Day 24 - wingman , approaches , not giving a f*ck

Nothing to report happened yesterday really but today was the best day in terms of gaining experience. I meet a wingman from this site at a giant shopping mall. Dude is real goodlucking and tall (no homo LOL ) but is AFC like me.

We ended up approaching ALOT and he ended up with two numbers and i with one. It was an intense session. I realised my body language , laid-backness, tonality and frame control is crappy as f*ck ( this will need special attention paying). I realise i also need to fix my attire as i realised my trousers and shoes are slightly dirty (dont even pay attention to this stuff normally) and maybe add a few accessories here and there.

I also realise when i'm with someone i really dont care what anyone else thinks ( no more fear of crowd) but when i'm alone , it strikes like a bitch.

After 2 hours of intense approach , we say go our own ways and plan to sarge again on Sunday!. Dude is real cool and humble , i think this may be the begining of a very special bromance

As always , thank you for reading and stay tuned for the next post!

Day 25 - fixing bad habits

So , the main issue i have is frame control. I also realised i have another issue- report building.

Usually i will attempt to end a set in a min or 2 ( ASAP basically) wether it goes right or wrong , around that time i will ask for number and leave. This may be efficient in a crowded place where there are plenty of HBs and getting as many closes as possible.However i realise atleast 4/10 girls i talked to , i could closed if i built more rapport and sexual tension. Even today-

Australian HB 8.5

So i was back in central today for some good old fun! I notice this HB walked past and i switched off my brain and forced my body to tap her shoulder and stop for a conversation.

Me-Hey im in a bit of a hurry , i saw you walk past me and i really like your dress!
Her-thanks .
Me-What's your name?
Her-****
Me-I'm *****(shakes hands).
Me- So what you doing here?
Her-Just some shopping.
Me-Ahh i see , btw you have an accent , where you from.
Her-Sydney
*fluff talk about accents and Australia.(formal)
Her-What's your name again? (FINALLY an IOI!)
Me-*****
Me-Where you heading to now?
Her-To meet my mum. You?
Me- To a flash mob dance! (true).
*goes downhill after this , some fluff talk.
Me- Anyways , i've gotta go , you've gotta go , how about we exchange numbers?
Her-Sorry , i just don't give my number out.
Me-Why's that?
Her-I just dont.
Me- Fine , i'll give you my phone , you can type in a number wether it's real or not . ( from simple pickup).
Her- No , *blabalbalabl* but thank you!

Now before you bash me in here and in the PUA CHAT LOL , lemme just say i KNOW where i fucked up. I was being ballsy aproaching here whilst so many AFC noobs were watching me be a trie-hard (some even sneering!) and i was being persistant ( found most lay reports and field reports have this factor) and FINALLY just as she began caving in , i became a chode and told her i was gonna go a immature flashmob dance. I already have it against me that i'm baby-faced (was told 17 yesterday) and after all that hard of persistantly staying in frame i HAD TO , go AFC mode.

I guess because my mentality goes something like this-

*FU*K IT , just GO!.
*Keep it flowing playa , keep the body language and frame.
*that's it , get her talking.
*Finally , an IOI!!!!
*OH SHI* SHE MIGHT LIKE ME!!!
r*goes AFC mode.

I really dont know what to do when a clearly hot girl begins showing interest and i cant seem to keep in frame after that! I guess i'll try again tomorow! Maybe these things come in time!

That's it for now! Stay tuned for the next post , and as always , thank you for reading!

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Quick-post!- possible lay messed up!

I was at the shopping mall where there was a cute Hb 8 Swedish ( begining to have a thing for them LOL) . I directly open , fluff talk and then i attempt to close , she said she was going back to Sweden tomorrow but she could give it anyway. I ask what she doing now. She says , bored , just walking around (IO FUKIN I!!!! ). As for logistics she said she was living in a hotel , alone.... Seriously i should've just went with her and escalated!!! She was seriously DTF!!!! I realised i am quite dopey natured and realise things a little late ALOT!!!

Lesson learned

FU*KING PAY ATTENTION!!!!

