Well put simply kids are mean assholes, but why?

Ever got bullied in school? Well it happens to alot of people, the powerful pick on the weak and make you a servant to the cause.

Growing up is hard, its a constant struggle to finding where you fit in, with the 'cool' kids or with the 'uncool' or simply in the middle. Your status was drilled into you at a young age, and with constant repetition you believe it yourself. When i was in fifth grade i had a digestive problems and would sometimes shit my pants. One time it happened in class and i told my teacher, ever since then i was outcasted had little to no friends and always was beaten by the Alphas. It was always taught to me, that if was nice to people they would treat me with the same amount of respect. What a load of bullshit, they instead just walk all over you, time and time again. Without having a strong friend to tell others to leave you alone and 'fuck off' you get repeatly abused, time after time.

With consultation with my parents, i changed schools multiple times. I just never fit in, because of my omega personality i was shy and reserved. No self confidence at all and if i was at times, a group would cut me down. Even at highschool i got abused up until grade 10 where my subconsious said 'Hang on, i wont beable to survive if this carries on'. So i became friends with a 6ft build guy, rock solid muscles, naturally scary. I started waging school and smoking weed to win his approval, which from a follow effect caused a few gang fights etc, etc. The point is that i became an Alpha in my reality, he became my follower and we ruled.

The downside,

After all this however i still had a shy personality, still was scared of talking to people. Major inner issues because of the years of constant abuse. People telling me i suck, you cant do anything. You're useless. Overtime you believe this, this becomes your reality. Even my father said i was 'fucking useless' even at the age of 18. After all, he mightn't of meant it because of his stressful situation or what ever reason. Ive heard it so many times that i believed it was true.

Why guys have trouble adapting the Alpha mindset:

Well, most guys try to fix it from the outside in, but the problem is deep inside. They come off as being an un natural leader which is so easy for girls to spot. You cant blame them, after many years of negitive thinking they are just programmed this way, deep on the subconcious level. Fix it from the inside out, which may take months to years but it'll help you live a successful and help you with the right decisions in life. I hope this post helps you guys see why you maybe struggling adapting the new mindset.

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