Hey, Today, I went to town again. With the big intwnt of approaching and overcoming AA.This, of course was not really effective. I walked around town going to bookshops and the library. But coyldn't get any approaches done. I recieved Zero IOIs (that should've been expected, 'cause it's daygame and all). Opened zero girls and came back home thinking about my loserness. I feel that the fact that I didn't even try to approach and break AA for two weeks fucked me up here. I am going out both tomorrow and the day after. Will be posting with my results.

Peace

Reflection on the journey so far.

I'd like to take today and this post to just think about and go back to the reasons for which I started PUA. From the beginning, I liked women. I literally loved women and their so... carefree and bubbly, giggly nature. Those shy eyes and the blushing and the squeaky gasps. I adored women. And still do. But I was also afraid. Must've been my great big ego.

Then, when I was in 8th grade, I met my first oneitis. Petite. Solid body and Great smile. And this was even before I knew anything about. I hadn't even jerked off then.

I remember staying up at night in bed. listening to the backstreet boys and thinking whether what I was feeling was love. Yeah, well fuck that. Because I didn't have the balls to approach. Come to think of it, I probably didn't really have any balls back then. They probably haven't had dropped into the sack...

I looked for seduction. I searched online. I didn't really get awakened with the "game" like most new people of the community. No, I met Ross Jeffries.

Immediately, I put a few of his patterns into work with people around me. My friends, my family and acquaintances. I received results. And good ones at that. I made a couple of great friends. I texted my first female friend. (introduced to me through one of my new buddies).

I texted her almost daily and ran patterns on her through text because I was too scared to talk to her. She responded, I escalated and I met my first shit-test. And jumped through her hoops almost gladly. Sent her a poem about a guy (me) loving a girl (her) and the girl not knowing about it. She wanted a poem for her report and I had the ambition of becoming a writer. Perfec man for the job. I sent her the poem. She thanked me and apparemtly forgot to answer my next text (and the other 136 texts after that). I let my inner neediness shine through and texted her almost non-stop. I called her my one and only (literally) and begged her to come meet me..... Eventually, I figured out that it just wasn't healthy and deleted her number from my phone. I still remember it. Still remember her number. Every digit. Burned into my brain.

Then, I read the game along with almost every other piece of seduction that I came across. And then I came into contact with my first taste of internet porn. Voila! All my girl problems got solved. Fuck yeah! Just rub one of off and all of your problems evaporated... And all my material, and the few approaches I had done drowned under the gigantic wave of free internet pornography that I had found access to. I (thought) I was in heaven. But the problem with porn was that it was just fucking-not-right.

And then I came here. I hated what I had become. I really hated myself. I knew that there were bigger things in me. That I was better than what I had become. That I COULD do better. And that I DESERVED better.

Goals for tomorrow: 26/04/2013

Open 5 girls indirect and then transition into direct.

I see you've changed your name!

Also, you already seem to benefit from pickup in one way: a better understanding of yourself.

I'm sort of worried about you because you seem to force yourself a bit too much. Of course, it's necessary to apply a bit of pressure to oneself, but I think it is a bit risky to set a goal like you did, because you might not be feeling like picking up girls that day. You never know beforehand. Also, stop thinking in numbers. Who says that 5 approaches are better than 4? After all, you could approach 5 girls, get blown out immediately and not benefit at all, or you could approach 2 girls, maybe even close them and learn a whole lot!

Yep, Saw somewhere that you had an idea of changing your name as well...? And yes, Renegade IS a better PUA name.
Guilty as charged. It seems to kick me in the be-hinds into taking some form of action. Dressing better, working out, meeting new people. All things I would never have had considered doing beforehand. It also made me face myself less blinded by narcissism and pride. Thus, letting me improve for the better.
I feel that I have a clearer idea of where I want to be by the end of the day this way. Numbers give me a goal. A short term goal that I can aim towards. Although I must confess that they also put that extra bit of pressure on me as well. So, advice TAKEN. Goals will be geared towards more action and less numerals in the future.

