I'm sorry guys. I suffer from severe generalized anxiety disorder and I've been off my meds for some time now. Maybe I should really go back on them and tell her I've been trying to wean myself off them.

I have a few other possible girls I do. And I told you already I know for a fact there is no other guy. But I'm sorry. I just thought I could make it without my medication. I'm also a manic depressive who suffers from delusions of grandeur

Dude, you're just a guy going through the same shit all of the rest of us have been through at some point in our lives! Life goes on and you WILL find what you are looking for as long as you keep pushing yourself to improve. People here "myself included" sometimes have to kick your ass to get you to see what we are trying to say. Don't take it personally, but do take it to heart. We really want to help and nothing more.


Peace...

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All girl's are Freaks...It is your job to bring it out in them! - Crypto

You need to stop bending over and letting her ass fuck your brain! - Heywood

I appreciate that. I'm in a bad place and I have a week to get my head on straight. I was always taught I must follow through on what I say I'm going to do and I said I'd go to dinner with her so I have to do that. Right now my anxiety has gotten the best of me. I've dropped several pounds the last week and alienated about all my friends who are sick of me. It disgusts me when I look at myself. Can't I be honest with her that I'm disgusted at the way I'm acting and I need some time for my meds to work and to find some inner peace? Tell her I need at least another week or so for my meds to kick back in so I'm not so fucking needy all the time. I can admit to having been needy and just turned off by it no?

You can play the victim, live in denial and blame it on meds.

Or you can be a man and take responsibility for your own actions, learn what you're doing wrong and change for the better.

It's not denial. It's not victimizing. It's the genuine truth. I change when I go off my meds. I become a different person. Why is that so hard for you to believe?

Dude! You have been offered a whole plethora of very excellent advice and help from these obviously experienced guys here! You choose not to listen!

Your NOT looking for help, your looking to justify your actions...and hers!

Your not going to get that here.

Sometimes the truth sucks big fat dick! And it hurts.

There is no "magic pill"

There are indeed medications for anxiety and depression disorders. But in truth they are only band-aids at best.

Growing up, becoming a MAN sucking up your balls and facing your problems is the only way you will overcome this.

I have swallowed enough Zoloft & Xanax to know what the fuck it's like.

Now pull up the big boy pants and listen to them.

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She wants to talk things out. Why is that a bad idea?

If needing meds was the problem all along, why did you come on here asking for advice? If that was the case, surely you would just take the meds and you'd magically become the smoothest alpha male PUA in town without our help.

Talking things out with her is only good if you get what you want out of it, which is an exclusive relationship with no BS, no drama. If the purpose of her talk is to discuss what SHE wants, then it's a bad idea, because based on what you've told us, this girl likes dicking you around.

For the same reason a Suicide Car Bombing is a bad idea!

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I'm trying to make her see me in a new confident light and I didnt realize I needed the meds until I took two Benadryl seven melatonin two beers and a tramadol and only was able to sleep two hours.

I bought a new car and buzzed my hair. It's a new me you could say. Admittedly I acted poorly but I don't want to anymore. I'm not going to anymore. You guys are right it's bullshit and it's mind over matter. I want to meet with her and lay down my offer. And she's fucking bipolar and needs to be on meds

Trust me on this I helped my friend with a girl who was bi polar she did the exact same thing. The reason you don't want to let her go is that you the high point in the relationship which may seem perfect but soon she hit the low point.
So if you get back together with her she will break up with you again why do you want all this drama?

Because for some reason I think it might be worth it. What happens if when I go out to dinner I bust on her pulling C +F and lead and prove that I can be the strong man she fell in love with? Could that work?

Dinner is not the correct setting for a serious relationship discussion. I strongly suggest that if you have a talk, do not do it over dinner. Dinner is too friendly and social.

What place would be a good setting? I'm the man I'll decide where we go. I can go the beach or pretty much anywhere. From Los Angeles.

I wanna take her somewhere out of her norm. I want her to feel like it's all new. I have a new haircut new outfit new car. I want her to feel like this is not the same old beta needy schmuck who's been bugging her the last few weeks.

And I wanna be straight up that I've done a lot of thinking. About myself for myself. And I'm disgusted with being needy and always there and I want my own life. I should apologize for "that asshole" who wouldn't leave her alone for five minutes to breathe and assure her he's dead and gone. And I know if I say all this I have to back it up forever.

And I want to confront her on what she said. Wouldn't want to be with me for the rest of her life? How could she know? She's twenty. Take it a day at a time. And how exactly do I bug her?
Do I say all this first or let her talk first?

Take her to the nicest place in town, even buy her something REAL nice.













I'm going to Hell.

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