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| Ebomb31 | PostPosted: Fri Oct 19, 2012 8:40 am | |
| Offline | | MPUA Forum Enthusiast | Joined: Fri Feb 04, 2011 10:54 pm Posts: 42 Location: NorCal | | This is some inner and outer game shit.
For the past year and a half of being in the dance community and being a physically oriented person, I developed an uncanny ability to connect physically with beautiful women and have it seem completely normal.
That's just it. It's COMPLETELY NORMAL. It's lost its sexual charge. And I've lost my lust and desire.
I'm thinking of what I really want and it's loving sex with someone I care about, more than just hookups. And it's frustrating the fickleness of hookup culture. Girls flirt with me and I flirt back but inside I'm thinking "fuckin really? Seen it before, not taking you seriously" while I find myself pretending to be AFC to chase them off.
In the past year I had all sorts of wild spectacular experiences. I went to a dance club with the girl I was involved with and had 4 other HB's fighting to undress me, in public, and found myself fighting to keep my pants on. I went to a party with another close female friend of mine and after everyone mistook her for being my girlfriend, a different HB shoved me up against a wall and grinded against me. Then another different one ended up wrapping her leg around me and pulling my pelvis tightly against hers while she did a backbend over the kitchen counter. That kind of stuff became so normal I didn't take it to mean much. I think I had sex maybe 4 or 5 times in the past year total. It became a running joke among my closer friends when they figured out what was going on. One of the hottest girls I know actually shoved me against a wall and pulled out a hilariously cliche' line "if a tree falls in the forest and no one is around to hear it, did it ever really make a sound?" in reference to the girlfriend I had at the time to which I replied "Yes, especially if I'm the tree!"
I'm really unsatisfied honestly and I don't feel very transparent or congruent. I feel like it's a mirage, and I'm strongly losing my interest in women. I don't take them seriously anymore nor do I take myself seriously relating to them. And I'm not sure what to do about it. Any advice would be welcome, insight, or criticism (just keep it constructive and respectful please)
Also, just for reference, I am not turning gay or coming out of the closet. I actually wondered and pondered whether I was or not. But upon much introspection I can tell you I'm definitely not interested in men. So that's not it.
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