Ok its very late and i am tired but here we go.

I have just started University and i feel like a total chode because not only am i not getting any results but i am not trying due to anxieties etc.. If you look at my profile you will see that i have previously attempted to start journals but have failed due to lack of action. But here is why i believe this time i will succeed. I am at university doing a philosophy degree and there is countless number of beautiful girls in leeds. i have today pledged that i will approach 3 sets of girls every regular day and that i will increase number as i get more comfortable with them.

However i am very tired now and i will continue with the journal tomorrow informing you of the approaches and telling more about my self

I'm actually doing a Ph.D in philosophy.

To be honest, if you failed before due to lack of action, you will fail again. Action is in your character (thymos), or it is not. In my life I've met hundreds of persons who said they would do thing A or thing B to improve, achieve their goals, excell. In the end, only two of them pulled it off. Doubt you're going to be one of them. Prove me wrong. People talk all this time about improving and the goals they put for themselves. This is not a "trick" you can master. Are you ready to give every little bit of energy that you have, deprive yourself of eating and sleeping and if necessary travel to the end of the world to accomplish your goals?

First of all Mr. Marville l i think you are right about the action thing, i didnt approach today because i got some really bad news and my friend didnt turn up to wing me. But i have received your message and i promise you i will stop eating tomorrow unless i approach at least three girls. i know i can follow my actions because i was in a cruiser a year ago with all these foreign girls and i promised myself that i would approach 5 sets no matter what and i did.

But like i said i will stop eating tomorrow if i do not approach at least 3 sets. And thank you. May i ask where you did your philosophy degree.

P.s i am actually in the prosses of creating a PUA society in leeds university!

It's still day one but i thought i ll let you all know that i have actually given my self a wank sanction that will last until i get laid. I mean its the first year of university and i cant let it go without having sex. Also in order to ensure that i do approach and break this anxiety i will not eat if i do not approach the number of sets i have set and will actually suffer through a short starvation if i pussy out.

Good. All this is promising. Self-chastisement is the root of success. You must be prepared to deprive yourself of everything in order to succeed. You must persevere and 99% of the populace will not be prepared to do this. The professor supervising the Ph.D works in Nijmegen, the Netherlands. If you want to set up this society, I would love to come as a speaker some time.

How committed are you? One day I joined a girl's game in some online video game. I knew from that moment I would seduce her and travel all the way to the end of the world to reap the fruit of my reward. I set up a letter correspondence. As a result, I got to see Brazil from many sides that a cliché tourist would never get to behold. She was in fact very beautiful and a heart-warming personality. But 99.9% of the people would shiver from such a prospect of even undertaking this.

Day 2

I am in a way proud of my self and also disappointed. I went out today with resolve that I would approach three sets yet I didn't. I am proud because I know that I would have approached but what stopped me was a surprise phone call from mum saying come home immediately I am very I l'll and so obviously family is important and I ditched the plan of approach and went home!

I am happy because I know I would have approached and I will approach tomorrow.

P.S. it would be an honour Mr. Marville

DAY 3

Fuck shit shit fuck me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!111

I went to my first lecture this morning feeling all worked up about having to approach three sets. Indeed i was so worked up i didn't even know what the lecturer was saying I ended up missing a lecture later on because of all the adrenaline and anxiety an resolutness that i would approach three sets.

Thus i went out in to the campus and saw all the honey bees (girls) and fucking hell, i just wondered about for 40 minutes before i managed to work up some courage and approach this HB 7.5

ME : 'Excuse me, hi, do you think it is cheating if a girl kisses another girl while she has a boyfriend?'

HB: ' yeah, why?'