Day 27

Today I only approached one girl...and got the number!!! . I was on the bus on the way to central and suddenly a group of senior bankers came on , a ridiculously hot HB 9.5 also comes on and sits. She has a killer body , with red lipstick and has an extreme rare beautiful eye colour (yellowish green). ALL the bankers were eye-fucking the shit out of her. We "happened" to get off the same stop ( me , ALL the bankers AND the HB that is ). I straight up went upto her when we got off. I mean when am i gonna get a chance to approach a girl this rare . Though i was shitting my pants intensly ( thoughts of what if i'm too young , what if she has a BF , what if she aint interested lalalalala bs) but i knew it was THE RIGHT THING to do!!! ( I love you RSD JULIEN!!!) so i went upto her as we were at the traffic lights-

Me-Hey , i really like your eye-colour! It's a unique colour! (genuine , direct)
Her- *seriously cracking up!!!* (RESULT )
Me- Seriously , what colour is it? Is it yellow?
Her-It's light green
Me-What's your name btw? (holds out hand)
Her- *hesitantly* "****" ( later realise its because its a foreign name and difficult to pronounce , lucky i get it right )
Me- *starts walking with her , green lights* So where you heading to?

*the next part is quit long , we talk jobs , how she's only free one day a week , how she's a barmaid and part time uni student , how she's Estonian and was here since July but has a perfect accent , how i'm just loitering around for the next 5 mins till i get a phone call from my friend , how she wants to show me where her job is , how i joke about her taking me to an alley way and rape me , we talk about languages UNTIL we reach the place and -

Her- Here it is- (about to go in, not so fast for me though , i got this far , might aswell PERSIST till the end )
Me-Wait , can you give me your number? So we can go pub ,go drinking (dont even drink LOL) , go cafe , who knows?
Her- *hesistating*
Me- How about this , you give me your number and i'll text you a romantic text , if you like it dont like it and think "who the hell's this guy"?? dont reply. If you like it, reply (simple pickup technique , its part of the plan). Here *gives phone* i'll let you type it , real or fake.
Her - ok , *types* , "shit , suddenly forgetting my number haha . (genuinely works hard typing it in.)
Me- Alright , see ya!
Her-Bye!

What i liked about the interaction

-The double bluff! I gave her the choice to ignore my text ( meaning she has to give the number in order to do that ) and gave her the phone and type her number "wether it's real or fake" (reverse psychology)
-GOING for it! I went direct even though i thought every odd possible was stacked against me (doesnt help that i look 14 even though i'm 18 and i'm just a student who still asks mummy for pocket money.
-The looks i was getting from other people saying " how DAFUQ is he even talking to her?? (feels amazing )
- How i stayed in frame throughout the entire thing, no stumbling.
-How i PERSISTED like a shameless hyena (never attempting ejecting even once and stuck to it.
-How i held a good conversation ( lots story telling , info , cocky funny , sexual)
-How i created "a bubble".

What i didn't like about the interaction

-No kino ( was high pressure as she was hurrying to work)
-I had to persuade for her number ( though this may just've been ASD

I realised though that i was so content with that n-close that i didn't even approach after. How do i stop this feeling of comfort? I found out the number's legit and i will shoot her a text tomorrow!

I still haven't fixed my inner game properly . I mean it's not exactly a DHF when i'm in class and there's a group conversation and i'm trying to speak ( i genuinely attempt!) and i get spoken over and ignored . I need to improve all aspects of my life...

That's it on that guys ! As usual thank you for reading! Stay tuned for the next post!!

Day 28

Nothing happened today , bogged down in college work

Day 29

Today was also no cold approach but dont worry!!! I realised since I've been improving my daygame alot to the point it's a hobby now , it's "normal" for me to approach. As an aspiring PUA , i need to also improve my social game as it can directly influence my game (for club game and bar game ) and in general can improve my life as a whole!!!

So what did i do today?

I wanted to focus on flirting , kino , and getting girls to like me "sexually" and also just being able to hold conversations and be popular! Since today was slightly weird i'll just focus person by person.

HB negophilia

Remember the girl that loves negs around day 23? I've started to recognise her type. Though it's easy for her for her to sleep around she only goes for "popular" ones. Today i told her i liked her jumper and she said she liked my hair. We just laughed around and cracked jokes today , nothing serious. How can i eventually crack this HB? I'm slightly below average in popularity as i've just recently came out of my shell!

