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we've been boyfriend and girlfriend officialy for 3 months, but we've been together for 6. in january we went to this house party and she jerked me off (horribly).
the next day, in some kind of joke, she told me that my dick was skinny. i reacted really bad and told her to fuck off, she apologized and moved on.
every now and then, she brings it up... "remember when you wanted to break up because i bothered you about your penis size?" and laughs... i really dont care about it now but i told her not to talk about it anymore.
she told some people about the incident and it really pissed me off, plus, everytime she goes out and drinks, she starts saying crazy shit. the other time, she sucked my dick and swallowed my semen, she said that it was sweet. that night she told EVERYONE that my semen was sweet! i couldnt care less if the whole world knew, in fact, awesome. but what kind of girl goes around saying that shit?!?!?!
we had a huuuuuuuuuge fight about this, trust and all, and we almost broke up. i just saw her and we made up, BUT... i had a weird feeling, like i was just saying yes and not really feeling anything towards her.
i cant say that a i love her, cause i really dont. so i said to myself "well, she's going to switzerland in january, we could be together til then, improve my sex techniques and shit, and then improve my game" so it was okay...
THE THING IS THAT SHE'S 15 AND HER MOM DOESN'T WANT TO GET HER PILLS OR ANYTHING TIL SHES 16! that's until september! so... i havent been laid in 6! the other day we had sex BUT FOR LIKE 5 SECONDS AND I FELT NOTHING (fucking condoms), we stopped cause she didnt feel like it was the time and bla bla bla bla...
today, she told me that she was sad because any little fight causes me to rage up and want to end everything (and she's right) so she wanted to wait more... i asked how long? she said until she gets contraceptives... in that moment i realized that i could be with her, but not if we're not having sex.
i can't break up with her now because it would be reaally fucking weird. we spent the whole afternoon talking and hugging and kissing and shit.
my plan is to study really hard and not have time for her, 3 weeks from now i ll say something like "i just dont have time for this relationship and you deserve someone that wants to and can be there for you, im sorry" or something similar...
i cant break up with her NOW cause if i do so, she'll think that its because of the no-sex rule, and i dont want her to think that (although is true, im a piece of shit)
any other ideas?
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