| In the last few month I've got really closer to that girl, not just friendzoned I guess, but I see her a lot, working together, and I totally fall in love with her.
I always knew she knows about what I feel, I've done nothing with her but esclating kino with her, and trying not to get friendzoned. I know that she has a problem with dating with religious guys like me, so that, including that we are really too different, blocked me from trying to make a move.
yestorday we were together, as always we began touching each other really fast, she sat on my leg, began to kiss each the other cheek and neck, nothing we haven't done before, but I decided to escalting it... put my hand on her belly under her shirt, some touching in the cheeks and hair...
In this point, I've noticed she trying to avoid from letting me the opportunity to kiss her, when our face were close while talking she avoided eye contact, just looking to the side, and covering her mouth when our lips were close like when I've kissed her cheek a bit closer to the lips.
I've decided not to kiss her, but I dont even know how, I just noticed that I was trying to kiss her after she was telling me not to, because it isn't gonna happen. Just then I realized I was trying to kiss her lips after going up from the neck to her cheeks.
I was totally shocked, but just said "Ok, sorry", and continued as nothing happened.
After few minutes we broke the touch(I dont even remember why), and after more few minutes I said that I had to go home(it was really late at night, on the neightboorhood we are living on), I was there about 15 min after the rejection.
She def tried to show me that everything is fine, after the rejection began kissing my neck, today we worked together and everything was normal.
With any other girl I could be sure that I just has to try again later, or even telling that I love her and not gonna give up after trying to kiss her. But this girl is really flirtting with anyone, she has no problem with touching, she is that kind of girl that hug any friend lovely while "asking him to marry her", I've saw many men that got the illusion they can get her easily, and failed(and she was flirtting with them even after she was telling them they have no chance). With any closer friend she is used to sit hugging and things like that, maybe not the way we were, but I can't even know if she has friends that does have such a touch with her on almost daily frequency. So I can't know if all these touches and bond we have are signs that I do have a chance, or I just have to give up(and it will really HURT me).
REALLY need your help...
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