@JayMoe : I met this girl at work, not on the internet. We've been flirting in my workplace, not via email or text.
@Preston87 & @JayMoe : thank you for the clarification. I think you're both right, although she's probably 'somewhat' interested (like in "if I don't find someone MAN, I always that weired guy/boy to fuck up with his mind, when I'm bored or when I want someone to kiss my ass up").
The fact is, I blew it: there is no way I can correct this, and even if by some extraordinary feat I do, the relation won't be balanced since she'll always be in a 'superior' position, and I don't want to get in a relationship like this. I deserve better than this.

I also think I have to deal with my inner 'issues' : I've been looking for a serious relationship too soon, as if I'm trying to mask some self esteem issue with the affection or the 'approval' of some women. I want to practice my seduction skills, meet women and improve my social skills overall.