| I have spent years learning this stuff, and I have progressed so much since I started game back in 2010, but I am nowhere near where I could or should be. I soaked up as much knowledge as my brain could hold, I went to parties where I was most comfortable and I did well. Hell, I even slept with several women since then. However I have not been laid since last November. I thought I could skip the hard work-the going out and approaching loads of women and pushing throuh AA. I have been proven wrong. All my self confidence was accomplished from modeling the behavior off of real alpha males and faking confidence until I became confident. But the second I step outside my little comfort zone, I crumble. I'm just a little AFC with a confident "character" that I step into whenever I go outside. Inside, I'm different than the common AFC.
That's why I could never have a relationship. I was too busy "gaming" her and running routines instead of just being myself-and a soon as she saw who that was-just an AFC-she would be gone. And it would take only a matter of weeks.
But not anymore.
This weekend, I took two of my friends to Kings Island where we forced ourselves to talk to women.
I took a new approach to game this time. This time, instead of trying to psyche myself up, fix my hair, put on stylish clothes and turn on my alphaness, I was going to start completely from the bottom and be the true AFC that I am, nervous, unconfident, shy. Basically what I did was put myself through the Marine Corps. Basic Training, where they completely strip you down of who you was and rebuild you as a Marine. That's exactly what I'm doing. I would stop kidding myself about how good I "thought" I was with women and get rejected as many times as possible-so I could see myself how I really am, and how good I really am with women.
I approached over 30 women Saturday. I started literally shaking from fear as I approached my first victim-a milf in the line in front of us. All I did was ask how much a Fast Pass was. When I left, I had a genuine confident swagger and a smile and satisfaction because I ACCOMPLISHED MY GOAL.
I learned so much about myself Saturday. I set a goal and I put in the effort and achieved it. I can now talk to a hot girl without fear, but if I go in with the intention to hit on her or even compliment her I still clam up. I'm going to go out every day this week and approach at least 10 girls a day until it is natural for me to stop somebody and talk to them. Then and only then will I try to actually "game them." The objective is now to see how many ways I can get rejected and get that out of the way.
I realized girls aren't that scary. The hottest girls blush when you tell them they look absolutely stunning. Sometimes when I thought I just got ignored, my friend said he saw her blush and smile a million mile wide smile. I was making their day.
Now I can't stop. I love going out and approaching women. Once you get over the fear of it it's fun. I love talking to all the different women. I had one girl who worked there laughing her ass off as I teased her mercilessly. She was legitimately enjoying herself-and so was I. Something I had never thought would happen from a cold approach.
The goal here is not to see how many women I can sleep with or learn "day game" or "night game" or "supermarket game" or "speed seduction." I don't just want a quick fix to my problem. I want to COMPLETELY CHANGE the person that I am. I want to forget everything I've ever been told about women and LEARN FOR MYSELF. I don't just want to be told how to pick up a stripper, I want to go in and fuck up until I figure it out. I don't want to be shown how to number close the hot waitress at Red Lobster, I want to learn how to do it myself. What works for ME. I want to completely rebuild my personality until I am an HB10. That way I won't just be some fake Mystery wannabe standing outside a club on Sunset in platform boots, eyeliner and a neon sign hanging from my neck. I don't just want a PUA character to put on. I want a complete transformation from AFC to HB10. Not a pickup artist, not an rAFC, but a 10. A real, legitimate, alpha male, HB10 who can get ANY GIRL he wants. Anytime, anyplace. Because that's what 10s do.
That is my goal, and that's when I will be happy, and I am willing to do whatever it takes to make it.
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