf!? This could either mean she still wnats me to chase her or she is angry because she thinks I've ditched her. Or something else, I dunno. Women are crazy sometimes.

Decided to try RSDAlex's 'honoring the front door', where you wait at the front door and open all your old sets and burn shit to the ground. Tried it, didn't fully commit. Was honestly a little bitch, E literally jsut walked away and I didn't do anything. Wow I suck A has found a new guy, which is gay becuase she said she was going to Blitz later on, a club just down the road from me.

Ah well. So I walk down the road, feeling happy yet also that I could have done more.

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So yeah, I've been reading The Way Of The Superior Man. It's partly about connecting with your purpose in life and dealing with fear - whether it be fear of success, fear of risk or fear of failure. Just what I need!

Life is looking good! Now to apply the principles of this book and fuel my true passions in life and just go for it!

Ninja

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Solid thread. I enjoy reading your posts. It's good to finally see a dude on this site who can consistently pull at least makeouts every night he goes out. I've been fishing around and seeing not much more on this site than a bunch of AFCs talking about the ways they open girls and then bitch out on even fucking number-closing. Do you pull K-closes pretty much every time you go out? I pull at least that shit pretty much each night. Have a look at my thread: game-seven-nights-a-week-vt174285.html. Also, P.S., do you really have autism? Or did you just say that? Just curious.

Thanks dude. I don't pull makeouts every night I go out, but I'm at the point where it comes naturally and kinaesthetically and it doesn't mean much to me. Used to back in the early days though I would rather do like numbers and shit, although usually I like to take numbers from girls who I have built up connection with. I would have at least kissed them.

Yes I do have a degree of autism, however the extent to which I have it is quite mild indeed. To use an example, there is a famous autism self-advocate and author who happens to live in the same town as me and even go to the same clubs as me; his degree of autism is implied to be much more impactful on his life, but I've seen him involved with a pretty girl before (it could be the degree of fame, but w/e). Anyone can do dees sheet.

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So anyway, new report. Aside from the lame nights that sucked, basically you get the idea; felt bad, didn't have a good night. Simps yo'.

Then there was last Tuesday. Met my lads Droogle and Foster at, you guessed it, Warehouse. HURRAY.

Felt bad first of all. Foster is quite into taking action; he kept opening any girl to walk by him, not caring when he was shot down. A true hero. Thought I'd use his sets to get started. Spoke to a girl in the set without much conviction at all, she barely paid attention to me consequently. Still can't figure out whether this is fear of risk, fear of failure or fear of success.

Later decided to put this learning into direct practice. You know when you become aware of those really good opportunities just sitting there in front of you? Well, that happened. Pretty girl literally sat next to me. I use the classic opener of mine: "Hey, I thought I'd come over and be social. How's your night going?" She's very friendly very quick. Quite physical. Unfortunately she was taller than me, so I told her that I wasn't into taller girls. She love dat shit! Her friends are leaving though so she just kisses me on the cheek and leaves.

So yeah, later on I am in the smoking area, deciding to open a girl in a mixed group. She likey. They all likey when you're confident and don't fucking care. She calls her friends over part way through her conversation, who happens to be this cute metal girl with pinkish hair. Yay! We get chatting and stuff. We're sat on a bench crammed into each other, so I make note to rest my arm on her leg as a way of getting her comfortable with being physical. She's very friendly with me, and responds well to physicality. At once we are talking about how we would get married and stuff, so I thought that would be a good idea to get a little lip action going on. She keeps saying how she is sorry that she is smoking in front of me, seems to want me to think well of her. I'm not familiar with the taste of smoking and a bit curious, so I ask her if I could have a taste implying that I would like to kiss her. We makeout a few times. Good kisser, wow, such lips. She just leaves her friends there like a dick, cos I'm such a godly masculine sex machine.

We're on the dancefloor, and she's fronting on me. Tits in my face, tits in my face everyday pls. Then I'm like 'I have to go I have a placement to go to in the morning, hand me your number and I'll give you a text.' We do that. Takes ages though cos there's no signal in Warehouse and we have to go outside just to trade damn phone numbers. Lol. Then I be off.

I'm texting that girl right now trying to get her to come down to Preston (she lives in Leeds for uni!). That's gayyyyyyyyy. I'm also playing with 4 matches from Tinder, was meant to meet one of them today but she keeps setting it back. She wants the D, but she is fearful of the D. There's another who will hopefully be going to my gig on Friday. Battle of the bands + music video recordings + pre-organised moshpits + crazy stage presence + angelic voice = one girl who wants to fuck your brains out! And another... who is actually like a 9 or something IMO, but strangely into me. Like, you don't see 9's like that barely ever (apart from E, but still...)

BITCHUZ WUNNU FUK MI.

Ninja

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Not posted in a while... until now! Either I can't be bothered or I'm busy. Go and cry about it you fags.

This report is from last Friday in Manchester. Was quite an eventful report, although not much happened it is quite insightful.

So I went to a friend's house in Manchester after my placement had finished. These are my closest friends from my high school, so was pretty excited to see them. I was then told that another 'friend' was turning up - let's call him ML. ML is probably one of the biggest narcissists you can ever think of. To put it in a nutshell, he tells a lot of porkies for people's validation and belittles people as a way of leeching of their validation. Think of a vampire nourishing itself on someone's blood - that's what this is. He did this to me all throughout high-school after winning my trust as a friend when I was quite beta. He's actually quite messed up, evidently. Basically like a bully.

So I met the guys... they're all good. ML on the other hand turns up in joggers like he's not bothered. Still doing drugs, still telling tales. Apparently all of his SPAM and him do cannabis. He reeks of social problems, as ever. But... he's not trying to belittle me? I actually feel that through pick-up, my value has increased very significantly, to the point that I am definitely no-one to be victimised. It's like the roles have reversed in a way.

This is quite empowering. I'm feeling good and stuff.

So I met a friend and wingman later called Shan. He's a cool guy. We get started by going to Satan's, a metal club there. We get a few sets going by just going round pointing out sets and approaching them. I got a good one going with a cutie, went for the makeout but was quite lacking in drive. In essence, I wasn't aggressive enough and left it too long. The part of me that doesn't want to 'risk' itself in pickup is winning over me in these critical moments, and in pickup in general. It's like when I'm not in set I want to be in set, but when I am in set I want to not be in set/not try to get it further.

So we skidaddle from there after a bit. We then go to Factory where we meet two of our fellow wings, one of whom I am very friendly with. We get a few going there. I like that I am still able to say some absolute bullshit and make it go somewhere. Go a few girls interested in me, however I didn't really push it from there. Part of me after a while just sort of wanted to go. Need to stop procrastinating where this is concerned.

There were a few sets where I wanted to approach the girl and they could see it, but was to hesitant. It REALLY comes off bad when you do this; they look at you like you're a spineless sack of shit. The research I am doing into fear says that I have to admit to fear in order to be able to confront it. So I guess that makes me a spineless sack of shit.

We all had a uneventful night really. Apart from Shan literally playing chicken with a girl who was trying to block him off from her friend. LOL.

Another repeated lesson to consider... wow.

Ninja

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