| She was a french woman shopping alone. I opened her by telling her she was cute; she looked at me with a puzzled face, so I repeated myself, thinking she probably didn't hear me the first time. I guess I should've been louder the first time. I asked her where her accent is from; in retrospect, I should've guessed instead. That didn't end up going anywhere. I just froze and couldn't think of what to say next; her eyes averted from me which gave me the feeling like she wasn't interested. Should I have said "Look at me? or Are you shy?" in a somewhat commanding voice? I lost all confidence in that interaction and left.
Throughout the rest of the day, I opened two other girls. One time, a HB7 was trying to enter my apartment complex but was stranded outside because she forgot her keys. As I was heading out, I noticed her just standing, waiting, and when I opened the gate to head out, I playfully asked her "You're not going to rob us are you?". She said: "Yea I am going to rob you. No.. I just forgot my keys." I was kind of in a hurry, so I said, "Alright, I am letting you in this time, but I am usually not that easy." I felt like our eye contact lingered for longer than normal, but it might just be me. The other instance was when I was walking on the sidewalk and this HB9 was biking towards me without her helmet. When she came closer, I playfully asked her, "Where is your helmet?!" and she said she forgot it but is only biking two blocks, etc... all the while looking back at me in the distance. I was thinking it would pretty hilarious if she crashed into a tree right now. I wanted to say "Stop, come back!" but couldn't muster up the energy.
I feel like the last two interactions started off well, but I just lose the motivation to keep it going, because I am happy with just the fact that I opened and am scared I will fuck it up if I continue. It is easier to stay happy with what I have so far than risk getting owned. I need to increase my bar for satisfaction I guess, but not sure how. Practice perhaps; constantly challenging myself.
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