HB horny as hell! ( HB HH)

This is the girl that hasn't had sex for 2 years. I have 100% made her green lights and seduced her. I really dont know why though she is literally a HB 3 i'd say ( lips cracked as fuck and intolerable breath quenched by gum, body and face really isn't nice too.) I basically kept flirting with her and then flirt with other girls infront of her and then check my FB for my hot friends and text the HBs i number closed just to show i'm a CAPABLE man who can get girls if he wants. Since we were sitting infront of our computers next to each other , i slowly ( i mean SLOWLY!!!) move towards the edge of the computer desk. As i move to the right , she moves to the right with me.

Towards the end i was hanging on the edge of my desk and she moved RIGHT next to me too?! She also kept on trying to talk "seductively" to me and i reciprocated with sexual innuendos. It's funny because at the begining of the interaction , she had SO many SH!T TESTS, was attempting to act "popular" but it failed so badly!! I even discussed having sex (in a funny way , two-way street) with a HB 7 RIGHT INFRONT of her!!! (god it's funny being a dirtbag ).

It sure as hell did work as i began MANY compliance tests with the girl. For one , she's very self- conscious about her stomach and having touched , being the dirtbag i am i groped it for like 15 seconds . There are way more IOIs i can list but it'll take forever. I will NOT have sex with her as i'm not physically attracted to her , i literally don't even think she can give me a boner nor will this go anything beyond a friend but good experience gained!! I know confirmed a lot of techniques that THEY WORK!

HB Shy (7)

This HB is a small , cute and VERY timid. Imagine a girl constantly apologising for the smallest thing such as "sorry for staring at you"?!?! I managed to get her number to keep contact but without any real seduction. She doesn't talk much to ANYONE in class so it's difficult to understand her personality. I have been flirting via text though at the moment. To best describe this girl , think a shy princess personality who's very sweet. I think i could pursue a relationship with her if she opens up and i get to SEDUCE her!

HB Eastern European (8)

This is basically the ideal girl for me in college , not slutty (somehow a virgin??) , similar personality and humour. Today i didn't really do much other than throw in some jokes here and there , didn't get the chance. How to progress??

HB 9.5 Estonian ( day 27)

Ok , i messed this one up BIG TIME! From what i can tell i texted her and he pretended to be a guy , i go all AFC and she goes cold (unless it really was a guy!!!) . I know where she works so i plan to sarge in her bar and pick up HB's right infront of her (jelousy plot ) so either it's a mistake where there may be a chance for her to redeem herself or i'll frustrate the f@ck out of her lol.

Either way tomorrow is the 30 day special!!! What better way to spend it than with my week old bromance / wingman . I seriously love this dude ,coolest guy ever! Stay tuned for an epic post tomorow!! And as always thank you for reading !!

Day 30-31 (ONE MONTH SPECIAL AND DOOMSDAY 21/12/12 SPECIAL )

DAY 30

Today i met the wing again (scroll to day 23 for more info on him) and we spoke and stuff as we were walking around. I consider him more a friend then a wing now to be honest . We're both noobs around the same age doing crazy things (approaching!!) so it's become more a friendship then winging. I literally approached thrice or so that day. First time the girl gave me a weird look as i opened her-

Me -*tapping* excuse me i just wa-
girl- *walk away as she gives me a weird look*.

This actually cracked me up , these funny things do happen in pickup and not all girls are social!(surprised i even think this way now). The second approach was a Cute french HB 8 (small with princess-looks)-

Me -*taps and stops walking* hey excuse i saw you walk past me and thought you looked really cute!
Her- Thanks , *carries on walking *
Me *walks with her* blabla time constraint talk.
Her- keeps attempting to close conversation.
Me- *keeps persisting and not ejecting no matter what ( newly acquired skill , helps ALOT)
Her- *Arrives at store* i need to shop here and i dont think your friend will be here( the time constraint)
Me- That's cool , *takes out phone* , i will continue looking for him , and you enjoy your shopping , but we should exchange numbers
Her- Sorry i'm engaged (shows ring)
Me- So , i have a dog too! (attempting to salvage anything)
Her- Sorry , got to go.