ME: ' well my friends girl friend did that last night and he doesnt know if he should break up with her'

HB: ' Yeah he should but it depends on the situation'

ME: ' what if a guy kissed another girl.. now that would be weird'

HB: ' yeah that would be weird haha'

ME ' so you say he should break up with her'

HB 'yeah'

ME 'ok i ll tell him that haha bye'

She fucking wanted me, she was responsive with a big smile on her face, i was doing very well as well but then i said goodbye with my objective of just giving an opener so that i break through this accursed AA. for another hour i just wondered about and not approaching, when i walked home, you should have seen my face i looked furious!!! I stopped eating for a while to punish myself but then i realized that would be counter-intuitive since i would just become more tired and less likely to approach tomorrow. Doing it on your own is fucking hard!!!!

Tomorow i ll give myself one hour to approach three sets.. i ll also invest in a elastic wrist band so that i can snap myself every time i miss an opportunity!

Just a bit about myself i am Kurdish but came to england 8 years ago, not being able to speak english made me fuckiing shy as fuck which fucked up the chances of getting laid at high school even though all the girls wanted to fuck my due to my good looks, most give me a rating of 10 and say that i have a sexy accent. But since 15 i knew that i wanted to be a seductionist or a rake someone like valmont who was able to seduce women and be amoral; the exact opposite of me now and now i cant do anything but want to get that otherwise i just cannot live life since i find it exteremly boring without being a rake!

Ok, so, start up this PUA community and P.M. me about more info.

So, i read this post. 1 it's rather weak that you broke the "not eating rule". People always make up excuses not to punish themselves. It's the fragile human nature. Also weak that you didn't pay attention to the lecture.

Here's my log: to-live-epically-vt149144.html

This should give you some more useful knowledge. I read your convo with the girl. Then, all of a sudden "she fucking wanted me" I am thinking: How the hell does this follow? Anyway, just go on building some sets. How about you talk to the girls sitting in your vicinity during the lecture? That's what I always did. But never got any girlfriend in uni though.

Thanks for the info Mr. Marville, useful as always. By *by she fucking wanted me I meant that was responsive and into it. I will need to learn all pick up stuff again and practice them since the old material I learned a long time ago and has faded in my memory.
My life at university and in general is changing quite drastically.. for the better. I now wake up weekdays at 6am and go to the gym at 7:30, before lectures etc... I also decided not to quite and Army Officer's Training Course I am in at the moment. Finally I am dedicating most of my time from now on to studying and reading, with five hours a week practicing.

I went with the philosophy society to the Don Giovanni play and managed to get two numbers closes as well as two hugs from two girls who were friends, they were not the prettiest of girls but hey I think what I seriously need to up in my game is Kino escalation or Kino at all !! and also playful talking. But I seriously need to up Kino I am literally just static around girls at times or I put my hands in my pocket (just stupid). Finally the problem is my dad was and still is quite a seducer, he always told me to seduce as it makes life more fun but I couldnt do it even though I wanted to and this has made me feel inadequate and insecure... fuck I seriously need to become better at this and stop feeling sorry for my self!!

Thanks for the info Mr. Marville, useful as always. By *by she fucking wanted me I meant that was responsive and into it. I will need to learn all pick up stuff again and practice them since the old material I learned a long time ago and has faded in my memory.
My life at university and in general is changing quite drastically.. for the better. I now wake up weekdays at 6am and go to the gym at 7:30, before lectures etc... I also decided not to quite and Army Officer's Training Course I am in at the moment. Finally I am dedicating most of my time from now on to studying and reading, with five hours a week practicing.

I went with the philosophy society to the Don Giovanni play and managed to get two numbers closes as well as two hugs from two girls who were friends, they were not the prettiest of girls but hey I think what I seriously need to up in my game is Kino escalation or Kino at all !! and also playful talking. But I seriously need to up Kino I am literally just static around girls at times or I put my hands in my pocket (just stupid). Finally the problem is my dad was and still is quite a seducer, he always told me to seduce as it makes life more fun but I couldnt do it even though I wanted to and this has made me feel inadequate and insecure... fuck I seriously need to become better at this and stop feeling sorry for my self!!

Okay, this certainly merits a reply. I'm not gonna beat around the bush and cut my advise, or rather, instructions, up into three parts.

