hello guys as usual i guess every guy who joins this forum decides to make a journal at some point.
im doing this mainly to track my progress and to stop myself from being disappointed in my approachs.

just a short intro on myself:

i was the quiet kid in class. i got picked on and people tried to joke with me but because i was so socially retarded i stayed quiet so they started making fun of me.
i never had a gf, never held a girls hand, or even kissed.

met a girl who i liked at 18. was to pussy to tell her. by the time i told her she already found a bf which made me feel like shit.worst of all this bf was 40 n shes 18. this was probs where i realized im getting socially weak.

found the pua community through a friends friend whom i owe my thanks to. so i read he books and tried some practice but now i want to really get my hands dirty
so here i am.

My pua name is shade . welcome to my journey.....

17/08/2012

wednesday:


went out with a girl i met at the dog park . i would say shes a hb8. i befriended her so she took me to town with her friends. one of her friends was 17, hb6 i built some rapport with her but she had a bf so she was busy texting him. what can i say, nice girl just wrong time. any way i made new friends with im normally shit at and didnt make any major messups. will do something worthy of a fr tommorow.

As an interesting thing i want you guys to give me suggestions on what to do for my field runs so i feel like im challenging myself as well

take care
shade

19/08/2012

saturday

went to town with friends. met a girl who was friend of our group. introduced myself but she was moody for some reason so she ran off. she kept backing away from me.
opened a second girl who was also familiar with some one in our group. i compared heights of her and a tall guy and she got mad at me. guess she was insecure about her height

went and opened a hb8.

me:"are u tired or bored"
her: neither, im waiting for a friend
me: ....

at this point i had a brain freeze so i ran away

she later starts looking at me like i should re approach but i pussied out

saw a group of girls staring at me while i was on dance floor. they kept staring at me but once again i pussied out. probs didnt help i cant dance so i stood still like a dead fish

overall not too good because im getting very bad IOI's from all my approaches which drains my little self confidence.
drinking doesn't help since i dont really get drunk and alcohol doesn't help me in any way

hey guys found some wings and forgot about forum for a while. got into my first confrontation due to PUA

28/09/2012

went to a clubs with my wings. I had read MM before going out so i felt particularly confidant and outcome independent. naturally i managed to opened a lot of sets comfortably. I had built up a load of momentum due to this and was following the 3 second rule like a religion by this point. THEN i spotted a hb7 "shit stirrer", dress in a tank top and miniskirt. now the temperature was -6c. so i playfully said "u really know how to dress for the weather". I waited for a response....
after a full 30 seconds of staring she walks past me with a sly smirk. i brush it off and move back to talk to my wings. i turn around and spot hb7 staring at me with her friend. naturally i think either she's laughing at me or wants me to re approach. after about 5 mins a huge guy (6'2) walk up to me and shouts "IF YOU EVER TALK TO MY GF AGAIN I WILL CUT, U I WILL FUCKING RIP UR HEAD OFF!"

i was sacred but it also reminded me of styles encounter with his first AMOG in the game. I coolly replied "ok man i not making any promises but u have a good night". Needless to say i was shaken by the event and couldnt get it in my head space to open anymore.

Lesson of the night definitely check who's with who before following the 3 second rule

overprotective bfs arent alphas, theyr insecure and dont want to lose the girl so hard they have to show how big they are.

True alphas make them feel like friends and push them off quickly.
dont worry about that guy, keep approaching.

Trust me, most guys are wussies, Iv seen pua videos of girls getting hit on by guys and the girls bf is just standing there doing nothing and saying nothing, iv done it too.

_________________
my stories and tips and all the random shits
http://poypickup.tumblr.com/

hey guys. i feel like im getting worse. went out today again. so for the last week and a half im not really getting motivated to approach. all the girls are really "ugly" and even the ones that i kinda want to approach are girls who will blow you off n then tell all their friends to avoid me. so i haven't approached a set in so long and its getting frustrating since im not interested in any of the girls. any tips/ideas???