so anyway, a bit more about me

i'm 30 years old and have been doing pickup for about a month now so am fairly new, i suppose i was a natural when i was younger but personnal issues came up and gotin the way of all that, now i become massively anxious around women, beautiful women in particular, its a real problem, i even broke down in tears in front of a group once, it was messed up, thats where i decided no more im a good looking, intelligent charming guy, i know i have the capabilities to be with women but am lacking confidence and it shows.
as for me game, i find im really good at opening but tend to run out of things to say midway through the conversation, i also tend to annoy the women or bore them, sometimes i sense this and run away/leave or they leave -
also been handging round an old aquaintance who seems to just put me down in front of others he pretends to care but he seems to have this other motive to fuel his ego, i need to change the peopel im around and also deal with a few bitchy people i have encountered, im also not that great with rejection i find it is the main cause of me not approaching as well as knowing i'll run out of things to say,
so to sumarise - i think i need to impprove in these areas ,
-need to carry the conversation, whilst escalating her atttraction to me
- need to isolate her away from her friends
-win her friends over (the dreaded cockblockers)
-kiss close/number close
-get her back to mine
-possible relationship (i've never had a relationship)
-- thanks !