All i was thinking after this was - WHAT THE ACTUAL F*CK!?!?! Did she just want her ego stroked for 5-10 mins before pissing off to her shopping?? Usually the boyfriend thing ( ENGAGEMENT in this case!!) is mentioned quite early!! But whatever i was determined to carry on.

Me and wing keep walking around till i see a rocker HB 8. I see her just standing there with shopping bags , thinking. I seem a little nervous about approaching but after some encouragement from wing i go-

Me- Hey , i saw you walk past earlier on and i just wanted to say hi and find out what your upto
Her- Aww thanks , i'm just christmas shopping.
*fluff talk about shopping and hobbies and i throw a couple of time constraints*
Me- So anyways whilst i'm waiting on my buddy , how bout we sort your christmas shopping out for a couple minutes?
Her-Sure! (YESSSS FIRST INSTADATE THAT THE HB WAS GEUNUINELY INTERESTED )

We walk and talk , i do a bit of social kino ( leading way by waist , hi fives and all) , we had a smooth conversation and she was genuinely interested. SHE even number closed me?!?!? Then i say i have to leave ( BIG FU*KING MISTAKE I'LL EXPLAIN LATER) and she gives me the biggest hug and said it was cool of me to approach her!! Im pretty sure i couldv'e k-closed this one if i escalated appropriately.

I then approach a couple more and notice her watch me!!! The time constraint was false , i wasn't with a friend and i was flirting with someone else. She didn't respond to my text either so it's clearly fucked up. How to salvage this??

Day 31

I did NOTHING this day. I just walked around like a chode not approaching anyone. I think the biggest thing that could help me now is learning to gain "social freedom."It's a fail day.

So there you have it , i managed to get a date on the 30th day special and went chode mode the next day...

Day 32- More choding and analysis mode

So , i've been in this game for about a month. I've been doing a lot of self-reflecting today. I went out at evening for a long , long walk to self-reflect on my progress. These are the reasons i got into pickup (in the introduce yourself section) and i'll review them -

1. I was always nervous talking to girls and absolutely hated seeing a "badboy" who didnt even give two @£$%'s about the girl ALWAYS without fail get the girl! I'm not nervous talking talking to them now.

2.After accidentally stumbling on pua , i wanted to convince myself it was all a lie...that nice guys finish last...that i was a beta male...that i'll be forever alone if i dont attempt to fix this issue. The fact that all my female friends and even my own mother said it was better for me to be a a nice guy... . i now KNOW it's a fact that nice guys finish last.

3. Need to be careful about referencing TV programs and songs since i dont know if it will get me banned, this website is way to precious to me...but there's this korea drama i absolutely love. The main was just...so cool! He was strong , kind and ALL the females wanted him... i actually cried whilst watching it, these powers he has... i want it... The ability to make a woman desire you... i want it. Watch the Drama called city hunter and pay attention to the main lead . He has orbits , he can make women blush just by looking at them. He KNOWS he can get any women he wants. He is the object of desire , envy and lust wherever he goes. I still dont have any of these powers.

3. This is a continuation from number 2 but there was this girl, so damn perfect . She was nice, friendly , had green eyes and was very caring. I cared for her and looked after her and was nice to her. Meanwhile , a "badboy" treated her like crap , made her buy HIM food and frequently embarrassed her socially (in college). I was so damn sure i had her until i find out after Valentine that they were going out... in a desperate attempt i tell her how i feel but it couldnt happen. She said she only saw me as a BROTHER!!!! It was a whole new level i couldnt take psychologically. Then i went through a whole period of self pity until last month, this opened my eyes to GET OUT of bed and GO OUT and improve! Other than selectively pick right moments to open girls out of earshot with the occasional "just do it" mentality i dont feel much improvement

Continuation

These are the goals i established and i'll analyse them too-

Say hello /ask directions , 3 new people a day ( have been opening on most days so no issue here.)
Do NOT hesitate in approach , rather fail on my face flat than doing so. (i truthfully do hesitate and only approach maybe 30% of what i can REALLY do. I still suffer from "fear of crowd.")
Carry on the mid game as long as possible and do NOT eject till SHE firmly rejects/leaves. (no issue.)
Stop craning down my neck during my approaches (body language) to make better eye contact. ( I think i fixed this , i'll double check tomorrow)
Do NOT stutter and stumble when approach isn't going as planned. ( no issue here)
Be decisive.( no issue here during approach , however am VERY indecisive during approach anxiety)
State intentions either directly or indirectly EARLY on. (no problem with this now)
Be confident in my own skin/being me.( MAJOR issue)
Gain abundance and stop oneitis. (issue)
n-close. (by 8th of December).(done)
k-close.(by 16th of December).(could've done but pussed)
f-close(by end of 2012.)( had atleast 7 chances but i pussed , will explain below)

