so back in September i decided to start gaming at my workplace.
i did f-closed one but one of them i wanted to bang had recently gotten out of a LTR
she felt depressed and hopeless. I wanted to follow the saying from the game
"Leave her better than how you found her"

So i began working on her, invited her to go out and socialize with me and my friends.
by the third date we started having sex, ever since then we been having sex often. She invited me to family parties where i meet a lot of her family, she also had come home with me and had meet my family.
my family pressure me, they think that i might stay with this chick and that i'm gonna get her pregnant soon.
i honestly don't want to end up with her. She is exceptionally smart, took advanced classes and all that shit in high school. with the potential to succeed in a uni she is been out of school working pretty much full time.
i go to school,but she is like my tutor since she knows pretty much a lot on a broad range of subjects.
since we started seeing each other she has come to hangout with me most days. i have told her about how i learned pick up and how it helped me to become a better guy and how i used it to get to know her but she said it was fine, when my purpose was for her to move away from me in other to keep gaming other chicks, and i didn't wanted to tell her to fuck off since she was recently out of a relationship...so i tried to do anything i even f closed another girl in an apartment party, but she has still sticked around and i though i could handle the situation without getting emotionally involved but seems like its to late.
I have stopped working out
I have been losing my game
I been starting to feel something for her.

when we are around co workers and at work we don't really talk much, we both go and talk to everyone else at work. when we are alone and with other people we don't know we act as a couple
so far we been exclusive to each other on the sex.

but recently as of a few days she has stopped looking for me, she usually text me once a day to see how my day was but today is the third day i haven't seen her and she replies to my texts pretty much after a few hours. i'm having the oneitis
and even though i know i should cut her off i feel it hard on my part because i feel like im gonna end up heartbroken.. specially cause at work they talk about us hanging out together alot and doing that will completely make things awkward and make me feel isolated because they know about her LTR and how he screwed her over.. and the image i had at work is of me being a player.

so i honestly don't know what to do.
i know that it be best for me to break with her before it complete tears me up
but i find it difficult to do once im with her.

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Space.volt

Hope you learned your lesson WHY not to sh%t where you eat...
You are becoming insecure, because she is not as affectionate/emotionally investing as you would like her to be. If you could just stay cool and enjoy the time with her that would be awesome. Get back into that mindset not to take it serious and see other girls as well.

There's a few reasons why she's becoming distant:

1) She can smell you are falling for her and seeking her attention
2) Based on the experience with her previous LTR she reminds herself to be more self-protective and tries not to get emotionally attached.

Chill out man. If she's cold for a week, just be cold too and re-ignite after a while. You got her already, focus on something else and don't make her your priority!

I was in a very similar situation once and I had to walk away because it didn't really make me happy. It took me a year to finally end it. I was very attached to her tho and seeing her at work didn't help..

Give yourself a task: Try to slowly become DGAF about her being cold. If you can't see any improvement on yourself, end it fast!

your right, i have gotten off of that mindset i first had.
i had made her my priority and I'd been investing too much on her.

i should stay cool and enjoy the time i have with her like you said.
I'll follow what you said hopefully it changes the way I'm feeling because
i really dislike feeling this way.
thank you!

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Space.volt

It can be tough as, hope you've got the strength.. Give it a try but drop her if it's making you miserable. Dropping her might be even harder, you've got to look out for yourself tho! Definitely keep on seeing other girls, even if you don't feel like.. I bet it's just a matter of time until she wants to get exclusive.

So far i been trying to communicate with her less, and even though i feel like texting or calling her i been just entertaining myself on the internet and reading articles and watching videos..
A couple of days ago i told her i felt like shit cause of some stuff [it was because of her, but i did not told her she was the reason]she came to take me out and go for a drive. felt better that she came and spent the night.. 2 days passed and she told me she felt like shit as well because of family problems so she wanted to hangout, but first she was like "can i go over over i really need of someone's company" then a few minutes after she was like "I'm too far" i volunteer to go over but then she told me her cousin was gonna pick her up, yet another 10 minutes after she told me that her cousin couldn't make it that she was just gonna drive around.. [This kinda put me on an emotional roller coaster]
it made me feel good that she looked for me at a point, then right away she didn't want me anymore
and at the she end up going to her friends [guy best friend, idk him but she said she just watched movies and she left around 2am]

So this freaking made me feel insecure. i have not told her anything regarding who the guy is but you know, i came to the point where i think i might be feeling jealous...

So Last night i was really harsh on myself..
i came to the point where i shouldn't give a fuck about her.. and that i would take any opportunity to bed some other chick. but honestly i don't know if i should do that..
She invited me to go drinking tonight after work i agreed.
i might just act cool and flirt with other chicks let her know that she can loose me anytime.

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Space.volt

Its a good plan man. Just dont overdo it or she might catch up to what you are doing...You said shes smart, so play her good

Good luck!

I'll tell you what I think happend. You were her 2nd choice and that other dude was her first choice. Its almost soo clear to realize.. she was waiting for his confirmation that she could come, because he made her wait,unlike you always ready to see her.. needy. Freeze her out, and in the mean time work on your innergame, it will do you wonders.