Expect FR soon.
Peace and piece,
NightSky

Name change has taken place too. Maybe some card trick aficionados will recognise the deck in my avatar and link it to my name

Looking forward to your FRs! Make sure you smile a lot. I just met a girl today in my salsa class, and me smiling seemed to really have spiked her interest

FR 0.08
Now playing: Mia Martina- Latin moon.

So I went to town today and had 3 main goals in mind when I did.
1.Get an application for the swimming pool.
2.Get an application for A/Ls.
3. Grab a dozen books.

I get up in the morning and literally drag myself out of bed. Brush my teeth, comb my hair, get dressed and get out.

At the bus stop, I see a cute girl. I hesitate. And she leaves before I can will myself up.

1 missed opportunity.

I get on the next bus, sit down and imagine what could've have happened. The bus grinds to a halt just outside of Kandy and I propel myself out using the force. Getting out of the bus, I fall in behind another beauty. Hesitate with that as well and lose another one.

2 missed opportunities.

I go to the bookshop and buy the books I wanted to. The cashier calls me "sir" and I'm both pleasantly surprised and saddened. Just a hint of sadness creeping into me. "Do I really look that old?"

I come out of the bookshop and tick the books off in my head. Kyle feet drag me towards the campus.
Peradeniya campus is one of the most beautiful places in Kandy. With the botanical gardens on one side and the longest river of the island on the other, it is the second best university of the country. The long calm roads and the fresh air is guaranteed to leave you elated at the least. And euphoric at best.

I get off near campus and see the girl that's going to be my second social interaction of the day. I walk up to her, ask whether she studies here. She responds in the affirmative. I get the directions for the swimming pool and eject.

A few moments later, I open another girl asking for directions. She says that she doesn't know where the pool is exactly. She gives me the directions time the gym, which happens time be right beside the pool. Good enough. Looking back, I should've teased her about not knowing where the pool was and stayed some more time in the set.


Near the pool, I talk with a couple of guys. They tell me how to get a membership for the pool and point me toward the office.
In the office, I meet PoolDude, who's the real friendly pool attendant. We chat about the pool and the guy who takes care of the paperwork and whatnot. He hands me a couple of applications for the pool membership and I thank him and come out.

I get back on the bus to Kandy. And I see my third missed opportunity of the day. Petite, pink shirt and white jeans. The bookwormy kind. Solid 7.5 on the HB scale. Hesitation kills me again as the fear gripping me becomes stronger by the second.

3 missed opportunities.

I get off in Kandy and see another HB. This time, a solid 8. Again, hesitation killed the pickup-artist-wannabe.

4 missed opportunities.

I grab some more stuff and head home. And on my way home, I see another 2 set that I liked to, but didn't open. Out of a (completely rational) fear of them splitting my head open and eating my bwains. [Hello,sarcasm]

Expect better FR in the future.
Peace and piece,
NightSky

New goal: appoach strangers. Every time you go out.
Now i'd like to point out something that will help with your situation. I read a bit from the first entrys of your journal and you had (and still have) some concerns with approaching. Lets call it approach anxiety. The first goal is overcoming this problem. How?

The Three Second Rule. I'm not sure if anyone has already pointed it out to you as i only read a couple of your posts. Basically, if you hit an eye contact with a girl, be her in a set of people or all alone, within three seconds you should go to her and strike up a conversaton. It's that easy. If it goes over three seconds, you start thinking stuff like "what am i going to say", "how shall i present myself", "what do i need to to in order for her to like me". This will mess up your game. If you don't know how to open, say "hey, how have you been?". Just go, head in and be bold. This way you'll overcome AA.