I feel i still haven't gained "social freedom". It's a skill i envy but lack , watching Sasha Daygame and Simple Pickup (fan of them ) i realise , that's one of the major skills they have . They literally do/say whatever they like at any point in time. I really need to know how to gain this. This is the main reason i hesitate to approach ( fear of crowd).

I'm still not comfortable being me i must confess . Though my wing says he thinks i have a funny personality and the HBs seem to be laughing i'm still insecure about it. This could be because i use to have a bad circle of friends who used to make a point of it whenever i made a joke that it was bad , this went on for years. The fact i was bullied at school and would go home to an arguing family /domestic violence and then back to school for almost a DECADE certainly has had a profound effect on me. I have felt suicidal from the age of 11 till now , 18 . That's 7 long years that was painfull all the way. This would come to a surprise to alot of my real life friends as i seem so cheerful but it's just because i'm so good at hiding it. They don't know the times i've been contemplating ending my life , the times i cried alone in the school toilets , the times i cried myself to sleep and no one gave a sh!t about me. All they known is the cheerful clown that is me.

I've been thinking about this during my walk. I remembered all the promises i made to myself when i was around 7. That i would be strong. That i would be cool. That i would have a better life and so much more ( yes , i wasn't suicidal at this age but very depressed). I remember I had so much hope back then. Slowly as i started to lose hope did i start to feel suicidal. And here i am today , with NOTHING accomplished with a female , suffering with depression , socially awkward ( not as much as before but still) , have a small select group of friends and an extremely insecure adult (yes , i'm 18 now , i have to face this , i'm no longer just a kid). I don't feel like "the man" or someone in a position of even remote envy ( or even acknowledgement).

I am NOT desired by women , i do NOT have orbits or quality relationshionships and i am NOT a confident person. These are the qualities i really want to get but it feels so far away...

I had only one potential sober lay which was the Swedish girl from around day 23. As it was around midnight by the time i got to central i saw a spot (definately remember for the future) where there were a nice traffic of drunk HBs . They were either in groups by themselves and i opened 6 in total . The structure of each of those was something like-

Me- *direct IOI*
Her- thanks , blabalbal
Me- * basic fluff talk*
her- asks to go back to hers?!?!?!?!?

and i flake everytime....i realise maybe i'm not ready for sex yet. Hell i haven't even been in a real relationship yet. For future reference - SAME NIGHT LAYS ARE VERY POSSIBLE IF YOU GO TO THE RIGHT PLACE AT THE RIGHT TIME!!! I was VERY scared at even the notion of sex.

The main thing that destroyed my mood today was that , i can't even recognise the guy in the mirror anymore. Who knew i would turn into this sad , anti-social virgin? And how can i even move on from these past demons when i still see the stimuli everday ( at home , i see the bullies working in central london when i sarge) and how can i even come to terms with this ?

Sup man, just spent the last 45 mins reading your journal and you were right lol. Its almost like I'm reading my own posts in the sense are mindsets are very similar.

You on the other hand have made some crazy progress and just reading your journal has put me back into a pua mindset, which means as soon I get back to uni I'm going to take my effort to the next level. I'm bored of the mental masturbation.

I agree 110% that we should check each others posts, as it will be extremely useful for both of us

Okay onto your last post....


Well I'm my first impression from reading this is holy f#ck!!!, this is way too similar me, are you sure you aren't my long lost brother lol.

O.K man, I going try a new approach that has helped me and if you are similar as I think you are it will help you as well. You have a addiction, that's right you heard me right you have a addiction to negative thinking. Ask yourself this do you get a weird sense of pleasure for thinking negative thoughts about yourself, its kinda of like eating a unhealthy meal.

