| Lol I can't believe I read through all that.
First of all, good job.
What you experienced near the end is usually what girls experience ALL THE TIME, right before sex. For most girls the location has to be truly private for them to feel comfortable, and this is why getting too hot and sweaty in the club is a BAD idea.
Similarly, us guys are also allowed to worry about people walking in on us.
The issue was a logistical one. The sex location wasn't the best one. Be in a locking room next time. If she's comfortable fucking in an open location like a laundry room and you're not, say so. Suggest going upstairs, or to the bathroom, or for a walk.
My first experience like this was when I had HBFlyGirl back at my place after a house party. We made out at the house party and it was on. Then we came back to my place at the end of the night with two other friends, who were BF & GF. The GF who was HBFlyGirl's roommate encouraged me to fuck her, and it's always a great feeling when a female encourages you to fuck her friend. Means you've earned peer approval! I was standing at my bedroom door with her, escalating, but at that moment my roommates walked in with their whole posse. She got nervous and came back outside to the living room, and shortly after the three of them left. This shows you how sensitive privacy is for sex locations, and how LMR can be completely external for her, stemming not from her resistance to having sex with you, but from her fear of being labeled a slut for being caught having sex with you. What I should have done was gotten into my room sooner, and locked the door. Once in my room, there would have been no more LMR.
Get good at moving towards more private sex locations, and you'll preserve your comfort levels and hers, and be able to truly enjoy the experience.
Good luck.
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