So, let's look where you can use it: everywhere. For example, you go to the library for books, see a girl, go over to her and ask where is this section you are looking for (maybe you already know but for the sake of the convo, just ask). You are in a line in the coffee shop, one girl in front of you has mad nice set of hair or a bag or earrings or whatever, you say it. Then you are in: you are talking. Don't be afraid if you mess up at first, you propably won't see these random encounters again anyway so it's a great way to improve your game.


It is Tuesday. Let's say you go to town three more times this week. Doesn't matter if you go to school, bar, library, shop, anything. When you are out in the town, say "i can do it" and go appoach people. Random people. Wherever. Dont' think about what happens next, just go and talk. Start. I promise, the more you open, the more comfortable you will become and this whole AA concern will disappear in time. Just remember the three second rule.

I hope this helps you. If you do what you've always done and miss opportunities, you won't improve. If something isn't working, you take it apart and rebuild it so you can be stronger. Post your new reports and see what starting more and more conversations with random people does to you.

Keep on rocking, good luck.

FR 0.09
Now playing: Layla- Eric Clapton

Today is one of those days that I just went out for the sake of going out. it's May Day here and the streets are deserted. I managed to do 2 directions openers. My first-ever two set and storm-trooper. Storm-trooper's rejection wasn't really as bad as I had thought it would've been. A WHOOSHING walk by. They must've literally been the only girls in the town.

Edit:
The former part of the report was written in a cafe. I also befriended the waitress there. Her name was Inoka. My opener was based around a broken glass cabinet in the cafe (which I later found out was the handiwork of HBWaitress). Talked to 2 more women and 2 men before coming home. 3 of them directions and the last one I chatted up in the bus. we changed seats because I got off before she did. Kinda feel less afraid out there. I observed that I started the day with smiling to random people off the street with a couple of questions here and there. A sort-of newbie mission. Did it play a part in my recent successfulness?

Expect better reports.
Peace and piece,
NightSky

MR:Update on journal's writing style.
Now playing: Fiesta pebble- Billy Van

From tomorrow in, the FRs are going to be based only on and around seductive encounters. I re-read my journal from beginning to the end and I feel that it has become a "social" journal. Rather than a "seduction" journal. Accordingly, FR 0.10 and FRs 0.10+ will be based on and around seductive encounters (or potentially seductive encounters) and new ideas related to inner-get and pickup rather than the "social" encounters that were my norm in the journal so far. A "next step" of sorts.

Any ideas guys? Should I spend anymore time in the social phase than I already have? The reason that I want to raise the bar is that I feel more comfort than discomfort in social situations. This, in turn has lead me to believe that I'm ready to try the "pickup" part of pickup.
I used the three second rule today. Opening sets just as I got off at the bus stop. That's how I got the courage to open my first 2 set. And none of my targets were opened out of necessity today. That is a huge improvement for me because of the randomness. Thank you for the input Hawke91.
This was my exact mindset today as I approached the cafe girl. I observed that your state of mind just fizzles out if you do not take action immediately.
Same to you, partner.


I googled it out of curiosity. And that seems to be an ace of spades from the "Bicycle" Karnival Renegade pack, right? Anyways, good luck on Salsa HB's lay.

Will keep that in mind. Smiling is actually a must for me, because many people say that I look very intimidating. I've once even been challenged to a fight because of my eye-contact. People easily get uneasy when I hold eye contact with them.

FU 0.10
Now playing: Nail in the coffin- Eminem



“Pain is temporary. Quitting lasts forever.”- Lance Armstrong

I thought I had it made. After two days of Social God mode, I thought I had made it. I thought that I could open. I thought I had mastered approaching.

I was wrong. So very wrong.

Approach anxiety took hold of me again. Another day wasted without even one solid approach. I post this so when I wake up tomorrow and look back at my journal, I will WANT to improve.

I'm sorry. I apologize to myself for letting myself down. I swear that I'll never hold myself back again.


