It's like I just can't put my paw on what I want.
I know I could be a loving, powerful guy, that just gives good to the world. I can be romantic. I don't like being sexual all the time (not anymore, idk why but that's since PUA). Sex is NOT my priority. It's like I want to find a situation to create, something to pursue but not to "get" but to enjoy instead. As in, you can't enjoy an object, but you can enjoy a situation, e.g. having a girlfriend doesn't have any pleasure to it, but being with her and doing things with her has pleasure, I just need the right situation.

How do you guys go about finding what situations you truly want in life, what do you want to do, what do you want to constantly feel? And ofcourse let go of later. I just need something to dream of and to look up for in other people and life (e.g. that girl could make that dream happen, the time is right, I need that to experience that etc.).

Look I haven't got my shit nailed down either so take this advice how you want but there is literally no way you will figure out what you want by sitting around thinking about it. Go out and experience as much as you can, in as many situations and places you can, with as many people as possible. You will eventually hit something that you know is you. I've literally wasted a year of my life by sitting around waiting for the whole path of life the universe and everything to just click and fall in my lap. It doesn't work like that.

Yeah, I found out that it's best to look in the future for what you might want the future to be. Find things I like in people, feelings I enjoy and things like that. It's still kind of painful for me though, since I'm not a shallow guy, I don't want relationships just for sex and sometimes even plain emotions don't do it for me, I really need something extremelly deep and rare.

you have the right mindset

I want to feel happy and abundant in life.

dont be so serious, go do something crazy and awesome, everyones i know is talking about college and university cuz their grade 12 and im grade 12 too

but what im planning for my future is to get a job, meet and talk to new people, do crazy awesome things, make new friends and save up to buy motorcycle and learn it.

I dont want to study and study and study and work and work and be "happy".
i wanna experience new things in the world, make new friends and create happy moments in my life and others. Iv had enough of school.

go watch LAHWF, publicpranks, rosscreation, mrstupidpoop.
theyr living their life doing these things just having fun in public.

I also graffiti anyways, heres my journal and stories of my last year in highschool
http://poypickup.tumblr.com/

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DUDE, I FUCKING LOVE YOU. o;
THANKS, like seriously THANK... YOU...