You should make a new goal to learn how to dis identify from your mind, if you haven't read/ listened to the power of now do so asap because this can dissolve the negative crap in your head.

What I really mean is that you should fully belief the statement "you are not your mind".

This is an example of my thoughts whilst walking back from the gym today.

Mind 1: you are not worthy of women
Mind 2:F#ck you I am worthy
Mind 2:I am worthy
Mind 2:I am worthy
Mind 1: you are not worthy of women
Mind 2: That is a false belief created by ego
Mind 2: My ego has created a false belief and it is like a invisible barrier.
Mind 2: It has created this belief due to evolution as in the past this would keep me alive but now it is irrelevant and nothing more than a hindrance.

This is kind of a summary my thoughts lasting over an hour.

I then decided to take these 3 causes of action to prove to my mind the belief was wrong and nothing more than a illusion.

1] stop masturbating as this will make more sexual and want women more.
2] do affirmations.
3] actually start approaching as when I get more women in my life this belief will be proved wrong.

Now I want you to re-read your post, see how it gets progressively more negative. When I write my post on my history it put me in a negative state which led to a very depressive state as it made me view my life as nothing more than a pile a negative nonsense. I think perhaps you are going through the same thing, what I would recommend is realise that your memories aren't actually what happened and if you were to go back in time and observe from a distance and observe the memories that pop up when you think back in the past the will be completely different to what they actually seem to be true.

Also realise that this emotional feeling your feeling now will pass and when you do you will continue being that extremely confident guy who managed to get a instant date with a HB 8 after doing this for only one month. Common man the only reason you haven't had sex is just bad luck, I have zero doubt that it will happen soon if you maintain your current amount of effort.

I hope this post wasn't too much waffle and some of it was helpful

peace

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We may just have been seperated at birth man haha ! I have actually begun reading Power of now , hopefully this should help ! I am actually addicted to negativity to be honest , crazy as it seems. I agree with your post in general , however one thing i can't agree on.

Luck

I will say i had the capacity to get a girlfriend in both primary and secondary but was a pussy so i never reciprocated or took charge like a man. Later on in college , i resorted to just being friend zoned as i thought it would make them appreciate and "fall for me" ( F*CK YOU DISNEY AND WARNER BROS FOR THIS FANTASY BS). I can't plant any of my experiences down to luck , this is also part of the process for me to become a man. I must take responsibility and say it is my fault. I'm just stating this as i'm tired of blaming external factors for my problems.

The instadate is literaly the only visible success so far though! ( number close turned flakes so useless) , and due to my dopey nature when i got home on day 23 i realised i missed a lay oppertunity with a hot Swedish girl!!! I will say i definately could've got a lay if i focused more and made every interaction COUNT and really push my comfort levels. This is where inner game and no masterbation=horny animal who really works his fingers to the bone .

I'll definately try and focus on inner game books and meditating.

Thanks for reading man , and definately did make sense! Hope we can continue to analyse and grow from our journals!

Claws

Day 37 (wednesday)cockblocks and cool friends

Disapeared from here for like a week , but i have NEWS:

I've been approaching here and there but was considerably busy till wednesday!! So In England , the 26th of December is boxing day where everything's being sold for cheaper. It's a day MANY HBs shop for clothes , the streets were PACKED !! So might aswell make use of it!! I also had to go to the Winter Wonderland (a fun fair type thing) with some good old buddies after so a lil daygame would warm me up socially!!

I remember for some reason i was quite closed up in the begining of my shopping / daygame. I then began to ask hired guns where certain items were and soon enough , it worked!! Persistance was KEY! After some looking around , i spot a nice pink shirt ( PERFECT for peacocking) and bought it. Also bought a couple accessories here and there. I then spot a cute girl (HB8) and DIVE IN!!