“My fault, my failure, is not in the passions I have, but in my lack of control of them.”
- Jack Kerouac

With failure in the rearview and success on the horizon,
NightSky

A day is far from wasted if you haven't approached anyone. Remember, pickup is a PART of your life, not your whole life. Pickup should be a hobby, maybe even a passion; but you don't live for it. Stop forcing it so much please!

Here's some advice I gave in another thread: Maybe this helps you to overcome your fear of social situations. Try it, you'll love it.

Temporary lockdown report.


I had this little idea just "pop" into my head. Out of nowhere. Have you ever heard of "Thapãsa?". It's an extended amount of time wherein Buddhist monks go into solitary living in a place of serenity. This is an opportunity for a monk to attain deeper knowledge of "Dhamma" through meditation and reflection.

The community was, and still is a great place for anybody to improve themselves. I have all the techniques, I know my current sticking points and I have a good amount of material to study with. I am disappearing from the community for a MONTH. Going into a kind of "Thapãsa" for game.

I am going away today and my next field report will be submitted on the 6th of June, 2013. I hope to reach a few more milestones along this road. But letting them out right now would just ruin the anticipation, wouldn't it ?

I'll keep a personal journal and give you all of my progress after a month. The specialty is that my goals will also be put up on the next report. That is to say, a month from now. Good luck to all you AFCs, PUAs and rAFCs out there. Thanks to all my buddy PUAs who've helped me. I'll be back.

Peace and Piece.
NightSky.

So...? Have you made any progress?

Hi nightblade, you dont know how great it is to find a fellow PUA in Sri Lanka.
I am 19 yrs old and lives in colombo, like you I was exposed to PUA in 2012 and after that I had grasped all related literature I could lay my hands on in the net. I first started reading David D and then mystery and Neil Strauss.. and literally everyone I could find.

I can confidently say that PUA has had a drastic change in me for the better. Before PUA I was a very shy nerd. I used to hide in my room when visitors come. I was lucky to read David D's books first. They are less of technique based and more about inner game - building your character and persona. Perfect for newbies. After reading David I read Love Systems routines and they have helped me a lot. Compared to 2 years ago, now I am much more confident in approaching and dating women and even generally in life.However the kind of improvement you can have in SL is limted and slow

specially in a region like Kandy. For some time I found myself stuck in a plateau in my journey and not progressing. So I have decided to move out to USA for university specially considering my social skill mastery.

Problem in Sri Lanka for aspiring pickup artists

1) Sri Lanka is still a country rooted in tradition. It is awkward for a man to talk to a strange woman on the road. No one does that. So it is difficult for aspiring pickup artists to find playing fields to practice game. Nightclubs are good but are only reserved for the richest 1% of sri lanka. So how much knowledge about PUA you cram up, it is worthless unless you practice! I improved because I was in colombo, where there are international school students who are more liberal and westernized.

2)Sri Lankan women dont date in the traditional European sense. They dont associate men to see whether they are potential boyfriends. SO you cant ask a woman out on a date. That kind of women are branded as sluts here. In SL relationships happen by either parents finding a spouse (rare now) or a guy asking a girl out straight away without flirting (eg-I like you, will you go out with me)

Not to say that guys here dont get laid. They do. but they are the natural alphas. Guys who have it from birth. For guys like us need playing fields to practice.

and haha I like your reference on Buddhist monks Thapassa. That's exactly what I am going to do by going to US. After 2 years I will be reborn as a new person.

And one last thing.. So far I taked about negs in PUA in SL. But listen to this. If you somehow even manage to become an average PUA, even below average, you can become a God here. Women here have 0 exposure to pua and men hitting on them. Most men in SL get chicks by their good lucks and have sukish personalities. so if you somehow stay on course and develop the kind of persoanity you can attract any woman in Sri Lanka even the movie actresses. Any one

We should hang out some time man, Our common goals bonds us stronger.

Bro! you have no idea about the pua scene in Sri Lanka. Especially in Colombo. If you're still here I could introduce you to my pua friends!!