| I've been thinking about this for a couple of days now. WHAT DO I LIKE ABOUT WOMEN? First thing that comes to mind is: "Well I like their sexy body and I would like to fuck the living shit out of them." Cool. So I am just like other 99.9% of straight men. What else do I like? Errrrrmmmm, ummm, yeah...hmmmm...personality I guess??!! What the fuck does that even mean? Well, personality are different traits and behaviors that define human beings in their interactions with themselves and people and situations around them. Yeah, but when I think of it, especially in terms of women I see it as pretty vague shape of what that woman would be like. Even to make things more freaky, its not a verbally defined portrait but rather evocation of certain emotions which woman would create in me to make me feel attracted to her.
Simply put, if you asked me to describe personality of my ideal woman it would take me a week of thinking to define her, and I might probably still be wrong in some aspects.
WHY IS THAT SO? Well, for starters, very few long relationships and sexual encounters I had in most cases were not sexually gratifying and naturally, with over 8 years of time wasted on quite mediocre female individuals I have found myself sexually frustrated and hungry. Regardless, or thanks to that I am very good at being insanely verbally perverse (to the point of disgust because of some very vivid imagery and situations I can produce). Its funny to my friends when we talk about it, but definitely not a topic I would start with unknown women firstly because I am a chode and second because I think it reeks of needyness and well, the way I would present it it would probably be creepy.
Second issue, most women I met, and I met probably way less then most of you guys (which is another reason I don't know what kind of women are out there and what do I want from them), were...well...boring and mediocre and sure I was either unwilling or uncapable to spark interest if they looked any good. And at the same time other men manage to have more fluent conversations with those same girls, just because they have more interest. Tbh I am also hanging out in lets say "low class" circles. Sure, there were some interesting ones and those were usually more communicative and just glow with positivity. Ofcourse, I would probably put those on pedastal and kick them way out of my league.
Long story short, I do love women very much, I've met some really awesome ones, I would like to get to know them better, but my every fucking interaction will be ruined by my stupid dick and when I interact with a girl my Dick is talking:"Oh I didn't have any pussy for so long I really need to stuff this girl. I don't want to talk to her Brain, I want to make out with her and fuck her right now. Skip talking. Talk boring. Pussy fun." And Mr. Brain is trying to talk to girl, but Dick keeps interrupting.
So I really dont know how to resolve this problem? Should I try to release my sexual frustrations by banging easiest girls out there and hopefully after sexual gratification my real interest in women as a whole will come on top, or should I try to reframe my thinking completely and try to approach everyone with interest, regardless of my expectations that both me and other person will get bored to death?
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