I'm 17 and right now I have a TERRIBLE teenager state. I hate my parents for every slightest thing they do wrong, I don't even want to go near them or them touching me. I have EDD ( http://www.conradbaars.com/edd.htm ) which mostly causes my SA and there's really no way to cope with it.

On the extreme the symptoms are about like this:
- I can't establish rapport with most people. (School etc., I don't really even know how do you "establish rapport with someone" how it feels?.)
- I usually want to get away from people ASAP, because I feel insecure and that I could be disliked by someone.
- I always feel lonely, even with people.
- I feel like a child that can't do anything by himself or without instructions.
- I become fearful (I'm scared easily, people laugh about it alot.) and locked up at school or around people.
- I'm fearful, depressive and I easily become discouraged if I don't do something on the moment.
- I'm overly sensitive to everyones judgement.

Generally most of the stuff in this site: http://www.conradbaars.com/edd.htm
I'm more of a defensive/non-agressive type.
I don't have any physical symptoms (maybe only smell) or symptoms that could harm others.

Can anyone help, please?

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hang in there. seems like this site is for you. you definitely need someone to talk with, might want to post to see if there is a lair near you. i don't know anything about EDD but you might have a long journey in front of you, seems like you need to get some shit straight before you are in the field.

i would just say that while psychotherapy and medication are needed by many and do a lot of good there is some peril in seeing oneself strictly through a clinical lens: it can be an impediment to taking control of your life and making personal change.

http://tazzpua.blogspot.com/

The thing is it's almost impossible for me to talk to people, I never know what to say and why should I say something, what would he/she thinks of me...

I live in Latvia, probably no lairs here near enough for me. (I'm 17 so I can't travel around either.)

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Damn, I just went totally open on my gf.
I told her I don't have a life and explained it so she would understand.
Honestly, I don't have any friends or a life at all, now she knows that.
I also added all the problems that are bothering me like EVERYTHING in my mind, the bad shit about her, what I'm stressing about, EVERYTHING.

She didn't dump me.
The thing is, she's fucking hot, I'm not even good looking. There's nothing she'd want from me. Except the thing that I'm not a jerk and I have a soul and a heart.
I think I created some kind of an emotional bound she can't break. She told me she kept thinking about me after we broke up a few weeks ago. I feel ridiculously awesome right now.

People don't matter to me anymore. I don't think about the shit I "have". I feel like being with her would cure EDD for me. I feel like there was no EDD in the first place. I'm really starting to pick myself up and notice the things I REALLY want from life instead of worrying what could go wrong and who am I.

I'm pretty much sure the best thing to do now is to create my life with the new power and freedom I have now. New possibilities. New friends. New hobbies. Everything.

I DAMN FUCKING LOVE LIFE. :]

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Your frame is fucked up man. You don't list what is wrong with you. You make a list of what to avoid and what you need to do to be better. When you make a "This is why I'm so fucked up" list, it just reinforces your perception of yourself as a flawed person. You need to be more positive and self-affirming.

For instance, I have ugly skinny legs and look terrible in shorts. But I don't sit there and convince myself I have ugly legs. I just made a note to never wear shorts and make sure to wear cool jeans. I have health problems, but I don't write down that I'm sickly. Instead I wrote down that I need to avoid revealing to women that I have health issues if at all possible. Focusing on negative shit without a solution is pointless, futile, and counter-productive.

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“Nothing is impossible, the word itself says 'I'm possible'!” ~Audrey Hepburn

Try to understand this concept. No one cares. Not in a bad way its just no one care what you do or say or feel. They are to busy thinking that every one is looking at them. They are dealing with there own insecurity's in life. The day I stop giving a crap about whats cool or what people think of me was one of the best days of my life. I do as I please I say what I want an I be whom I want to be. I do not box my status on other people opinion. Remember this to, its not what you do or say in life that people remember. Its how you make them feel. You can do the most awfullest things in this world but you do it with a smile and some class and a bit of flair you can do what ever you want. People forget what you do or say in like 5 minuets. Hell I cant even remember what I said yesterday how is any one else going to. Also hate to say it your parents are cooler then you. This my parents are lame and I cant stand them. They been there and done that. Its like what advice would you give a 12 year old being that your 17. That 12 year old will be like you don't know what its like your too old. I bet you could tell them so much and teach them your mistakes. Yeah its like that for them. Your like a little 17 year old in there eyes.

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Why guys and girls don't mesh.

"Chicks are crazy and guys are dumb." Chinopants.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=en ... a_Nno&NR=1

I started looking at things totally differently now.
When I have a problem, I look for a possibility solution not "dealing with it". When I have no problems, I find a possibility to make everything even better.
I don't care what other people do and say. Fuck them. If I don't need them, they're not there. If I need them, I have them my own way and they have no saying no to me or I'm gone.

I also noticed a weird "I should be respected by everyone" feeling inside of myself. Respected for being what I am. I noticed that my posture changed INCREDIBLY today. My mind was calm at all time (though, I kept struggling with a few thoughts that don't really matter). I just felt all this POWERFUL being going right through me. It's like I could've taken on the biggest bully at our school and I wouldn't give a fuck about it, I knew I could handle even THAT, I could handle anything that came at me.

I don't even think what to say to people, I could just go up to a girl, tell her she's fucking hot or start a deep convo and be on with it. It's just the confidence I suddenly have now. (I don't even care about "establishing rapport", I just don't wanna and they have to respect that.)

I see life like a meaningless game. I'm just one of the players and I'm playing my way and the best way, whatever they say.

Also I noticed people actually respected me, just by my posture and the way I kept low (but dominant) energy around me all the time. It was like I was in control of everything that happened around me. Even the things that I'm not supposed to control.

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