I decided to take poeticlyskuac's confidence course, probably one of the best decisions i've made, i'm on day 19 at the moment and thanks to his help and the program, i've figured out my biggest problem is ego.
Well here's my story anyway, I haven't kissed a girl at all in 5 years and i've grown very frustrated since I couldn't even figure out what was going wrong. I love kissing women, it's like a drug to me haha. One depressing day, I said a prayer asking for help, a few days after that I started this thread and a few days after that an opportunity to fix everything came my way, poeticlyskuac's post. Of course, like everybody else, I was immediately skeptical at it but I gave it some thought and eventually I said 'Well, it's only going to cost me €30, that's less than the price of a night of poker, alright, i'll give it a shot' I have always been very curious by nature even though I grew pretty negative...my god, it blew me away hahaha XD After like day 3 I was feeling way better, it does require some work and can be a little exhausting sometimes, but thats the bodys way of adapting to change and like the first time you do most things, they're not always going to be the best, but you'll always thank yourself later for giving it a shot rather than wondering for the rest of your life 'I wonder what would of happened if I said yes?'
I am still changing and battling old habbits but my god their getting f*cked over more and more every single day I put effort into it. Im in control of my life now, it no longer controls me. Poeticlyskuac is a freaking saint. Shyness in me is almost non-existant now, i've grown so confident over the last few weeks, 3 times i've called women perverts without offending them (Of course not in front of their friends and with a playful manner obviously) At this very moment i'm getting ready to hit the clubs tonight, aint been out in months because I kept talking myself out of it. I don't feel i'll be bringing home a girl, however, im not going to be disappointed either, I don't rely on their feedback anymore

and I know the more I go out and try, sure ill make mistakes but i'll be improving those and bettering my chances all the time, the only difference now, if I get rejected ill say 'Ah, okay, nevermind, next time, ill get a woman!

' instead of "I'll never succeed no matter what I do

"
All of you negative nancies and skeptic suckers, okay, im telling you now, drop it, if you're anything like me at all, and a lot of you are, you'll give this course a shot, and you WONT ever regret it. Confidence is a very important masculine trait for a lot of things in life and women are attracted to that
Peace and love ;D
Matty