Hi everyone, i've been lurking through the forum for a few weeks and have finally decided to introduce myself. i am your average mid-western white kid, and i'm finishing up my final semester of high school before heading off to college in the fall.

for a long time people have considered me a nerd because i'm smart. people come to me when they need help with homework or want to check answers from the last test. i never asked for this image, and i've tried to overcome it without success since freshman year. i am class salutatorian, and school has never been even remotely challenging to me. to occupy time i have invested way too much time playing video games and hanging out with people who don't really care about life beyond the monitor. i have just recently begun feeling like a loser when i come home after school, even though i'm the second most successful student at my high school. it just doesn't add up. i know this image wont just disappear when i head off to college. if anything, it will only intensify. i am not going to college to be salutatorian again. i intend to work hard but i want to have fun while i'm at it. i'm here to seek advice from those of you who have done things like this before.
in such a small town, there are not really very conventional stereotypes. all of the average high school cliques are sort of blended together. everybody fits in to some degree in every clique, so the popular kids are just the nerds and the hipsters with rich parents or good smiles. i know it's hard to believe, but there's no bullying and everybody gets along with everybody. i'm saying this because i want to convey that i am not performing a complete social 180 by getting into the PUA community. i do not believe that i am a hopeless cause.
with regards to women, i have had experience, but not much luck. i am from a small suburban town where we have all known each other for over 10 years. the community here is very gossipy and tightly-knit, and the school is saturated with power-couples who have been dating since the 6th grade. this has really limited the field for people like me, so since the start of high school, i have dated 2 girls, and gone out with a total of 5. the first girl i dated was what people would consider a prude, and i hit LMR almost automatically every time i tried to escalate after the 2-week mark. we broke up after about 6 weeks because i asked her why she was avoiding me and she dumped me without explaining why. the other girl has been my one-itis for the past two years. she's the class valedictorian, and she's the most beautiful girl i know. we've been off and on for a long time, and now she's dating some older guy who i don't like. she's still one of my best friends, and i think she's finally just friend-zoned me for good.
seeking answers to my relationship problems, i turned to the internet where i stumbled across the 'girlfriend activation system' video. it peaked my interest so i read into it a bit and it's led me to buy a lot of books and read a lot of forum posts in the past month regarding PUA technique and theory.

tl;dr : people think i'm a nerd but i don't think i am. i don't want people in college thinking the same way about me. i've had a one-itis for a long time and i've recently read The Game and some self-help books.

i'm here because it's crunch time. i have 6 months to wrap things up with the people i've spent the last 12 years with and move away, likely never to see the majority of them again. my goal is simple. i want to be able to walk onto campus without feeling like an AFC trapped in a PUA's paradise. i have plenty to talk about in the coming posts because i've been working a lot on self improvement and i've been keeping a journal for the past month. before i start into any of that, i would love to hear some advice on what you guys think should be my next step in working my way to completing my goal.
thanks for reading and i appreciate any feedback, questions, or advice you might have.
-CBear