So I went out and learned something today, by failing. But I would like to start with a short intro about myself.

The reason I started looking into the community wasn't because I couldn't meet girls. By no means do I consider myself good looking, but for whatever reason I get approached by girls. Girls that I think are really hot, and I wouldn't have any idea what to do. Freeze up or whatever. My only real relationship in high school ended when I was forced to finish the rest of my junior and senior years in a boarding school in another state where you had to earn the privilege to look at the opposite sex. (Took me 10 months to earn that, btw) After that I was involved in a typical "one-itis" AFC 2 year relationship which resulted in my losing my virginity at barely 18, but it ended nuclearly. But she was a solid 8. So my social calibration has been a bit off.

But thats off point.

I can't explain why these chicks would approach me. Owen of RSD said hot chicks will sometimes tool guys that ignore them, just to see if they can get them going(flirty,turned on) and then they will feel validated and just move on. IF that is the case, then is every situation when you are opened by a girl bad? Because now that I think about it talking to anyone when you are the one opened is supplication, isn't it?

Anyways, for some reason new people I meet would meet, guys and girls, think I'm some player, which I let them think because I learned that telling them I wasn't wasn't fuckin cool. I had learned that much on my own. But it stroked my confidence because I could atleast tell myself, "Atleast people think I get some play."Which I wasn't, but hell, it beats a chick telling you, "I bet you don't get any pussy at all."

So meeting new people, not bad. I consider myself an approach robot. But a girl I used to know growing up has reappeared, and she's cute. I think the mistake I really made was me framing it as I wan't to date her. Cause I do. The frame should have been let's have fun. I'm realizing this as I type.

Anyway, shits going pretty well. Were in a group of mutual friends and everythings good. She's bitchy to me the last time I saw her about 6 months ago, before I started reading up on shit and watching materials.

So I blast through the bitch shield with some negs, pass her shit tests, and she was very resistant to my compliance test, but she eventually did bend. She said she hated the sun because it makes her tan.

"So you mean to tell me, we get a plane, we're walking down the strip in Miami and you've got on a long sleeve top and and a long skirt?"
"Yeah, or like, pants"
"Unacceptable. Don't think I could do that."
"Well I could come out at night."

Anyways, Long story short. We're flirting and play fighting when she says,
"You used to be such a nerd, that's probably why you didn't lose your virginity 'til you were 19."
All I could think of was, Always have the better answer. Which one of Owen's buddy's says is, "Girl, you crazy." which honestly isn't bad, framed correctly. But I feel that I flinched. I reacted when she said that. I wanted to say,

"When did you lose yours? When you were 9?" But instead I said, "damn this girl is cold blooded. shit atleast give me some credit." Jokingly of course.


Things were going pretty good to that point, I mean shit tests, kino, semi-isolation, framed the extraction even. But fuck I wasn't ready for that because i've never been called out on it. Even the chick that took my virginity didn't know it. But she knows me. I've heard such a pointed jab so late in the game is a good sign, but I can tell I blew it. So...

TL;DR

Virginity joke comebacks, or should I have stuck with the classic, "Girl, you crazy."

Also, another girl in the set, not target, but also cute, was in a bad relationship. Guy hits her, but shes stays. She's pregnant by him, but staying. He's a total bum. Almost 30 stays in housing w his mom cause her rent is $5. Total sleaze ball. My friends tried to put us together in the past, but I was an awkward mess, and tried to date a girl that wanted to be fucked in the car. I always talk myself out of pussy. Anyways, she's with him. Instead of doing the thing I always do, which is, why do you stand for that you deserve better blah blah, which I somehow feel like that is a really chodey, AFC way to look at it. Cause to be honest, the majority of people I know in long term (4 yrs +) relationships either physically hit each other or chronically cheat. I don't condone it, these are just the people I know. So I tell her, if it was so bad, you wouldn't stay."
"But it's horrible."
"But if it wasn't horrible, you wouldn't stay."
"What?"

And I pissed her off, which is cool, she's kind of a bitch. She didn't talk to me the rest of the night.

But, if she was the target, what do you say? If you say "I would never do that," I feel like that's a fast track to the friend zone. But we were vibing, until that moment.


Anyways, the whole group dynamic is kind of fucked and I know the real solution is more girls. But I decided to swing at something I wanted today.

Can't win if you don't play.

-Alex

PS

It's My Homie
My Homie's GF
My Homie's GF's Sister
And My Homie's Sister

Everyone, including a pair of well meaning grandparents want me and My Homie's GF's Sister together. We're not into each other (and shes preggerz, ew!). My Homie's GF is into me, thats why she's trying to force me and her sister together all the time. I've always liked My Homie's Sister, but have been too pussy to do anything about it until today. She seemed interested the first time we ran back into each, but that was 2 years ago, and I was a total fucking chump. My Homie seems indifferent to me liking his sister, but that's because we both know if it goes bad, it's gonna be nuclear.

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