1. Invest as much as you can of your time into studying and the officer's training. This should take up about 90% of your time. These are truly important goals. Help you to build character. Without character, you will not be a self-convinced person, but instead will rely on social approval like a nursing-calf. Basically, what PUA's do is that, since they don't have character, since their lives don't revolve around goals they hold to be important to themselves, they imitate things thought up by others. They read books written by others that teach them how to be themselves.

I would even go as far as saying that it's better for a person to throw all of his time, passion and energy into training and studying and ignoring the whole "socialize and get drunk in disco's" and visit prostitutes instead to save time and disappointment with frivolous one-night stand girls. Because then, once you finish the stage that prepares you for life, you will be a one-man army, and life will yield to you whatever you require from it. This is super-unorthodox advice that goes against all political correctness. But hey, if someone actually did this, it would at least be Epic.

2. So, whatever you do, make sure to complete that officer's training course at all costs. Philosophy + military discipline = recipe for Epicness. Combines loyalty and duty with creativity, rationality and objectivity. These values combined build a man that will rise above thousands. But then again, I do think that choosing such a committed path in life will take a Character that's only to be found in one in hundred-thousands. Because ordinary people are cliché, and one day they wake up, open the curtains, gaze upon the beaming light of the sun slicing the horizon, and think: "I should try to be president of earth!" and the next moment they see a commercial and they will have forgotten all they just said to themselves. I would go as far as to say that the weak character of most people is why anything based in mass-appeal systematically undermines civilization.

3. Your dad thinks you have to seduce girlies. Well, everyone has his own way of dealing with sexuality, totally dependent on his or her character. So relationships that cause your dad to thrive, might not make you thrive. Did he consider that? My dad is basically a working class guy with some interest in history. When I was reading all these books from Plato, Nietzsche, Machiavelli etc when I was 13/14/15/16 years old, he ridiculed me for it. My dad used to ridicule me when I was a little kid, and every Sunday we had fights. I said to him: "Be careful, because if you bring me up in this way, your upbringing will fail because one day you won't be the strongest of us anymore." Then I turned 13 and I started kickboxing. Some kids were trying to pick on me in class because I always answered the questions by the teachers and asked lots of questions myself, and displayed such a wide vocabulary with many scientific and literary words. But instead of backing down, I said: "I am more intelligent than you, and I could probably become stronger than you. I deserve to rule for my superior qualities over you superficial lot who care only about getting pussy, and this objective I laid out for myself will require power." Then I invested all my time and energy into upgrading my fighting skills, debate appearance, and sought to deepen my knowledge. I spent many of my breaks at the school library.

My method is to move forward towards my goals, and crush all that stands in my way. However love is only rewarding if it is reciprocated, and for girls you can't control their hearts. This is why I'm only vulnerable in love.

Okay so things have changed quite a bit recently so lets get down to it!

First and foremost military training has been fucking me up quite bad, in a good way. Intense training like having to be awake at 4am in the morning in a forest, wet and cold and being awake lying down in the mud doing guard duty. Also i have been extremely busy with my philosophy degree i have a lot of essays coming up. Those have kept me really busy!

I have also stumbled across a private pick up group which have invited me so i can now have pua buddies to train with which is a huge relief.. although i am yet to meet them because of the busyness lol

Wonderful, at least there was an update!
Well, if you guys need a speaker, make sure to drop me a line.
Kind regards and do your duty!

NEED to update!!!

Fuck i have to finish three essay by this monday

Anywho back to PUA

I went on a Saturday Day sarge last week with the pua guys and managed to do four approaches yayyyyyy being with others really does motivate you to get shit done! i mean the approaches went horribly lol but i saw some do really good and it did motivate me! Also i watched this video by tayor from RSD talking about how rewiring the brain takes about a month.. so i have pledged to go out three nights a week to do night game with some other puas... it should be awesome!

Where do you live mr marville? i am not gonna set up the society due to a serious lack of time on my part but i will hang out with a pua group and it would certainly be a pleasure to meet you, learn from you and game with you.