I want to share this experience of mine, while I'm having vacation at the moment. I just finished school, and school was shit, because I have fake cards, that made me enroll to be first year college. Life... Fuck it. My course was BSIT, for Information Technology, Bullshit. I had a fucking story there, and it was full of drama. Didn't expected it, but it did. I guess, it was fate. God, glory. Lol xD. Yeah, yeah... My anger went to the Ever Gotesco Mall, kicked a Push cart, and was almost shot by guards, I was followed, and I ran so fast. Man, it was exciting, because I felt like I am fucking hilarious, yet fucking annoying there. One guard that told me he was already going to shoot me, understand me, for I was really exhausted by all the fucking shit that I hear, lies mah men, everywhere, and I was shouting before that at school, "AAAH!!!!! Alelujah-Huakbar!!!", "JUSTICE!!!", "I am Zorro!" Guards at the mall called me, "He's crazy!", "Crazy..." Lol xD, but I just acted, but really, I really felt bullshitted. I want the truth, even it be some light in my life...

OK.. That's a different story.

I'm going to share this one where it's bugging me if I would go on and ask that cute lady at the store just outside our village if the guy she's with is her husband.

It all started one night, and I have read some stuffs about this seduction shits and whatever, but I also amde my own on some notebook, which is my diary, because it's a long story, I have a diary, yeah, so what? I made it for some pass time, when nothing to do at school, and because my mom told me to one time, 'make a journal', a girl asked me at class if I have one, and gave me an idea... That's why... Nothing to do at home sometimes too... I still do it, and I make plans there, and write dear diary, it's my life, it's now or never. That's why...

I went to the store, and the sight of her petite looking body and face, she's white-skinned, but I'm brown, and sometimes white-looking at bright corners of the house, and the sun, lolxD. I don't mind, I like my skin, and I think it's because I smoke, and so what? Let's admit it, people like the bright, the white, because it's a race. Ism. Just kidding. Light... lol xD... I'm crazy.

I'm a man, and fuck that, so what, white? I like what I see now... Hm... I went there, again, so I saw her, and because I felt confident of all the knowledge I have, and because I know by myself that I have some looks, but not to brag, I'm not really those other handsome guys out there, but I love being myself, and that's what matters to me. I don't know, I unconciously had a face that says, "Yummy", with my tounge looking like it just ate some delicious-tasty kfc food, with gravy.

After that, things got a little heavy, and some problems at school still being srted out, and some cases at school, whcih went to the police, parents protecting their bastard child, but I'm Innocent!!! Fuck life, really, whatever, just let God be the judge, it's not the end of the world yet...

Don't care, still going to head out for my plans and dreams in life!

A guy there also was working with her, and I didn't knew, so he was like angry, and I think he knows what I have been through back then, about my condition, panic attack, agoraphobia, shit, forgive me for sharing this shit experience. It's nasty!

So, it went on a few days, but what I liked about what's happening is that I noticed that if you keep on pursuing, even if you feel like, "I've done a mistake! What now?" Shit, just stay COOL, and fuck it, "Don't let it affect you, and don't worry about her if she doesn't like you or not, jsut do the same."

I noticed that she just went on with the flow, while I just keep on living, and still buying on that place...

I didn't do the same mistakes which made me look for solutions to my problems with women, because before I had my heart broken, because of being batshit insane, just kidding. A little crazy, or crazy, I already believe in God, and I'm still crazy... xD.. lol. Yey!

I gave all my heart out to that girl at UST(University of Santo Tomas), just to tell her all that was true of my feelings back then, which I couldn't give back in a normal way, because I had my brain shitted.

Now, whatever happens, I just stay fucking CALM, COOL, and I don't give a fuck what other people think of me, because I breath for own fucking WILL now... hehe xD.

FUCKING great.

I'm still a virgin, but I have plans on getting laid. It bugs me sometimes, thinking that shit, I still haven't fucked, but so what? I can make some business of my own, have money, and it doesn't matter, I'll be fucking who ever gets in ym way.. lolxD.. Just kidding.... WAAAHH!...

So, the story is about her, and some fucking taller than me guy, who is showing to me that he is irritated, but I stood my grounds, and showed him that I learned my lesson before, and I'm just a kid, I make mistakes, and if that girl is his wife, then fucking shit, I'm showing right now that I understand him, because I think the girl told the guy.

What I'm thinking now is I want to know if they are a couple, for sure. Maybe, I'll ask her, just to know, and to let them know that even if she looks sexy without her clothes, and fuckable, lolxD, hehe, then, shit, so what?

I'm just sharing this, because it's in the field.

They sell rice.

"I want to play a game."

When I get money, I think I'll go ona date, or even a strip club, but for now, family matters, prepare for disasters, keep faith, make my dick longer and stronger by ejaculating with passion, lol xD, help others.

I really fuck others here, who fucks me, around.

FUCK YOU.

I'm not angry, I'm just.

Don't you fear,

for

"The only thing to fear, is fear itself."

I have a bomb. lol xD.. Kidding.