| So here's the story:
I started dating this girl back in February, a little over a month after she'd gotten out of a pretty serious LTR with a guy who treated her like complete shit. I mean he did everything in the book to fuck her up, hit her, verbally abused her, and quite possibly cheated on her. We'd been friends for about a year and a half prior to this, meeting at a part-time job.
When we first started dating, it was great. She was absolutely crazy about me, doted on me constantly, and wanted to hang out everyday. Which was fine with me, because I had been equally crazy about her for quite some time. I treated her well, spent plenty of time with her, and she said I gave her the best sex she's ever had.
Over time though, her infautation with me began to deteriorate somewhat. We started having less sex than normal, saw each other less, etc. Looking back now, I think it was mainly because she started losing respect for me and didn't view me as much of a boyfriend as she did a best friend.
Well early last month, I left the country for study abroad. We had discussed keeping an open relationship once I left since I would be gone for a semester. The idea is that we would be free to date other people during that time, and pick things back up when I returned.
2 weeks ago, she SPAM me and said she couldn't deal with the distance, and thought it was best to break things off. She said she still loved me and wanted to be friends, blah blah blah. I was initially a bit upset, because this was a girl who I'd given myself to and herself to me.
This is where the plot thickens a bit. Shortly after the call, my friend tells me she's been having sex with this guy at work for quite some time now, and quite possibly before I even left the country. I wouldn't have cared, if not for that last part. So I confronted her about it, and she admitted it. She immediately started apologizing, calling herself a bitch, etc. I didn't reply, I was too mad to.
Next day, I get a long ass message where she begs for my forgiveness, apologizes profusely, and all that other stuff girls do to make themselves feel better about screwing someone over. But also said she "never had intended on having a serious relationship" with me, even though after 8 months of exclusivity, it had definitely become one. I simply replied that while part of me still cares for her, I am not going to simply forgive her just because she asked for it and told her it would be a long time before I could ever be her "friend." I told her I was moving on and that the break-up was probably better for both of us, and didn't insult her in any way.
This guy she's with now is a loser, much like her first ex. Guy doesn't have a car, is 24 and without a degree, lives in a shitty rundown apartment, and walks to work. That kind of guy. My thoughts are that she has some self-esteem/maturity issues, as she's 20 years old and I'm the only "good guy" she's even been with.
I have 4 months before I come back home. I've already started taking the necessary steps to get my life back in order (started working out at the gym, changed my diet, seeing other women, etc) and am starting to see some progress in my healing.
My question is what should I do when I get back home if my feelings for her are not completely gone? Obviously I can't trust her the same way I used to, but is there a way I can rekindle some of that attraction and make her a possible FB? She was a great lay, and if nothing else, I'd like to have a physical relationship with her again.
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