I really like myself and my values, good looking, intelligent, tall, all that stuff... 23 years old, never laid a girl I liked, and in fact only one in all. I feel like I'm in headlights when I talk to girls. Also a little bit with stranger guys in general. Especially if it's a proper one-on-one. I'm not so good at conversation, I think because I've had too little experience talking to different people. Always been very shy. For some reason I view everybody else as much higher value than me. I don't feel like it should be that way, but that's how it is. Because I've been isolated I guess, so everyone else are normal, and if I do something they didn't like, then that must be because I did something totally unacceptable, you know... That's the feelings I get. Can't tease girls, because they see through me, and instead of laughing, they get annoyed.

I'm very loving and open-minded, and I honestly think they would love me if they had the chance to truly know me and have me open up and be confident with them. But that's not how life works, so I want to get rid of this problem once and for all and start fucking some hot girls. I know I have what it takes, but how the fuck do I tear down my ego and social awkwardness? How do I start feeling like I'm at least as high value as the other person that I don't even know. Consciously, I believe that, but my emotions respond in another fashion! I also want to improve my conversation skills, but I think that comes once I feel higher value, and stop caring about what a stranger thinks. It's distinctly connected to me being isolated for a long period except for a core of close friends, and now feeling like I'm the odd freak. I'm put down by even the slightest negative look, and discouraged strongly if they don't look interested while talking to them.

I'm consciously aware of a lot of this, I just need my emotions to behave accordingly. It's very deep rooted. What's helped most so far is seeing/reading how other guys feel in great detail in certain situations. That way I can sort of feel that way too. Watching videos of a guy doing awkward stuff, and seeing how fine and natural he feels about it. It's not a permanent effect, and the mindset is EASILY disturbed. Do you have any advice? I want to kill this shit off for good.

Hey man. Welcome to the community. Good to see you want to change! Check this thread out I started making a while back. There is alot of inner game stuff in there for you to read through that will hopefully change your mindset!

majik-s-journal-guide-for-newbies-vt160681.html

Thanks dude

Things are certainly headed in the right direction at a pace that I like. I approached the first girls I've ever approached yesterday night. There was a table with 3 good looking girls. Didn't do the 3 second rule thing, it took a couple of minutes for me to finally somehow actually feel okay with just walking over there and introduce myself. I brought a lot of positive energy, and they seemed to like me. Unfortunately... no I actually don't really care... But it died in about 3 minutes when I simply could not think of anything to talk about, and some of the things I said in the beginning made transition into conversation a bit weird It was a huge step just doing that though. And it was cool feeling pretty okay with the awkwardness when that arose. Do you have any conversation tips?

http://themajikalmethod.com/welcome-to- ... versation/

Check that out

Good job. You are starting to break out of your comfort zone! Keep pushing yourself!