You ever had that time when you were just stuck In a rut?

My name is Aaron. I'm a relatively tall yet stocky Asian with a wide face and typical Asian features. I was born in New Zealand, did my first year in kindergarten in London and spent 1 year in Canada soaking up some amazing memories. The rest of my life was spent in a modern Asian country governed and oppressed by islamic ideals and left to rot as the government takes its share of 1.06 trillion in corruption. Now we're 226 billion in debt as the government clamps down on us more tightly every year, taking more and more funds from a pool of money that doesn't exist anymore and is slowly eating away at international investments.

And the future is definitely looking bright. I havent even hit my twenties yet.

I started this journal because I honestly needed a place to track myself. I've been at this pua business ever since I was 14 as a result of my Canadian cousin going through a phase of it himself. I think soaking up the knowledge has actually hindered me. I've transformed from a young, energetic kid who always took great leaps outside his comfort zone to test his boundaries into an awkward social teen who spent too much time mulling over what he SHOULD be. I feel like the social skills which came naturally to me before have buried themselves somewhere in the recesses of my brain, slowly being killed off by my negativity.

So I figured, no more. Thins can't possibly get worse, right? And with university finally starting for me in October I figure I need to start whipping myself into shape to achieve the perfect university years a teen yearns for.

So, hey, might as well get down to business.

My long term goals are relatively simple. I've tried to keep them clear of social desires.
1. To live life to the fullest. I want to live life enjoying incredible things with people I've taken time to get to know and befriend. Having a good social skill set would definitely help.
2. I'd like to find love. Who doesn't, really? I still haven't had the chance to enjoy some of life's most beautiful moments with a woman. If I die before then my soul will haunt this earth.
3. I'd like to be the kind of guy who can make others feel great just by being around them. I know how this feels, and it's incredible. To have the charisma to make people enjoy and feel good about themselves; shitz, that's a skill I would kill for.
4. To gain the upper hand in a competitive community. Make friend with the boss, anyone?

I know it's kind of weird to have goals which don't all correlate with pickup, but I believe that inner game and social skills sets are the. Best ways to achieve all the goals I set out to do.

So right now I'm gonna start my journal here. I don't know if anyone is reading, or will bother replying, but right now, it just feels good to write. Words just flow.

Here's to hoping I make it out of this rut.

-Aaron

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Being nice to everyone (except the girls) is hot.

Prologue

It's 3 am in the morning as I type this, and I've just made it back from a fishing trip. I'm sunburnt as hell and my skin stings whenever I touch it; and I've just dropped my iPad on my face and bit my lip. My plans haven't started yet but here are my short term goals for this week.

1. Get in shape. I'm gonna hit the pool every 5 pm for 4 days this week and then do some slow exercise with weights in the gym.
2. Approach: get a feel for how this works. I have a confession to make: in my five years of pua, I haven't been able to approach even ONCE. Pathetic, I know. But I've always wanted to make this skillset useful for popularizing myself with current associates; not new ones. I have made approaches with success before while I studied in New Zealand though. The goal is to approach 5 groups a day for 4 days.
3. Sleep early, wake up early. My sleep hours are horrendous.

Ok, that should do for now I guess. Hope this works out.

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Being nice to everyone (except the girls) is hot.