ME-Hey , i noticed you've got very cute thingie (points to ears for earmuffs).
Her-Ear muffs! .
Me- Yeah , wanna actually get a guy version of that , where you got from? (genuine)
*fluff talk commences , finding out basic details.*
Me-Where you from btw , you've got a unique accent.
Her-Latvia.
Me-Really ? how old are you btw , you seem quite young , you may just get me arrested!! ( cocky funny)
Her-Guess.
Me *guesses from 15 to 11 , 16 is legal age here*.
Her-I'm 19!!!
Me- NAHHHHH!!
Her-I really am!!
*banter and some teases*
Me-You know i was just about to walk away , this could've very well turned into a pedophilia case. (banter)
Her-Hahaha , but who says we're having sex!!!! .
Me- Just putting this out there , it's possible!! BUT i'm a gentleman and i would prefer to just exchange number and meet up soon (completely fuc*ed up a possible sexual frame that SHE began , i need to improve sexual conversations for sure.)
Her-Ermmmm i don't give out numbers , how about e-mail?
Me-Ok bye.

Yes , that was retarded of me. Yes i f*cked up an oppertunity with a girl that was sexually open minded. She was very feisty and would require high levels of banter and sexual framing ( though i'm getting better at the former i still struggle with the latter) . I didn't even attempt to talk sexual and changed the subject asap. I didn't even try my usual number routine. I guess i just run away from the oppertunity if i know sex will be a possibility. I am SCARED to have sex! I don't know why but this could be due to these reasons-

1.I'm a virgin and don't want my first experience to be crap.
2.It feels like such a big thing i don't want to just dive into.
3. What if i'm actually bad at it?

THEN i notice a cute light brown girl (HB 8.5)

Me- Hey , i noticed you have really cute hat , where you got em from?
*fluff talk about hats , shopping and..SHE TELLS ME SHE WANTS TO BUY TEKKEN BUT CAN'T FIND IT ANYWHERE?!?!? Oh im in love...on xbox too!* *fluff and time constraint to number to hug *

This was a very organic and natural conversation , though i think i may have overnegged at the end , this will probably be a flake too. I sent a message like a mins after on how to spell her name and no reply. Will throw a hook on Sunday and if still no reply i'll just forget it.

Then i meet my buddies , seriously love these guys. I then during winter wonderland spot 2 HBS taking pics as i was preparing myself mentally for the scariest ride at the park . I make a mental note to approach them after the ride. I take the ride...and needless to say i felt like i was reborn...As in i was LITERALLY prepared to die throughout the ride and afterwards felt as i was just experiences life again. It was surreal.

I see them again afterwards!!! I tell a buddy to wing me, he hesitates. I tell him to just follow me. He does, and there were two HB's a tall one (5'9 ish , HB and a short one (5'2 ish but STACKED HB 8.5 , my kinda gal).

Me-Hey i saw you taking pictures at blablal
*fluff talk about rides and recomendations , negging the taller one alot and complimenting my target , tons of DHV from my buddy (dude seriously doesnt even know about game , he has a natural talent!) and after a conversation i basically ask ages , tall one says 15 and shorter says 16.
Me-Alright i'll get (points to shorter one) your number instead as i'll DEFINATELY get arrested for taking yours (points to taller)
Both HBs- *LOOOOL*
Shorter-I actually don't know my number off by heart and my phone switches off. (looks at other girl to give number).
Taller- i don't have it!
*lengthy conversation about the number , the taller claiming she doesn't have her own friend's number*
*I cant remember how but i ended the conversation saying that it was a failed mission in a funny way and they both laugh*

My friend was seriously impressed with the fact i even approached. "Game" by their standard is literally just approaching and creating attraction. I went into analysis mode and realised they were both into me , more so the shorter one. She kept looking back and hesitated to leave at the end and laughed easy at my jokes. The taller one had the mentality of "if i ain't getting some , NO ONE WILL!!" So i was satisfied that they both wanted me LOL. I realised i could've just taken the shorter girl's side and called her out on being a bad friend for not even having her number.

This was interesting!! I never been cock-blocked before so i'm learning new things!!! But Saturday (tomorrow) my bro is dropping me off at a party of his friends where i don't know ANYONE!! The ratio of boys-to girls is apparently 1-4!!! So i will have to peacock with my pink shirt and accesories!! I will be doing some reading on party game and will daygame beforehand to be socially warm!

Stay tuned for the next post and thank you for listening!!!

Day 41 , FB closing an Abercrombie and Finch model !!!!!!!!!!!

