| As many on MPUA might know, I used to have a heavy obsession with blonde women at one point. Many legitimate users on here like Skills, Poetic, Pumpington (replying to your PM soon man!), all tried to help me but my mind was in that one state where it was super depressed.
I would think about why I never see any ethnic minorities (especially indians) date good looking blondes and everytime I would go out and see one with her boyfriend it would depress me slightly on the inside, I would think "I bet if I was White she would date in a heartbeat". It was miserable. I cannot believe I used to be that guy!!!!
Before my long month or two break from this forum I vowed to do one thing.
Never put any kind of woman on a pedestal regardless of hair color eye color or skin color. I told myself that I will talk to a White guy and approach him (no homo) before I approached a blonde and I will FORCE myself to be attracted to other kinds of women. It was somewhat hard but then it happened, I just stopped caring about Blonde women. Told myself how much of a fool I was for obsessing over them and this needs to stop.
THEN IT HAPPENED.
I slowly noticed that for some reason, blondes were more into me now. This shit is not even perception, I mean it fucking happened.
1. I was at the gym Bench Pressing (max was a 205 a month ago) and when I rest between my set and get up to get some water, two girls standing nearby look at me. One of them is a blonde, smiles at me, tells me I have some nice legs.... Not sure if compliment....
moving on
2. Was sitting and eating alone at a restaurant, two girls sitting at a table nearby. One of them (a blonde, short but cute) says to me "hay, you wanna come sit with us!?", I sit with them and have a conversation with them, fun time.
3. I am a bit insecure about my looks, was looking in a mirror at a building I was at and making sure everything was okay. One girl (tall blonde), tells me "you look good, quit worrying" laughing while she says it. Not sure if this was a compliment or what.
4. Was sitting down and studying with my study group, topic about looks came up. Friend asked how can a guy know if he is good looking or not? I say "if gay guys compliment you a lot, then you look good". Blonde in the room who knew me from a class says to me "Gay guys must compliment you a lot", looking at me smiling as she said it. I was speechless because I could not come up with a response.
5. I was at a starbucks yesterday. Some blonde girl with a hipster look but pretty face asks me if she can sit across from me, I nod my head and go on with my work. She opens the conversation with me, and there we are talking about a bunch of random shit for an hour. Surprisingly, she asks me for my number, rarely happens to me, it fucking happened.
Realized that there were two empty tables she could have sat at.
I said one day I will permanently stop posting on internet forums, many of you who have had bad run ins with me on here want that (and looking back at my past posts I can't blame you). Fortunately for you, that day may come sooner than later. Before I go I would love to share more experiences and help more people out, I don't want to say I have made it, but I am in a significantly better state than I was in months ago.....
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I just come on here these days to give advice and read interesting threads. Gone are the days when I came to seek advice and validation.
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