| Lately with my game It's been different from when I first started. For some reason I got better results when I first started this PUA thing because I kept it in my mind all the time and over analyzed everything and spent a while planning what I was going to say via text and such. I do get out & talk to girls in real life though don't get me wrong I am just pretty young and don't get lots of opportunities to get out (can't drive yet) but take me seriously please as I will take your advice that way. Now with my game I don't care what I say, I don't have any anxiety really or am I scared to talk to girls ever since I did/said a bunch crazy random things to hot girls when I went through this "phase" I guess. There's a plus & a minus to this though of course. I became more impulsive than I usually was, and when being impulsive and having emotions for a girl you really like subconsciously things seem to slip into what I say. This is going to sound crazy but I am 14. Started this somewhere in 2011. But the point of the matter is I do have natural game on certain levels but I seem to mess up when I like a girl a bunch. I'm not the type of person to not let it out when I like a girl, I tell her. And I know how you're not supposed to show interest much and I found that there is almost close to no equilibrium when it comes to attraction between two people. But yeah I should state my problems now sorry for wasting a paragraph on my background.
There's this girl, her names Sidney. Iv'e been talking to her for about a year now. I am a very persistent person and normally don't give up until I get what I want (I know that can be bad but it's my nature) lately I have found that when I really like a girl I only seem to focus on her. When I know I need to be diverse and get more girls on me in order for her to see more value amongst me and thus be more attracted & for myself as well so I don't fall into an obsession track. Bad part is though when I really like a girl other girls don't seem that appealing to me. She is the only girl now that can actually give me adrenaline when I come in contact with her. It almost surprises me. Considering I almost banged a hot blonde big tit's 19 year old with no fear involved in a one night stand. But I didn't want to waste my virginity on her. (I know what a pussy me right) I at least want to know her well before I lose my virginity to girl. But back to Sidney. I was texting her when I messed up recently accidentally slipping into a conversation on how I liked her. ._.
This is where I want to start it at (and please don't on me I know I did bad I bash on myself enough. I'm just looking for advice I know I messed up just need some tips and reminders because I'm messing up a bit lately)
Me:(I know I shouldn't have asked this when knowing I'm not supposed to care what she thinks that shows I'm secure thus more confident) "Lol Sidney do you even think about sex with me? (not that I care I GOT THEM CHICKS ON MY DICK NIGGA ^__^)
Her: "No lmao"
Me:"Haha never? I have been told I have a nice body nigga I don't see the prob" (I'm hoping this didn't make me sound desperate now that I'm re-reading all of this.)
Her:"Lol and?"
Me:(Where I mess up as far as getting into what I THINK of the situation. I hate myself sometimes) "I just don't get it. We've talked forever & both sexy. Yet the dick is not on your mind sometimes when you text me. It doesn't make sense to my brain much. Idk."
Her:" Lol well, idk."
Me:(Stupid long responses, I put to much value into my text messages to receive such little back please forgive my occasional ways T__T my liking towards her got the best of me at this point and I started talking of what was on my mind) "I mean It's straight but dang nigga I never put so much effort into a chick. It's cray. I mean eventually they end up wanting the dick but you complicate me. Lmao."
Her:"Lol sorry"
Me:"Lol don't apologize I said it's straight, ethier way I'll be fine no matter what. Cause I mean a nigga can get a girl when a nigga wants its just he chillin haha."
Her:"Oh ok."
Me:(So stupid I feel like a useless ego booster right now. I don't even know what made me want to say this.) "You best feel daanng special nigga haha I went this long after yo ahh. But a nigga needs to hang his coat up eventually after a long day at work you feel. ^__^"
(As you can see this new species of AFC is attempting to strike some emotion into this girl by giving her the sense that he is "giving up" in this case. Seeing if he could pick up an aroma of her missing him. But of course she is distracted by what is said of her, lets watch) - National Geographic Channel
Her:"Lol I do feel special ^_^"
(Skipping useless parts of us texting to the main parts)
Me:(This after a personal thing we talked about)"Lol you're so mean. I can keep my coat on if you want me to (I realized I shouldn't have said this after sending the text, I accidentally gave her power.) BUT I gotta know if you like me or not. IF NOT IT'S STRAIGHT. I have candidates for my #2 right now.
Me again:"Wait wait that sounded weird. What that meant was I will keep the coat on if you like me but if not I'm heading out."
Her:"Oh so If I don't like you, you're not going too talk to me again?"
Me:(Realizing I should have said yes but fearing her resentment I carried on saying this.) "I just wont like like you anymore. Meaning my attraction for you would be "heading out" leaving.
Her:"Oh ok"
Me" You gotta answer me? Lol do you like me, or not." (She didn't reply for awhile and instead of being dumb I was instead not caring how I handled this and did an AFC move.. The double Tri-text back. Please hear me out, I liked her alot. I know that this is such a big no no but I felt that I deserved a response after us talking for so long.)
Me:"-.- It's yes or no baby." (I call her that sometimes. No reply so I texted her in the morning)
Me:(Sent her a picture of a bag of Dorito's "her favorite chips, inside joke.") Captioned: YOU CAN'T IGNORE THESE DORITO'S BABY. (I know that the impatience and the sound of that sentence was a turn off ;/ I just.. idk.)
Her:"No"
Me:(Stupid double response I did again fml.) 1. You don't? 2. You are in that "idk" feeling arn't you.
Her:"No lol"
Me:"Ok haha so you don't like me right?"
Her:"Right."
(I feel I set myself up for this. Like I made this happen because I saw it inevitable.)
Me:(AN IDIOT DOING THE DOUBLE RESPONSE AGAIN ok you guys can bash on me I deserve it.) 1.Ok haha 2. I'll text you when we're on the same page again. I get over it quick af so we'll be talking as friends again soon ^__^ alright nignig? (Stupidly I ruled out any possibility of her feeling as if she lost something. And now pay for my consequence by facing the famous idc one letter word.)
Her:"K"
(I stopped replying finally someone needs to duct tape my fingers.)
If you took the time to read my crisis of failure I thank you bunches. ANY ADVICE would be appreciated. Even "go kill yourself." Thank you. I understand at this point I should give up.. I hate doing that though. I really do put my all into what I want and I don't like thinking of my time as "wasted" ;/ any other options considered would be great. But I understand a majority of your answers will be "Give up, move on." I feel like this is just me looking for the inevitable again. _________________ Stay confident, be positive, and define your own reality.
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