'I hear so I forget
I see so I remember
I do so I understand'

My life as taken a huge change on the right side once I started following this little maxim. I am at a point in my life where the stuff I used to do as a kid do not satisfy me anymore and I want to become a man. I have always been a 'natural' as far as women interactions goes but I was basically applying the good techniques in a clunky way (I didn't know what I was doing) and the relationships that ensued were total train wrecks. I have big goals and a very clear direction I want to be heading and showing my evolution to that process here is something I think is important no matter what the end result will be. Nice to meet y'all!

My main goal with pick up is to grow as a person. I want to be able to shake off that enormous anxiety I have almost all the time when strangers are around. I have always lived with a 'good enough' mentality and that is not true anymore. I want to push myself over the maximum of what I will accomplish.

My main short-term goal is being able to interact socially and in a fun way with women and #close a lot of them so I have a network of really awesome girls (I am already really social and have the same but with males almost exclusively :/). So in the near-future 'meet-n-greet' will be how I introduce myself to the game. I definitely want to get physical and have sex with partners that I find my type and kino-escalate and all that, but I want to take baby steps and start with the basics.

So GOAL #1: #Close at least 10 women so they can attend my party on August 24th. Start a network of cool to hang-around good-looking girls.

Then as far as long-term goes you know the saying 'It never goes according to plan' but for now I want to: be able to pick-up any women, be one the best at doing it, teach this stuff to new RAFCs, advance in life with success and confidence. Being a better person as whole, feel good within me and live life to the fullest.

I am willing to put everything on the line. I will invest time, money, whatever. It is about WHO I AM and who I WANNA BE. Any sacrifice on my part will be made so that my life is better that is for sure. I am excessively into this and I want to learn. You will rarely meet someone as motivated as me when it comes to get better at something I have a passion for. Any hurdles, any failures, any rejections I am willing to accept and learn from to go farther into my evolution.

Success will only be achieved through how much I work on myself through this journey and how better I get out of it.

Now I've read a lot of posts and other people's journal. A lot of it is really motivating and inspiring. It would be really easy for me to just write down this journal personally but I put it out there because I want feedback! I know you are people that are willing to help and to learn through the experiences of others.

If you have something you want to add to a situation or an idea you had about a set I opened that would have been better than the line I took WRITE IT. I am interested in what you have to say and I want as many opinions as possible. I want to improve, I couldn't care less about results. You get them when you do the right thing, I am on an adventure to find how to do 'the right thing' almost all the time (nobody is perfect). And you find 'the right thing to do' by analyzing mistakes and not reproduce them and that's where YOUR experience and thought process comes into the equation.

I really hope this interactive journal is going to work. I cannot wait discussing with all of you. I am a little intimidated by the amount of skill running around on these boards. Let's work well together! ^^

CheckRaise

Basic Logistics:

I am 25 years old, small with dark black hair. I am not ugly nor am I handsome. I am the typical 'geek' guy that plays board games and stuff but they have fallen out of favor recently (I do not enjoy doing this stuff as much as I used to). I work as a clerk in a Game Store and working up to maybe own MY store in a near-future. My apartment is gigantic (8 1/2) near a metro station and I live with 3 room mates (one of them a partner RAFC). I am trying to become a Professional Poker Player (and mildly succeeding at it after 2 years of hard work and efforts) but it takes a lot of time.

This is how it starts!

Wednesday July 31st 2013

Natural, NumberCrunch and I are supposed to go sarging for the first time together on Friday, but that's not how life works. During the day, I met an old pal and we went drinking outdoor of a nice restaurant. We drank way more than we had anticipated and after hitting 2 more bars we had a night planned at a special bar around here named Randolphe. It is basically a 'gaming bar' they have all these walls full of boardgames and organize some social events here and there like there 'Werewolf Wednesdays'. If you do not already know and want to understand what this game is you can look it up there: http://www.brenbarn.net/werewolf/rules.html

So we arrive early and I am pretty wasted. First thing happens, the barmaid tells us that it's Randolphe's 1 year anniversary and you can have a beer or a shot for free. So we each take a shot and finally my other friends arrive and we start the game.

I get eliminated super quickly... but so does a HB8 that is totally my type. We interacted a little in the game, so an open was not needed and we start fluffing about what happened a little. My game was really off due to alcohol but she seemed to have fun and I was trying to act as sober as I could. Some more people joined us in Death and they decided they wanted to play another game to kill time and HB8 looked ecstatic so I said why not. During the game, we continued talking and she gave me tons of IOIs so I started to kino-escalate extremly slowly (started with high fives when she said something cool and then pushed her when we would tease each other. In my head I was like: 'I am totally #closing at the least at the end of this night'. Alas, there was other plans :l.

I isolate her after the game (we won together, how luckier can I be X_x) and try to get her to talk about her to good success. Now I know I do not want this to become some sort of interrogation so I am about to transition to the 5 lie-game when she says: 'Oh! Someone that showed me how to be good at *whatever the game* too is my boyfriend'.

I totally froze, I knew it was not a shit-test and she had no shield on. Then I started to question what I was doing, will my impact in her life be bad for her relationship if I keep pushing? How would I react if? Bllablablabalbalablabla. And then, obviously my game was off and I started interrogating her and knew it would lead nowhere. She left after a little while to talk to some of her friends. It gave me time to reassess and get back my focus.

When I was ready I went back to her and she introduced me to the guy she was talking to: her boyfriend. X_x He was there and everything. I got infinite anxiety and could not ride that boat anymore. Approximately 2 minutes after her boyfriend tells her he wants to leave and she says ok, and he leaves ALONE! And she stays, but for the rest of the night I was too focused on 'she has a boyfriend' to do any moves or whatnot. At the end of the night she said bye and just left really suddenly with some of her friends. I was flabbergasted, I didn't even get a number!

What is your stance on that situation? It must have happened a million times to you guys but to me it was a first. Usually they tell about there boyfriends as soon as you get close-ish. When I got back home I pondered the situation and what I could have done differently and if it mattered she had a boyfriend or no. I decided that it did not matter. I do my choices and she does hers. Even if she decides she does not want to get physical I would not mind having her as a friend (she was a really cool person).

Tonight there is another 'Werewolf Night' we are attending and there is a 95% chance she will be there. This time I want to #close and I will not let the fact she has a boyfriend upset me in how I react with her if she is cool with how it goes.


LESSONS LEARNED
- Be sober when you game. Alcohol is such a drag when you are trying to be at your best.
- Have in the back of your mind that the target can have a boyfriend. Do not let it faze you, if she doesn't want to talk to you, she will tell you.
- Pick up can happen anytime, anywhere with anyone. Stay alert and always be at your best whenever you can.


GOAL #1: Get 10 #close with good-looking girls for August 24th.

CheckRaise