I didn't go to the party as i felt tired (thought it started at 7pm , but waited and found out it starts at midnight !!! ) so i slept haha. Today i have revised my goals in pickup due to Djnaveed's very memorable advice-

objectives

-Go out for the purpose of getting rejected and gaining experience ONLY ( not to strive to get a gf or something serious. (this effectively kills oneitis)
-Keep reading the books (almost finished reading the game , will read Power of now next) . This should help with my inner game and give me a broader understanding of the game in general.
-Keep analysing pickups (where i went wrong , where i went right etc) so i can improve and begin taking steps forward.

That's it! This is simple and i won't be as outcome dependant as i used to be. Anyways , onto the field report!!

Hb Abercrombie and Fitch (9)

So i was walking around central london to practise and i spot a HB 9 , she had blonde hair , blue eyes , around 5'8
+ 3 inch heels , was very thin and had VERY long legs!!! She had large breasts despite her thinness (atleast a C) and had a real ice-princess , femme fatale look to her. I kid you not when i say heads where turning as she walked , she captivated ALOT of attention without even trying. I knew based on her vibe and physique , she 100% had to be a model of some sort. After she walks past me i puss out on approaching her , i mean she looked out of EVERYONE's league !!! So i quickly go to my phone memo to read all the inspiring quotes and shizz so i wont puss out on the next approach . I then walk towards the direction she went and i discover she stood at the bus stop!!! This oppertunity was given to me on a golden platter and i was NOT about to give this up! -

Me- Hi , i was walking past you earlier but i was on a phone call and didn't get a chance to speak to you , i think you look nice , like a cardboard box.
Her-LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL , a cardboard box?!?!?!?
Me- Yeah , you know those cardboard boxes that can be closed up and open and stuff ( lots of visual cues here)
Her-LOOOOOOOL , well that was the most unique compliment i've ever been given.
Me- It just popped into my head!
*talk about how she's a abercrombie and Finch model , uni student doing philosophy and english , real confident air about her). I tell her about myself and spoke of my diverse hobbies and stuff , made her laugh plenty. After throwing a couple of time constraints , its was time to CLOSE!!!!*
Me-Anyways , i've gotta get to my friends , i think me and you should go for coffee . WAIT , do you models drink coffee? How about green tea???? ( i constantly neg her being a model , just to avoid putting her on a pedestal , it's clear this girl gets complimented dozens of times daily.
Her-LOOOOOOOL , thing is i don't give my number , how about Facebook?
*after several routines i realise this girl is seriously stiff , might aswell get facebook , purely for DHV ( more hot girls on Fb , the better) .

Self-Analysis

PHEW this girl was feisty!!! Where to even start! I will say , whilst i don't have one-itis for this girl , i definately will bring my A game to convert from facebook-to number close- to day 2. Simply because if i manage to get into the social circle of Abercrombie and Finch models , DHV will be HUGE!! Tons of HB to pick from due to preselection aswell! It won't hurt to date A&F model either!!

I realise this girl is also ever so slightly arrogent , can't put my finger on how exactly. Maybe it's just confidence and decisiveness?? In this interaction i'm proud of myself for not seeking validation or qualifying myself. I kept a strong frame but not a sexual one , thinking about it , this girl was definately sexual and knows what she wants , i showed been more sexual. This is the only mistake i can think of. I realised the other day what a MASSIVE problem i have

I AM SCARED OF SEX!!!

why?

1)Scared of messing it up/being shit
2)It seems like such a big and scary topic since i'm a virgin.

Whenever the college sluts talks to me , i EJECT , whenever i notice a girl is setting a sexual frame , i EJECT , whenever i'm speaking to a totally drunk DTF girl , i EJECT.

I have been running away from this for quite a while. If i can get rid of hurdle , my game can improve MASSIVELY ( sexual escelation) . This is one of the bigger boulders that is holding me back right now.

Really liking your reports. I will be paying more attention to these in future now. Keep it up!

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"They call me Hitman"

Thanks dude , really helps me stay motivated , needed this actually haha

Claws

Ok , i have no damn motivation!!!

Suddenly my mind played a sneak attack on me , and i don't wanna do SH*T!!!! Here's the damn list of things i'm procrastinating on-

-College assignments.
-My music producing hobby.
-Exercising.
-Chores.
-Posting the field reports on my journal.

Basically everything possible. I really want MOTIVATION and really be efficient as f*ck , but i don't know how to go about this!!!

Claws